Prettymermaid

love, love the stars                    love, love the moon

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I guess you won. You still affect me to this day. I keep being reminded of you.

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Ya Allah, I don't think I can go through this. Send help to me, Ya Allah. I really need you.

My heart can no longer take this.

But regardless of everything, I still have faith in you, Ya Allah. This is another one of your big plans to prepare me for the future.

Though my heart is breaking please know that I am still accepting it wholeheartedly. I know you would never test someone without purpose.

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Bismillah. Ya Allah i truly hope for your kindness and grace. Help me to get through everything

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Ya Allah. I can only rely on you and only you.

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Ya Allah... who else am I going to turn to if it's not you?

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It's always been on my mind: if the Almighty Allah can forgive us despite all our wrongdoings and still accept us unconditionally, why can't we, humans, be forgiving and accepting?

Then I realized the answer had been there the whole time. Because we're human, that's why Allah is the Almighty, the forgiving, and the merciful.

Regardless, he will always have boundless love towards us, always ready and even waiting for us to seek forgiveness.

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Allah is so forgiving to the point where He never stops accepting our tawbah and repentance despite our repetitive sins.

He has never left us despite our mistakes, be they small or big.

He has never belittled our efforts despite others doing much more.

No one truly loves us as Allah does.

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Thank you? I guess.

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Ya Allah, if this is the way You're trying to remind me to remember You, then I'll try to accept it with an open heart.

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Ya Allah, please let me move in to my house by next year. Amin.

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It's probably because of the hormones, but everyone is disappointing me tonight. Like, stop picking on me.

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Life update:

These lyrics are exactly how I feel now. Life is okay, it's not bad, but not great

And it's sad how it seems like my life is going too fast, and I feel like I'm not living in the moment. Hence, I'm currently trying to be present. I'm trying to let myself be more involved with my surroundings and not just focus on one thing.

Sad to say but nowadays I feel so empty. Probably why although life is not bad, yet it's not great. I'm doing okay but something is missing. As if my heart is yearning and screaming for a missing piece.

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Ya Allah please let it be my last trip with her.

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My first cherry blossom. Hope this is not the last.

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Ya Allah, please ease my heart.

Help me, Ya Allah.

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Ya Allah, please grant me the patience to handle everything. Remove any hatred from my heart, as it only leaves stains on it and brings no benefit.

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I used to have that one person who would answer all my questions, no matter how trivial or ridiculous they were. But now, here I am, full of questions that no one will answer.