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“Grief is a never-ending process. We lose a part of ourselves in the loss of a loved one; but when we lose a parent, our very origin, well, that cuts into one’s heart, soul, the very root of what makes up our being.”

— dontpissoffpenelope (via wnq-writers)

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“And I owe so many apologies but mostly to myself. For I have been nothing but cruel to myself my entire existence.”

— Deeply Feeling Series

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“I had loved him so much you know? So much that I forgot I was even there. That I was a person in need of love just as bad.”

— Love, heartbreak & everything in between. // Deeply Feeling Series

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I realized that it wasn’t my fault. You falling out of love with me and moving on. It wasn’t my fault. It wasn’t anyone’s fault, just a case of bad timing is what I’m telling myself to get through this. I realize now that may not be the case. I realize now that sometimes love comes and stay and sometimes it goes and there isn’t a damn thing you can do about it. You loved me and I loved you and what we had was something real. I know it’s real because it still hurts after all these years of it truly being over. We fooled ourselves into thinking that each time we got back together that it would stick but the truth is it wasn’t. We were doomed from the start but I think that’s okay. That’s what I’m telling myself anyways because at the end of the day you were once the most important thing to me in the entire world and even though you still are and I’m not for you I will forever be grateful for the two years you gave me. I’ll be grateful for even the on again off again moments that followed throughout the past 6 years. Because I loved you and you loved me and even though it faded I will still look at you with hope in my eyes because I know you’re the love of my life and even though I’m not yours, as heartbreaking as that is I realize that’s okay. I believe you get more than one true love in this lifetime. I have to believe that or else I’ll go crazy. Anyways, just know that even though we are strangers now I still hold you close to my heart. You are still something, someone important to me and I want to thank you for the love you gave me even though it wasn’t a lifetime. I’m grateful that I can at least say that I got to know you in this lifetime.

Forever & always, h.r.r. // Deeply Feeling Series

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“And I’m angry. I’m angry all the time. I’m angry that I hurt all the time but most of all I’m angry that I don’t know how to make that hurt stop.”

— I’m sad. // Deeply Feeling Series

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And no one knew what it took to become this soft. No one knew what it took out of me to rebuild myself time and time again and that’s the shitty part of recovery. No one knew how many times I had relapsed, if not physically but mentally. No one knew how many times I had to rebuild myself and my heart, no one. That’s the fucking hard part of recovery. When everyone thinks you’re constantly recovering when really you can’t get out of bed but you say you’re fine anyways. That’s depression. That’s mental illness. It’s not beautiful, it’s fucking heartbreaking.

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“and i loved you. maybe even a little too much.”

— This is for you. // Deeply Feeling Series

I read your post on March 25, 2020, and I want to say that you hit me so hard in the heart with those words, because it's fucking true. You have described my condition so clearly, read my thoughts, and seem to be living my life, that only now have I realized that I have found a person in this world who really understands me. Who knows how painful it is to carry such a load inside and at the same time smile and always try to be kind to everyone because if you ever make a mistake or do something wrong, everyone will immediately consider you the most terrible person in the world, even your loved ones.

You described everything so beautifully and sincerely that my tears flowed, and my heart was squeezed with pain when reading.

Thank you for this post, darling

from Love Quinn

Oh my god. I am emotionally filled that you have found comfort in something that I was once/still am feeling. I thank you so so so so much for sending this to me. It has touched my heart in a way I cannot express thank you

#answered

August 17th, 2021

miserable. I’m fucking miserable. I feel so utterly stuck and at loss with words but also my emotions. I feel like I have none, I feel like I have nothing. The world is passing by and I’m simply just a being in a loud ass universe that just seems so fucking cruel and I don’t know how the fuck to survive. I don’t know how to breathe, I don’t know how to live, I don’t know how to be okay and I am drowning. I am fucking drowning.