"All I want is to see you SMILE again"

Independent RP blog - Kurusu Kaoru 

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School has officially sucked the life out of me... I just started again for the second day and I want to scream and cry so much...

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Kaoru gave Syo a nod, followed by a smile “Sure, I`d love to hear”

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“i will иσт fσяgivє нiм. нє wнσ bσυиd мє fяσм fяєєdσм αиd тαмρєяєd wiтн мy รтяυcтυяє. i cαииσт fσяgivє тнαт мαи. i'м bяσkєи bєcαυรє σf нiм. 

                                             iт'ร αll нiร fαυlт.”

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                                                   ωяιттєи ву мєω

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I`ll get to writing alittle more later

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Holding the box of cigarettes in his hands, Kaoru looked from them and to Syos face, giving him a gentle smile. “Nii-san...” he wasn`t sure what more to say, other then that he was proud of his older brother who could give up on smoking “I`ll try my best” he said jokingly followed by a chuckle 

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Syos hand calmed him more and more down. Wiping the tears off his face, Kaoru hid his face him Syos chest. He nodded as an answer to his question “I`ll be fine... Nii-san” His expression had changed, but yet... he still felt alittle hurt in his heart. “Everything is fine, I have you... Syo-chan... here with me” pulling his head away from his chest, Kaoru have Syo a big smile, showing that he was alright

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Slowly as time passed by, Kaoru had come to his senses again, but tears still were formed around his eyes, his eyes were still red from crying. But, his voice had stopped. Hearing Syos voice calmed him down. “S-Syo-chan...Nii-san...” still speaking of his name hurt. Moving his hand to the back of his brothers back, Kaoru pulled him closer, hiding his face. He haven`t felt like this in so long, it scared him

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Send me “zzz...” to overhear something my muse says in their sleep

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He couldn`t hold it in anymore. All these emotions he had. He wasn`t sure how to handle this. Was he supposed to feel happy? Scared? He didn`t knew. Letting everything out. He wasn`t able to speak besides crying his voice out. He was happy that Syo decided to stop smoking, but... Kaoru didn`t stop crying. Just as more tears left, there were more to come. His face hurt, his heart hurt, his whole body hurt from feeling like this

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It wasn`t something he were used to do, crying infront of his older brother... how pathetic. He were supposed to be strong- He had failed. Failed at being a brother who had one mission... to protect his older brother. He couldn`t stop crying, even if Syo were to tell him, the tears just went on and on, never seeming to stop. All these emotions had been locked away these years. He didn`t want to lose him. He didn`t want to lose the one person he could protect. Kaoru knew that there weren`t any way to convince Syo, he wasn`t strong he enough

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Kaoru knew well how much it ment for Syo, being an Idol and such. But wasn`t his health more important? What if his heart stopped? What if something more terrifying were to happend? Was he really going to push the limits of his fragile body? He knew well the passion Syo had. He knew he were strong and thought. But... pushing it too far? 

A tear formed under his eyes, slowly sliding down his chins. His eyes were red. He were scared. More scared then ever before. Why didn`t Syo understand? “S...Syo-chan...” speaking his brothers name hurt him even more

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Little worries, huh? It was more then so called little worries. It ment alot to Kaoru that the two of them could share their thoughts with each other. Sure, he were busy. But he could always make sure that he had a chance to talk with Syo. “Your health Syo. You always overdo things, causing your health to get worse and worse. And being an idol, that just causes you to stress. We`ve been through this many times already, can`t you see I`m afraid of losing you?”

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As if that was going to help him feel better. Kaoru let out a long deep sigh. Was it possible to make him stop? Sure, it wouldn´t be easy to force him to stop. There should be other ways to make him stop before it kills him, right? “You know... you could have come to me, Nii-san. I know that the responsibility of being an idol can be though. But can`t you see... this is why I didn`t want you to become one in the first place”

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Kaoru didn`t answer him, he just gave Syo the silent treatment. Sure, being an idol wasn`t an easy task. But... was smoking even going to help? Kaoru wasn`t quite sure what to do, other then tell him to quit, but it wasn`t that easy. Telling a smoker to just stop, that isn`t going to happen

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“Why?” he didn`t manage to say any other words, Kaoru looked at Syo with a sad expression. Why... why did he start smoking? Kaoru didn`t understand. He had told his brother many, many times before how bad it would be not just for his health, but also his heart and lungs. 

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As if he didn`t knew that from before, he had not just smelt it, but also see it on Syos face. But he didn`t want to admit so. Kaoru sighed “I see... when did you start?”

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@unpleasant-nagi replied to your post

"Boo. You're boring."

And that was when Nagis cuteness went down to negative 100