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“I wasn’t thinking about thresholds, how often we cross without knowing, doors opening and closing without a creak or click as the latch catches and we wonder what side we are on now.”

Jennifer Lighty

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not that I have been very active on tumblr much anyway, but I am officially signing off for good </3 my instagram is @/elliotnoahpatterson if u want to follow me there :-)

#I'm not using instagram either at the moment but I intend on re-downloading it at some point #I did post a picture the other day but I just downloaded the app then posted it then immediately deleted the app again lol

should I pretend to be a boy or a girl while I try to illegally sneak my overweight bag onto the airplane. probably a girl right. no one would expect a girl to be able to carry a bag more than 10 kg

#i forgot to weigh it before i left but it just feels heavy.... i think it's too heavy i only paid for 10 kg #but maybe it isn't overweight maybe i really am just a girl who can't lift more than 10 kg

the coffee in the ryanair terminal is awful but whatever thanks for the cheap flight girl

#btw milk town just dropped u should all listen to it

after I detransitioned or w/e I started using the women's bathroom again sometimes and it's so much nicer than the men's omg. like the difference is insane

#I didn't really detrans I consider myself genderfluid now but I stopped taking testosterone #mostly because I forgot lol but then I just stopped forever #sometimes I put on a necklace and take off my big coat and use the women's room #and sometimes I take off my necklace and put on a coat to use the men's room. as is convenient for me #I don't know if this is ethical but it's great for me and no one has ever bothered me

I journal obsessively but actually one of the best ways to assess my mental state is to read my school assignments. the reflection journals I wrote for my spanish class last year are so funny. my manic episode started halfway through the semester and it was like

reflection 1: I find the subjunctive tense challenging at times, however, I find its artistic implications very compelling.

reflection 2: I used to use the class period to write in my diary about my ex boyfriend, but then I stopped doing that and I found I learned a lot more. I also started watching catboy amvs while I do my assignments and I think it adds a certain je ne sais quoi to my work

like. girl what

#that's not a verbatim excerpt from my reflection but explaining the ex boyfriend and catboy amv thing is real #I can feel this quality creeping into my current assignments/emails and I am trying to resist it like someone trying to resist an evil curs #mental illness #bipolar

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Remember in 2010 when Taio Cruz said "I throw my hands up in the air sometimes"? I appreciated his restraint. You can't just throw your hands up in the air whenever. There's a time and a place, and that time was 2010, and the place was the club.

just realized my hw assignment is a podcast so I can play minecraft while I listen to it !!!!!!! YES