True facts from my life.

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[aforaquarius]

AforAquarius Coming Back Giveaway!

Rules:

1.You must be following AforAquarius

2. Reblog as much as you like, each reblog and like will count as an entry.

3. Make sure I can contact you! Keep your ask open.

4.I will ship anywhere inside the US.

5.Giveaway ends April 5!

Items:

1) One Birth Chart ( I will need to know your birth date, birth place, and birth time)

2) An astrology book of my choice

[aforaquarius]

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[prk1992-blog]

So life or some shit.

Personal life: I need to put my life in perspective. I have two kids, no home, and I'm going through the worst break up of my life. I live with a guy who is gas lighting me. I've called everywhere looking for an apartment. I don't know what to do. Relationship: I dated my ex who I have the kids with, Steven after I dated his best friend Justin. I dated Justin nine years ago. I guess we have stupid attractions becuz here we are again. For the last nine year we may not have dated but we had a on again off again thing going on. In short we were the people that we would cheat on our significant others with. He has never dated a girl that he hasn't cheated on with me. Oh and I was his first girlfriend. Lots of history but we've never had sex. When ever we talk about dating he just says it will never work and gives all sorts of superficial reasons why it would never work. He wants to believe it will never work but he's more then happy to let me claim on top of him and kiss him. I mean what the fuck Justin. Why can't we just have see in the car we both want too. I guess it would be kinda cheap. Never mind we can wait. Oh yeah I almost forgot to mention he has a girlfriend. Who lives in like the Midwest somewhere. She may as well not even exist.

[gomcgill]

“Your unresolved issues will continue to call-in experiences to teach you what you need to learn.” — Bryant McGill

[prk1992-blog]

so..

I've come to the conclusion that this blog is going to be mostly for Alzheimer's and other forms of dementia. With some random shit mixed in. I thought I would talk about my personal connection with the disease.

So when I was very young like 4 or 5 my mother went to jail for drug related crimes and my "father" didn't want me. I went to live with my gram. My gram had me a lot before my mother and father left the picture already so it wasn't to strange. My gram raised me. She was the closes thing I had to a mom. She's gone now but when I was in third grade we noticed she was acting strange. She would get u.t.is and hallucinate. She was sundowning and none of us knew.

Despite my grams diseases she was always the best person to me. She made me believe I could do or be anything. She still is my biggest support. I remember being 16, 17 and talking to her about my problems at one two in the morning. She would always tell me to do what I thought was right. Even when she had progressed to the point of yelling at us "the ppl next door stole the moon and now we can have Christmas" shed was still able to remember me, love me, and support me like no one else in my life has.

The day this disease took my gram from me was probably one of the worse days of my life. I miss her. I still cry at the thought of her.

Since my gram has passed away I've been working at a residential care home for ppl with the disease. I seen little bits of her in every person I take care of. 

[prk1992-blog]

Today at work we had  golden girls playing in the background. One resident saw betty white and began chanting "betty white, betty white, we love betty white!" This unfortunately took a turn to "betty! Help us betty! The house's on fire please won't you save us betty!".

Dementia is cruel becuz it allows you to be lost, trapped in your own thoughts to the point where you can't understand the person who is trying to bring you back to reality. The most a caregiver can do is  try to join them where they are at that moment and somedays that doesn't even feel like enough.

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[prk1992-blog]

Boyfriend: hey honey what do you want to do today?

Me: *locks self in closet* don't make me choose!   

[prk1992-blog]

So today I thought I would post a short list of things I love or I'm passionate about. Maybe ill take some time and explain why I love them so much.

Dementia: 

I've spent the last five years working with and taking care of ppl dementia from early stages to end of life. I've learnt almost all the tricks and work best with combative residents. Combative resident are what make my job worth doing.

Interscectional Feminism:

 becuz men and women of all walks of life are equal.

Politics:

Becuz the laws that govern society are important.

The food industry: 

Becuz we have the right to know we are eating.

The chemical industry:

Becuz hand sanitizer has negative effects on your thyroid and their are chemicals in baby wipes that are linked to cancer.

Psychology:

I want the answers to what motivates us. Why do we act the way we do.

Genetics:

Once again from a personality development point of view. This time nurture nature stand point.

The human brain:

How it's wired and injured and once again how that effect our personality and perception of life.

These are just some of the big things I like or care about. Believe there are many more. 

[prk1992-blog]

it's been a long time.

I had an account three years ago under the name "grumble grumble panda". A l lot has changed for me in this time away. I have two kids now, I'm trying to move forward on my career. My life has always been a Little weird. This just seems like the place to over share. I'm sure ill post more about my day, my past and my hopes for the future.

Signing off!