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Grey's Anatomy's latest episode is the most emotional so far since episode 11, at least for me. When I saw Derek again, though I kinda felt he's gonna appear, I couldn't help but cry. At ikaw sana yung una kong gustong kausapin about it. I wanted to talk to you. But I remembered na hindi pala pwede. Hindi na pwede. So I cried to myself instead. I guess, things will never be really the same ever again.
I just realized - I have been unfair to you all this time. gusto ko kasi maging okay na tayo, gusto ko maging friends ulit tayo, gusto ko gaya ulit tayo ng dati. But that would be very much favorable only to me. I have not considered you and what you'd feel. Of course hindi okay yun sa'yo. Im so insensitive as fuck! Kaya nga siguro you don't deserve me. You deserve someone better talaga. I am not worthy of you. Im sorry. Siguro, kung ayaw mo akong maging kaibigan ulit or kahit acquaintance, hindi kita masisisi. I would understand. Basta ang alam ko ngayon, gusto ko lang maging happy ka. Kahit hindi na ako part ng happiness na yon.
akala ko I’m on right track, on becoming okay. pero these past few days, parang hindi e. Di ko gets. Ang lungkot-lungkot ko. Nakakainis. Ano ba to? When I sent my good luck messages to you, naiiyak ako after. parang gago.
To be honest, I wish I'm still part of that journey towards your dream. I was once part of it. Ngayon, hindi na. Siguro namimiss ko lang maging part ng buhay mo. Siguro. Ngayon na kasi ang realization ng mga dreams na yon e. In a few days, you can claim it na. And how I wish ako yung unang taong sasabihan mo na finally, engineer ka na.
Pero hindi na tayo gaya ng dati. Kahit friends pa tayo dati, we used to talk and tell each other our problems. Pero now, the times have changed. Hindi na yata ang isa’t isa ang takbuhan natin.
Sana okay na tayo. Kasi gusto kong takbuhan mo ulit ako. Gusto ko rin magsumbong sayo. Pero ang selfish ko para pilitin yon, kaya di ko gagawin. Maghihintay ako. Pero ngayon, magiging malungkot na lang muna ulit ako.
As much as possible, I avoid conflicts. ayoko ng away, ayoko ng gulo. I want a peaceful life. But somebody told me that I avoid conflicts too much. and that’s not good.
At first, hindi ko maintindihan. Kasi ano ba ang masama sa pag-iwas sa gulo? If you avoid conflicts, you tend to play as the victim and people pleaser just to escape the conflict. Which is true, coming from experience. Come to think of it, nakakairita pala yung ganon. So naiirita ako sa sarili ko? Yeah.
Mahalaga daw ang conflicts sa tao. Dito mo masusubukan ang resilience and inner strength mo. It will test your core values and and help you locate where you stand in an argument. Conflicts should be faced and not feared. Facing conflicts makes you stand on your ground and makes you defend yourself. It shows your inner self. Whether you lose or win the battle, what's important is you stand by what you believe in. Through that, you gain respect.
Naisip ko lang kanina i-challenge ang sarili ko to a "no fap october". hahaha sounds crazy and stupid but then why not? Hanggang kailan ako tatagal? Kakayanin ko ba? Abangan!
so yesterday (friday), uuwi na dapat ako after our very story brainstorm. but I was invited by our creative director to sit down in the selection of theme song (ost) for an upcoming film. Syempre CD yung nag-aya so sino ako para humindi? at na-excite naman ako kaya sumunod ako. haha hindi naman sobrang fun. Yung food at yung mga tawanan lang yung good part of it haha ang galing ng mga nag-submit ng songs for the film, tbf.
I miss sex. There. I said it. Ito yata ang isa sa mga mahirap na adjustment pag single na ulit after a long time of being in a relationship. Walang mayaya. hahaha It’s been roughly two months pero damn, ang hirap! I know, this sounds so mababaw. Pero it’s so fucking true. Sobrang frustrated and deprived ko na, napapanaginipan ko na. hahaha grabe. ayoko naman kasi maggrindr or mag tinder because Idk, im not ready to meet strangers pa, lalo na kung for that. (Note: i have nothing against those using the app). Ayun lang. gusto ko lang sabihin. So bale, kamay ko na lang muna ang magpapaligaya sa akin sa ngayon.
Posible palang umiyak nang hindi mo namamalayan. Posible din sanang mag-move on nang hindi namamalayan.
first time, in a long time, kong umiyak sa mga kaibigan ko in a public place. Hindi ko naman plinano na umiyak o maiyak ngayon. Akala ko pa sa Above the Clouds ako maiiyak pero hindi pala. When tears started falling down my face, I didn't care about anything around me. Nawalan ako ng pake sa kung sinoman ang nakatingin o makakita sa pagtangis ko. Hindi ko naman ginustong umiyak. Pero nung nag-umpisa nang tumulo, hinayaan ko lang umagos lahat. Baka sakaling mabawasan ang karga ko. Kape ang iniinom namin. Matapos magkalasing kagabi, at uminom ng beer sa hapong tapat, nag-iyakan kami habang nagsasalo sa kape, sa loob ng isang coffee shop. Siguro kasi hindi ganon katapang yung kape para ipaglaban yung nararamdaman namin. Ang sarap lang talaga umiyak.
Ako ang mali. Ako ang may pagkukulang. O baka ako ang may kalabisan. Ako ang may kasalanan kung bakit nangyari to lahat sa ating dalawa. Pasensya na sa pagkakamali ko. Hindi ko naman ginustong magwakas yung walang hanggan. Saksi ang Diyos, pinilit kong ayusin sa sarili ko. Siguro hindi sapat ang efforts ko at bumigay ako. Pasensya na sa pagkukulang ko. Inaako ko ang kasalanan sa nangyari sa atin nang walang sarcasm and/or slur.
I've been contemplating kung itutulog ko na lang ang friday night ko or lalabas with friends. I have decided to do the former. Pero hindi nagpatinag sa friends and rain. Na-push ang lakad kahit late ako. Kulang nga lang, pero okay na rin. Next time, sana mas madami.
Sa bawat pagtatapos, may mga baka o sana.
Baka ginusto niya rin ang nangyari. Walang pagpigil. Walang bargain. Walang paghingi nv pangalawang pagkakataon. Walang extension. Hinayaan na lang. Pero baka iniisip niyang dahil gusto ko kaya ibigay na lang? Hindi ko alam. Baka lang naman.
Sana ba pinigilan niya ako? Iniisip ko pa kung gusto ko bang pigilan niya ako? Kung pinigilan ba niya ako, ano ang gagawin ko? Hindi ko alam, honestly. Pero thinking about it now, kung pinigilan niya ako nang mga panahong yun, siguro pumayag akong ayusin. Kasi baka may chance? Ewan. Baka lang naman.
Baka humingi siya ng chance at nakalimutan ko? Baka hindi ko napansin. Nagkibit-balikat? Baka nga ako lang ang may gusto ng mga nangyari. Baka lang naman.
Watched the premiere of Barcelona: A Love Untold. It's a beautiful story! Ang ganda-ganda! Ilang beses akong umiyak! Mas naka-relate ako kay Mia. I felt her, her struggles, her desire, motivations, intentions, and her love. somehow, naintindihan ko rin naman si Ely, at ang mga pinagdadaanan niya. I don't wanna spoil anything. So I'll just invite you to watch Barcelona, showing tomorrow!