I Should Tell You || Javier
“You too, baby. I love you too,” Lynnie responded with a genuine smile. Her fondness for him grew with each sentence he spoke. “I think that after you and Josie came into my life, something inside of me, without me knowing, just began to take things slower. I began to be more grateful and, I don’t know, learn to appreciate things. I don’t think that I was more in tune with my condition, rather more aware of what made my heart so full. So,” she stopped and giggled. “I think it’s safe to say, busybody me has taken a step back. At least for a little while.” She giggled as Xavier nuzzled her neck while he imitated Josie imitating her. After her finished, the dancer shook her head with a small smile still lingering on her lips. “I said not that much,” Lynnie reiterated. In all actuality when she would see him hurt on the field, it was as if she felt the same blows, and maybe even worse. Who could blame her though? It was one thing to be the one feeling pain; it’s another to see the person you love in pain. Her smile grew even more at Xavier’s comment about fighting over cuddles; it even drew out a chuckle. Lynnie replayed countless instances where her boyfriend and the toddler would bicker at each other. Whatever the reason may be, she saw the love and genuine connection the two had, which never ceased to make her love them even more than she already did. Her small frame snuggled further into Xavier’s hold as she tried to conjure up the thought of someone else telling her the news. “No. I think I would have been a bigger mess. One that would take way more to get me to be okay again. I’m glad it was you. You always know what to say that will bring me back and not get too… intense and back in my shell about things. Thank you,” Lynnie said as she tilted her head back and placed a soft kiss on his cheek. When he continued on about her backside, her nose crinkled. “No, Xavier, baby. What are you right now,” she asked with a giggle. “Oh gah. I hope Cookie can stand up to good ol’ father time, mother nature, and gravity. No worries, I got you on the tie thing. Maybe suspenders too, that would look even more sexy on you. Segways? Maybe we can both ride one when we’re older.” The choreographer shot him a wink before shaking her head and pressing a chaste kiss on Xavier’s quivering lip. Playfully, she grasped his bottom one between her teeth and gave it a slight tug before releasing it. “If you ride on my Segway with me, you’ll get to hold cookie. Isn’t that better than just seeing her,” she asked as she placed tiny kisses on the harmed flesh. “We’re just gonna have to get creative with our love nest. Good plan. Also have Grace and others on speed dial so we can fly away for a while. We got this, baby. No worries.” As the conversed about their future, the thought of her death, hear condition, and all the negative thoughts and feelings she had experienced just minutes before had quickly diminished. For Lynnie to actually speak about what was on her mind, instead of keeping it to herself as she did in the past, surprised her. In the course of almost a year, Xavier had helped her open up. The walls she had tried to believe that were built and surrounding her seemed nonexistent, but there was no denying that there were holes in her confidence as it pertained to certain things. At this point though, what mattered was that she was able to experience this moment she shared with Xavier, her insecurities and fears aside. Her green eyes looked into Xavier’s beautiful brown ones as she smiled and cupped his face. The pads of her thumbs gently stroked his cheeks. “You think so? I think you’ll do amazing, just as before. You’ll nail it and be the best Roger Davis in the history of RENT that anyone has ever seen. Mark my words, sweet stuff, you’re a star!” She stated confidently before nuzzling her nose against his. Even before their talk, Lynnie believed Xavier’s performance was spot-on, but she could see a little bit of easiness return to his posture now that a little bit of weight had been lifted from him. A sense of appreciation had overwhelmed her for the simple fact that she had such a caring and loving man in her life; for that, Lynnie would always be humble. For that, she would always love him. “You are my star. And when we’re 90, I will be by your side on the red carpets when you’re honored for your legendary works and love you even more than I do today.”
“I’m glad that we could slow you down. I like seeing you passionate and with your eye on the prize and working toward it, but working to the point that you disregard your health isn’t something that I enjoy seeing. So I’m glad we can give you a reason to slow down. I like slowed down you just as much as busybody you though. Slowed down you gives me more you time.” Lynnie’s words had put his worry at ease surrounding whether or not he should have told her the truth about what had occurred after her surgery. He was happy that he’d gotten it out there though. Maybe this wasn’t the method he’d wanted to deliver it in, but he’d managed to deliver it and after some talking through it, they’d managed to talk through her initial reaction to hearing the news. A dimpled grin formed on his features as she kissed his cheek. “Anytime, Nena. And yes. Cookie can withstand the test of all the times! It’ll be like Tina Turner as old as she is her legs are still amazing. We’ll be so old and Cookie still will be amazing.” Xavier groaned just thinking about sharing a Segway and getting to hold Cookie. “Yes. Now that’s a better idea. This why you’re the brains of this operation. I have plans, but your plans are better. Much better. Yes. One Segway, two people, my hands holding Cookie to make sure she’s safe. Yes. That’s much better than my plan altogether.” His lip quivering fell away and he was grinning, that grin turned quickly into a smirk. Talking of the future made Xavier not only happy, but elated. He’d never imagined that he’d have a love that he’d grow old with, nor a woman as incredible as the one that he was currently talking to at the moment, but he did now, and she was someone he wanted to have that future with. If he had to pray every night, every morning and throughout the day, his faith would hold steady to keep this woman in his life, healthy and well. Lynnie and her love were truly a gift from Above and he couldn’t possibly imagine either of them not living to see their relationship grow, their family maybe one day expand, At her words, Xavier could feel a light blush creeping up his cheeks. She believed in him even more so than he believed in himself sometimes. “I needed to hear that. I really did. It was the kind of motivation that would kick start him into gear and push all the budding doubts aside that he’d had since Ms. Pillsbury had given out the critique. At her sweet words, his lips touched hers in a soft kiss that he was slow to part from. “You’re my star too you know? And when we both make it to 90, we’ll still be taking award shows and red carpets by storm. You, a legend in the music game, and me in the acting and movie one. And there still wouldn’t be enough words to describe just how much I love you.” He truly believed that, and when he thought of his life, that was how it always went. They were beasts in their respective fields, but always they’d managed to stay happy and in love no matter what life threw their way.
