my tumblr is for 2 purposes only: posting every thought I have and posting about the gay little blorbos that live rent free in my brain, on a good day these are the same thing
Included in Fanfic Masterlist:
Stranger Things (mostly Steddie [I am not under any circumstances a steddie fan account ignore what they tell you])
Arcane
Jacksonâs Diary
The Marauders
All For The Game (nothing posted yet but it might be coming)
Fanfic Masterlist below
Ao3
Tag: #Pretend Writes (everything from updates to fics also posted to tumblr)
Stranger Things:
Cars and confusion | ao3 | Steddie | complete
Hide your heart pt. 1 | Steddie | pt. 2 - pt.3 - pt. 4 - pt. 5
Everybody at the party knows somebody (whoâs not me) | Steddie | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4???
Henderson fam | Steve getting forcefully adopted by Mrs. Henderson | Complete
Concert | Steddie | CompleteÂ
Mistletoe | Steddie | Complete
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The Marauders:
Death Would Be A Mercy | Regulus centric | complete
I Can't Believe You Kissed My Brother | Black brothers centric, jegulus | complete
you're my brother, the whole fucking point is that you're my brother | Black brothers | complete
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Arcane:
Relic | Jayvik | Complete
Pretendâs modern day Arcane au (request)| possible additions to be made
Raising a Jinx | Silco, Sevika, and Jinx oneshot (request)| completeÂ
A Realization | Jayce and Caitlyn talk Jayvik (request)| Complete
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Jacksonâs Diary:
People like us | Elijah x David (request)| Complete
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All For The Game:
coming soon
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I have some longfics in the works but Iâm slow as a snail and inspiration is an elusive seductress so idk when Iâll start posting them as Iâm a âwrite at least half of it to get a buffer before postingâ kinda guy.
sometimes the general heights of fictional characters get so ingrained in my head that I forget itâs not their canonical height/they donât have a canonical height
someone will call a character Iâve decided to be tall a short king and it completely changes my perception of the character because Iâd genuinely never considered it. like I have to sit there and think about it. people think that character is short. what a world we live in
for some reason Iâve been seeing a lot of The Pitt content on my internet even though Iâve never watched an episode. Itâs mostly been Hucklerobby (?) and honestly Iâm so sorry for judging Pitt enjoyers, yall have taste
unfortunately I will not be watching it, I have been peer pressured into watching a show for queer ships only to find out 2+ seasons deep that it was mass fandom delusion. You cannot catch me this time
Putting their style aside, Andrew and Aaron look the same for obvious reasons. Usually no one mentiones it because why would they? It isn't until Allison makes a random comment during a conversation and says that they look the same and Kevin immediately thinks no, Aaron's way more handsome and his own thoughts hit him like a truck
I love when Kevin accidentally outs himself to the foxes by getting as offended as Neil when they make these comments.
like he gets so offended because obviously the twins look soo different and only an idiot wouldnât be able to tell them apart, Aaronâs literally so much better looking for oneâ-and the only person agreeing with him is Neil (in a relationship with 1 of them). Uh oh.
I know it came out years too late but whenever thereâs an Edenâs/club scene in Kevaaron fics (specifically ones where theyâre not together yet/have feelings and are Avoiding Them) I always imagine theyâre dancing to Artemasâ I like the way you kiss me
again, it came out years too late but I feel like âKevaaron dancing at Edenâs and trying to be all discreet about their feelings but also itâs a club and theyâre Drunk And Yearningâ fits that song so well
Kevaaron fake dating with real feelings and dancing at the Clurb to sell it? This song. Kevaaron bumping into each other on the dance floor and just going with it even though this is literally my best friend who I have feelings for?? This song. Kevaaron strangers meeting for the first time to this song? This song.
this is my Heated Rivalry All The Things She Said club moment, personally. I think everyone should imagine the club scenes in Kevaaron fics set to I Like The Way You Kiss Me
canât wait for the day I get top surgery bc Iâve been scheming up some chest scar tattoo ideas. the future is very very bleak but if I can have this one thing itâll all be worth it
will never not be thinking of Naim and Arleneâs relationship.
Whoever was working their magic on that particular piece of the script really knew what it was like to be queer and have a mom. That sounds stupid because all queer kids have moms (whether good relationship or not) but itâs the only way I can phrase it. It hits so hard because yeah, it is like that.
she gets the genre name of the music you like wrong and itâs funny because she didnât know what it was called but also she doesnât know you
she brings you food at the funeral of someone like you and she says sheâs picked the olives off because you donât like them and she knows you but also she doesnât like you
she lets you sleep in her room when you have a nightmare like you did when you were 7 or 10 but also she tells you to move your stuff out in the morning because youâre 17 now and adults shouldnât need to sleep in their momâs room anymore
she tells you sheâs scared of people hurting you and sheâs doing this to keep you safe but also she tells you that you need fear to survive and itâs funny because youâve always been afraid, and you thought maybe she would understand this time but she just needs a kid who doesnât start fights
I donât think Iâve seen queer media that depicts this kind of relationship accurately until Leviticus
when people blame/get mad at Naim for all the bad things that happened to Hunter and Ryan (and him, too btw) I have to wonder if they even watched the movie
how do walk away from this movie with the understanding that Naim didnât deserve a happy ending/was a bad person?? The entire point was that it was the homophobia of the town that did this to them. Naim didnât curse Hunter or Ryan, he didnât kill Hunter, he never wanted to hurt anyone and he had no idea Rod would call a fucking deliverance healer to curse his own son!!
I just feel like instead of blaming the scared queer kid we should blame the people who actually caused the harm (the town, the church, Rod etc).
Neil as Spiderman but it's the No Way Home plot so Andrew, who once remembered everything about Neil, forgets him and Neil has to keep living with the unbearable knowledge that he has lost him forever.
oh that would drive mr. Eidetic memory crazy. Knowing he was missing something but not knowing what. Knowing there was something he couldnât remember. I think heâd be. like. Livid that Neil just took that from him
Andrew and Aaron being identical is so fucking funny when you think about Andrew being a famous pro Exy player and Aaron being a doctor bc imagine:
you twist your ankle. you go to the hospital. youâre waiting for a doctor to come see you. he pulls back the curtain and- holy shit itâs LeBron-Fucking-James
itâs been like almost a month and Iâm still thinking about Joyride
you read one good kevsethaaron non oneshot and suddenly you have thoughts like âmaybe I should watch F1â as if it can fill the void and give you the same feelings as said fic
the theory that naim and ryan do run into the real versions of each other in the woods that night actually does make a lot of sense to me. not only because it doesnât make sense that the entity would act like that (pretend to be ryan by acting afraid, successfully fooling naim) without pushing it to the full extent (using that trust to get close and attack; using their lust and affection against each other as it does throughout the movie). Instead, the ryan naim sees in the woods throws shit at him, attacking firstâ even though naim assumes the best. If that was the entity, it wouldâve exploited that. but the ryan naim meets does not. so thereâs that, but also I believe that theory because the throwing-shit method is ryanâs expression of his own internal conflict, something I think the entity would not care enough to take the time to copy as it focused on getting to Naim.
In this situation itâs ryan who thinks naim is the entity, so he reverts to violence the only way he knows how to in the context of being gay. His previous experiences with hunter all involved violence as a precursor to affection. as he lets out his anger at what he imagines to be entity!Naim it of course leads back to that, this thing that has been wearing naimâs face â naim, who he actually cares about; naim, who is the first to have offered him vulnerability without the prerequisite of violence. As it subverts naimâs character, ryan subverts his own role in his relationship with naim to deal with it; as entity!Naim is the opposite of the care ryan has come to associate with naim, how ryan treats it becomes the opposite of how he treats, or would treat, naim. the opposite of his relationship with naim, eg his relationship with hunter. the entity targets ryanâs desire for naim and uses it against him, making affection and sexuality into violence again. and by using ryanâs new trust of naim in order to isolate and attack him, the entity is intended to make being gay into something to be frightened of â a new attempt at enforcing internalized homophobia, meant to force ryan into compulsory heterosexuality: the outcome the church wants from this whole event.
In other words â thematically, it works. itâs the method the entity used against hunter to gain his trust and kill him. itâs the thing that caused ryan and hunter to be cursed by the deliverance healer in the first place, after naim outed them for doing it. itâs everything bad about being gay, every bit of internalized homophobia, that ryan is now throwing directly at the thing trying to use being gay against him. Itâs like â poetic justice. sorta. if that makes sense. itâs more thematic if itâs true, in any case, so Iâd like to believe it