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Ben watched Colin and he could see the hunger in his eyes as he watched how Ben revealed himself. Ben was curious to see whether Colin could fulfill what he asked of him. He watched Colin slowly push down his underwear, until he suddenly stopped.
He didn’t care that Colin couldn’t do it, he just wanted to see whether he could.
Ben moved his own hands to his underwear and began to push it down until he sprung free from his underwear, revealing himself to Colin. He was hard as rock, not having been this aroused in an incredibly long time. He then stepped closer to the settee and moved his hand to the back of his neck, pulling him a little closer. “Touch me.”
As Ben didn’t say anything Colin first read his silence as disapproval, but he soon realised that was just his mind trying to always see the negative in everything. It was frustrating how that always happened and how it made every battle harder to fight. He was insecure enough without coming up with even more reasons to be insecure.
He watched as Ben pushed his underwear down and again had that deep desire to feel Ben on top of him... inside of him. If only he’d dare to speak those words out loud.
When he was pulled closer to Ben, he first worried Ben wanted him to take him into his mouth. That wasn’t something he actively didn’t want, but he had so little knowledge on it that he didn’t feel adequate at all. He’d probably just make a mess out of it, especially as he had no idea how penises even worked... The latter made him feel very aware of their differences.
Slowly he moved his hand out, hesitating how he was supposed to touch Ben. There probably was no right or wrong, but he still managed to make himself more awkward by the second wondering about it. He took hold of him then. He’d never done this--or anything like it--before. He looked up at Ben, probably asking th question with his eyes.
