pity party

barbra Rachel Fabray sixteen. junior. Rachel Fabray, here. I don't really care what you'll assume of me due to last year. Just know that I'll rise to the top everytime I'm knocked down. My past will not define how far I get in the future. Mother to Beth. Happily taken by Mason Hudson.

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[Everything seemed to go in slow motion when the name announced wasn’t hers. Rachel tried to smile, eyes on Mason who had been crowned king, but it.. It felt awful. She’d tried to delude herself so intensely to believe that she was getting to where she’d been last year, but she was wrong. It was Brittany who had gotten the spot she wanted and though she did have a sense of pride for the other girl, it still hurt. Glancing around at the other people, she took her cue to quickly walk out, only stopping when she got into the glee room.] Stupid Rachel, just.. Stupid. [She berated herself, sinking into the chair she sat in everyday. She wouldn’t stand in there and ruin Mason’s evening with her mood like it was now. Contrary to popular belief, ruining people’s times wasn’t her favorite pastime. Tears fell from her eyes as she sat in silence, the only thing she knew how to do right now.]

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masondeanhudson:

[The dance looked incredible, as he thought it would since it was Moulin Rouge theme (even if that movie was really depressing at the end since the girl dies and whatnot), but Mason was still pretty nervous about this whole dance. He just wanted it to go well. He glanced over at Coach Sue- who was as per usual watching the punch like a hawk and decided to walk over to get himself some Punch. It was terribly scary to be watched like that all the time. Nudging the person who was also getting punch, he laughed.] Hopefully no one like.. dies today, right? Because, y’know.. the theme and stuff?

[Rachel chuckled at how nervous her boyfriend seemed to look under Coach Sue’s angry gaze. Of course, she’d grown pretty impervious to it at this point, instead finding amusement in the reactions of those who hadn’t.] You look like you’re going to jump out of your skin, Mase. Relax. You’re with me, you’re alright. [She nudged him gently with your elbow, sipping at the punch, face turning to a grimace.] I’m pretty sure alcohol would improve this..

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freespiritbritt:

[Brittany had just finished dancing to the last song that was playing. She had been here for a while, tearing up the dance floor in her black cherry maxi dress. The blonde was already all worn out. She brushed a bit of her curls back and giggled softly, noticing someone that she knew in the crowd. She sauntered over, stopping in front of them.] I better stop before I run out of energy, but I love this song. I’m so conflicted.

[Rachel was ecstatic when she saw Brittany approaching, wide smile on her face. Despite what they’d gone through lately, the blonde had stayed true to her nature and they were still pretty friendly. Santana was another story, but that was something she’d save for a night when she wasn’t doing her best to be calm and in a decent mood. A laugh escaped her at the blonde’s conflict and she straightened out a wrinkle at her own dress.] Well, you could always hop on someone’s back and make them dance for you. Not mine, though. These heels are too high for me to support anyone.

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marlstjames:

[Marley’s blue eyes proceeded her surroundings, trying to figure out everything around her. So Homecoming was just a big dance to celebrate the beginning of the school year. Marley could gather that. A more lowkey prom in a sense. With more and more people showing up and the room getting more and more packed, Marley’s anxiety was getting the best of her and she made a quick decision to grab her leather jacket from coat check and swing outside for a quick smoke break. Strolling to the bleachers to be alone and far enough from the gym, Marley glanced around to make sure the coast was clear of any teachers. She lit her cigarette effortlessly and slipped her items back into her jacket. A small sigh slipped from her lips as she inhaled the smoke into her lungs.] Bless you, Marlboros…

[Rachel had stepped outside for a moment, the heat that gathered from so many bodies in one room too much for her at times. Sometimes, a moment to clear her mind and get herself together helped her keep on the perky facade she feigned almost every single moment she was in the damn building. Walking for a few moments, she found herself at the bleachers to be alone- only she wasn’t.  Was that.. Marley? Heels clicking against the metal of the bleachers, she walked up, a small smile on her lips.] Those are absolutely horrible for you, you know.

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texts || hudbray

Rachel: What color looks better on me? Pink or lavender?

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@jaycc: whoever nominated me that's a terrible joke and i am not amused.

@rachelfabray: @jaycc For the record, I think you'd make a wonderful homecoming princess.

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texts || puckerbray

Quinn: I know and I completely understand. I wouldn't want my secret to keep you from being happy or living your life.

Quinn: Maybe. Thank you, Rachel, for letting me know. Again, for everything I've done, I'm sorry.

Rachel: You're a good person, Quinn.

Rachel: You're welcome. You deserve honesty, too. Just as much as Mason does. Hey, don't be sorry.. We got the most beautiful little girl in the world out of it all.

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freespiritbritt:

You sound super stressed. Is there anything I can do to help? I know we’re supposed to be enemies because we’re both running for Queen. But I don’t want my co-captain to not be able to run the show with me.

.. You want to help me? I.. That’d be nice, Brittany. I don’t want to be enemies, not in the least bit. Of course, I’ll always do my best to win but I won’t play dirty. Not against you.

You know, I’d really love for Beth to meet her Aunt Britt.

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dancingjesse:

Well…she takes after her mama like that, right?

That’s true. I am rather troublesome myself at times.

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Has your undeserved ego been inflating your nose instead of your head lately, or something, ‘cos even for you, it’s gorging on gruesome huge as of late. I’m not surprised by the,‘no talent’, lie because you have an unblemished record of not caring, let alone bothering to notice anyone’s talents that don’t directly benefit you, and I was never quite down, or easy in the game of being manipulated and/or bullied into doing your doing. But hey, thank you for further proving what a crap friend you were, are, and always will be. 

I will say though, one good thing has come out of this: my threats are full of promises, like your full stomach promising to bust out of the cheerios uniform any second. And now I can’t wait to share them with you - sharing is caring, right?

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Do you not realize the only reason I fire back and try to hurt you is because that’s literally all you do to me? I hate us being like this, Santana. It’s awful. I miss-.. Honestly, forget it. I’m not continuing this. All you’re going to do is turn my words around on me. For what it’s worth, though, I’m sorry for being a crap friend.

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texts || puckerbray

Quinn: I assumed you will. You're getting back together with him, he told me.

Quinn: No, Rachel, I could never hate you, silly. In fact, I should actually apologise for having to ask you to lie so I'm sorry for that.

Quinn: You'll still let me see her, right? I mean, the aftermath might get bloody and put us in different sides. I just want to make sure.

Rachel: He told you..? Oh, wow.

Rachel: Don't apologize. It's your life, it's your secret. I'd never purposely hurt you or out you. I don't want to tell anyone else in the least, they can think whatever they want. It's just.. It's Mason. I promised him I'd be completely honest.

Rachel: Beth is your daughter. No matter what happens, she's not losing either of her Mothers. We're a team, and I'll make that clear to Mason. He may be hurt, but I believe he'll be able to forgive us both and things will turn out alright.

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Rachel: I told Mason I'd tell him the truth about Beth soon. As in, the truth about who her other parent is.

Rachel: You wouldn't hate me for telling him, would you?

Rachel: I won't tell anyone else, I just.. He's giving me another chance and I have to be honest with him. I can't hide this from him anymore.

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masondeanhudson:

PRIVATE: Honestly, after having sex with Brittany, I sorta realized it was silly to assume that like– y’know… I knew anything about how to create a child with you. So don’t worry, considering we were never like that I wouldn’t wonder. It’s really okay, Rach. You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to.

I mean you’re acting as if last year you were that bad. I mean, sometimes you were but not always. I think this re-try will be a good idea for us, Rach. But, y’know, if you do cheat on me again, I have the total responsibility of never trusting you again in my life– and I think that’s pretty serious. So as long as you know that, I think we’ll be okay!

PRIVATE: I know I don’t have to.. But when it feels right, I want to. I want that level of honesty with us.

I was pretty awful, Mason. I’ve been pretty awful since you met me, but I’m trying to adjust how I act now that I’m a Mom. If any girl ever acted towards Beth how I acted towards people before I got pregnant... I’d have to kill them. Honestly, I really would. Oh- lord. No, I learned my lesson about cheating. I definitely know better than that now. I.. I think we’ll be okay, too.

I’m glad you’re giving me another chance... I’m glad you love me still.

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masondeanhudson:

PRIVATE: What? Rach… it’s fine. I– I mean it bothers me but like…it’s not my body and it’s not my child, so I don’t technically need to know. I respect the situation for what it was, even if it really sucked. 

Sorry for, uh, y’know… getting you kicked out of your house. In retrospect, I shouldn’t have but I was just really happy and excited to be with you and support you and then I sorta screwed everything up with your parents, huh?

Either way, it won’t hurt to try to be us again. Just.. can we be more honest with each other this time around?

PRIVATE: It’s not just for you, Mason. It’s for both of us. We both want honesty, and that’s a main part of it. Being with me... It means being around Beth, and I think the sooner you find out the other half of her parentage, you’ll be able to heal more over the situation as opposed to seeing her and thinking ‘well who helped make her if I didn’t?’. 

It’s okay. In the end, that ended up helping my Mother gain the courage to kick him out and be the Mom I always desperately needed her to be. We may not be perfect, but we’re better than we were. Besides, like you said, you were happy and excited. How can I ever fault you for being adorably sweet?

I won’t lie to you again. I know people say that in a very generic way and then break it like a day later, but I’m not going to do that. I’m making a promise on my life to not break it. You deserve honesty and we deserve a fair, real shot. You deserve a better version of me than you got last time.

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masondeanhudson:

PRIVATE: It’s only.. a little bit of that. Honestly I was already considering it, if I’m honest. And I– I do love you, you know that, right?

PRIVATE: I don’t want us to crash and burn. I-I love you too. I really do, I’m sorry I’m so intimidating, especially about this situation. In this, I want you to be making the decision that makes you happy. Y-You were considering it..? Mason, I’m.. If you’re serious about this, I promise to be honest and.. It may take me a while to gather the courage, but if you’re willing to accept it’s hard for me, you will get the complete truth about last year. I just.. Need to talk to someone first, before I do.

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masondeanhudson:

PRIVATE: …. I.. uh.. Crap. Okay, okay, I– I’ll break up with them before first period. Though, y’know, if we open the gates of hell onto the Glee club, I don’t really want to go. @ _ @ 

PRIVATE: .. And I’m not forcing you into this? You’re not going to resent me in a week because you just wanted to make me stop being emotional?