memoirs of a brown girl

Late 20s, PhD. UK.

[sweetlikeacherry]

[creekfiend]

gender essentialism is soooo funny bc it's like "this is what women are like" and you're like "I've met women and many of them, if not the majority, have not been like that" and it's like "well women SHOULD be like that" and you're like "why should women be like that" and its like "because that's what women are like"

[postcolonialrage]

trying to make my comeback here... in the thick of the PhD at the moment. in my absolute final year, writing my literature review with a looming deadline. so obviously i decide to dig out my tumblr account. struggling with focus and general aches & pains this week. miss having fun in the world.

[demoncity]

SPIRITED AWAY 2001 • dir. Hayao Miyazaki

[ghiblicentral]

SPIRITED AWAY 2001 | dir. Hayao Miyazaki

[postcolonialrage]

last week in food: i have been visiting my favorite cafes just to make work a bit fun... and occassionally buying myself sweet treats to eat in bed. today i got done with all my teaching for this week and i am kind of exhausted at the prospect of doing this for 9 more weeks... one day at a time *deep breaths* i am genuinely looking forward to flying home and vegetating at the end of this term

[bbyyygirl]

[delusionalrobot]

from the introduction to emily wilsons translation of the iliad

[diomedrian]

Ok ok ok breathe

[inter-stellar-dust]

Everyday schedule

[postcolonialrage]

some other photos from this week: i rewatched kiki a few nights back and it resonated so much with me! (moving out, living alone, making friends, working *sobs*). I have also been reading ali smith's autumn and i loved the opening paragraph. and the third photo is from campus that i took on friday - a rare sunny day.

[postcolonialrage]

some photos from last week. i signed up to teach 3 courses this semester (yikes) mostly because it would be nice to have some extra money. i have been making slides all week & it's been a bit exhausting. i am going to a coffee shop today to finish all the prep for the four tutorials i am teaching this week so that i can go back to transcribing tomorrow.

other things to do today include laundry and meal prep. at least i managed to sneak in some reading time this morning.

[womaninterrupted]

Here’s the true secret of life: We mostly do everything over and over. In the morning, we let the dogs out, make coffee, read the paper, help whoever is around get ready for the day. We do our work. In the afternoon, if we have left, we come home, put down our keys and satchels, let the dogs out, take off constrictive clothing, make a drink or put water on for tea, toast the leftover bit of scone. I love ritual and repetition. Without them, I would be a balloon with a slow leak.…Daily rituals, especially walks, even forced marches around the neighborhood, and schedules, whether work or meals with non-awful people, can be the knots you hold on to when you’ve run out of rope.

Anne Lamott, Stitches: A Handbook on Meaning, Hope and Repair

[luthienne]

Andrew Garfield, in an interview with GQ

It's never-ending. The grief is never-ending. The love is never-ending. Like, Oh. That's the nature of love.

[metamorphesque]

[i-merani]

One must imagine Sisypus happy not because he enjoys the struggle but because the struggle is all he has. Journey on the hill is who he is, without it he would lose all sense of identity. In an absurd world we define the struggle as our identity, identity is all we have and we are eager to maintain it even if it brings us misery.

[astraldemise]

IN A WORLD WHERE BEAUTY AND ATTRACTIVENESS HAVE BECOME SO COMMONPLACE AND MUNDANE THE EXCEPTIONAL UGLINESS HAS BECOME DIVINE

[astraldemise]

I SAW AN ADVERTISEMENT FOR A CAR THAT LOOKS LIKE EVERY OTHER CAR AND THEY COMPARED IT TO A UNUSUAL UGLY LITTLE VEHICLE AND ITS STRANGENESS WAS FAR MORE CAPTIVATING THAN THE SLEEK BORING CAR THE AD WAS ACTUALLY FOR

[soracities]

Umberto Eco, On Ugliness

[headspace-hotel]

BEAUTY IS FINITE, UGLINESS IS INFINITE LIKE GOD

[postcolonialrage]

more photos from my weekend trip to bath. i took a walking tour - learned a lot about how the rich used to live (ew) and visited the roman baths. fascinated by the 1000 year old water and ruins. really felt the passage of time. came back to manchester. now back to transcribing and teaching.