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One Nice Bug Per Day
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he wasn't even looking at me and he found me

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we're not kids anymore.
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This is how i feel
This is a sideblog, so if I follow you it's from a different account. This is also my back up for @rockbottomwithashovel
i cant relate to anyone who doesnāt constantly hold suicide in the back of their mind like a glowing exit sign
Dude I wish I were faking my disorders, do you know how annoying it is to live like this? Lmao.
I would like to say, on behalf of all those who sh, if you see someone with cuts on their arms or legs, DON'T POINT IT OUT!!!! Seriously, it makes us feel so so much fucking worse, stop pointing it out, even if you're sympathetic. Asking if they're OK or something later, in private, fine, but don't keep asking, don't say shit in front of people and just leave me the fuck alone and let me wear a t shirt in summer
Venting to myself bc I dont have anyone else and Iām that pathetic
when you canāt find ur blade š
I love you so fucking much but i won't tell you i cvt, you'll kill me if i told you. I hate it when you're dissapointed in me because i crave your validation
Friendship Falling
I honestly donāt understand this. I donāt understand a lot in reality. But this truly confuses me. Iāve lost you and not to death. Then Iād still have a part of you. You left me though. Left by your own choice. You said it was my fault and I donāt know how. I wish I still had you. I still subconsciously go to tell you what happened right after. I want to tell you how horrible my days have been. Or because I talked to a guy. Or simply cause I saw a cute dog. But I canāt. I want to be able to erase pictures and items that are memories like people do after a breakup. But when youāve known someone so long you canāt just erase it. Almost every camera roll memory I get is with you. I look at my posts, at my camera roll and I see you. I canāt erase the last 12 years of my life. I canāt erase the memories that arise when I see the book you gave me, or the cup Iāve been using daily without a thought. I canāt just make those things go away. I see a picture and then I remember, remember when weād had fun together. Then the pain sets in when I realize that we wonāt be able to make any good memories anymore. All the new memoryās will be through anger or pain. I didnāt know our friendship could end so tragically
11/28/22
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I don't wanna stop being a teenager. I don't know if I can handle aging past this. I don't want another year like this
Me, in a depression spiral, hitting repeat to a sad song:
WHY DO I RUIN EVERYTHING HOW DO I STOP RUINING IT ALL I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY AND STAY HAPPY
I am once more using music to bleed
I don't think anyone understands just how scared I am that last year was the best time of my life. That I may never feel like that again. That it's over. I don't know how to live if that was all there was
The only thing that's constant in my life is my bed and even that's a mess
oh u wouldnāt know her she goes to a different psychward
No one ever talks about how hard it is to trust yourself if youāve been through trauma or are mentally ill. Not trusting others is a common assumption but what about not trusting your own mind. Not knowing which thoughts to believe. Not trusting that you will be able to go somewhere and not have a panic attack or ptsd episode or be triggered in general. Not trusting your actions because theyāve always been critiqued etc. Not trusting yourself is a new kind of hell that no one should have to experience.