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[prettysailorguardianjinx]

🤎💜

[prettysailorguardianjinx]

little tiger 🖤

[spooky-systems-deactivated20230]

Scary BPD things we don’t talk enough about:

Complete dissociation

Not knowing who you are/not recognizing yourself

Having no control over the things your saying, which can include things like threatening to bodily harm/kill people/animals and other really terrifying things

The speed at which you can go from extreme anger and rage to being better about a situation is almost unnatural and really eerie to reflect on sometimes

Having to “childproof” you environment by locking up things like prescription pills, alcohol, sharp objects, lighters, etc.

Intrusive thoughts/voices in your head/saying or thinking things that feel like they come from someone else

Worrying that you’re going to hurt somebody (and I don’t mean emotionally I mean like worrying you’re going to black out in rage and stab someone to death)

Other people worrying you’re going to hurt/kill them and them taking visible precautions against it which make you feel worse

All or nothing emotions. Everything is too much or it’s nothing. The feeling like you have so many emotions your body can’t physically contain them or just feeling empty

The depression cycles where you can’t sleep or can’t eat or can’t get up to use the bathroom for hours on end

The extreme lengths people take to try and control you when you’re having an episode (especially if you’re a minor living with a parent) like locking you up or physically restraining you etc.

Not making plans for the future because you don’t think you’re going to make it that far for whatever reason

[bpdohwhatajoy]

💯 🤣

[only-cat-memes]

Your daily dose of cat memes

[disqualified-human-1103]

I wish I wasn’t so scared to actually kill myself

[binkrls]

[chloekorzh]

I wish people understood that not self-harming for a while doesn’t necessarily mean I’m fine and I’m doing good. I’m tired of everyone thinking it works like this because it doesn’t. There could be different reasons why I didn’t self-harm for a while (for example not wanting to cause problems, not wanting to go for another trip to hospital, not wanting to be a disappointment to people around me..) and I hate that nobody understands that I actually put so much effort into resisting the urges that are ALWAYS there and that I’m not fucking okay just because I haven’t self-harmed.

[thegaybitch15-deactivated202303]

Just cause I’m sober doesn’t mean I’m not addicted anymore

[mybpdiary]

[diybreastreduction-deactivated2]

who up delaying the inevitable

[wxlking-dexd]

Killing myself? Absolutely

[mayonezli]

[agaph-mou]

el gato

[only-cat-memes]

Your daily dose of cat memes

[miyawsu-deactivated20230711-dea]

[ur-daily-inspiration]

[bpdcrybaby213]

Why do I always feel the constant urgency to isolate? Because when I actually do it, my depression gets very bad and I start blaming people for not reaching out even though I do it to myself and feel like such a burden and I spiral downward even further into a very dark place. Still, my brain is screaming at me to isolate.

[prettysailorguardianjinx]

forever isn’t long enough with u <3

[prettysailorguardianjinx]

i cant save us 🤍