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☆ You know... I thought of a m-m-metaphor. ☆ Picture deep space. Vast and fr-frozen. Galaxies are born. Stars c-collapse. ...And I just observe. I'll never feel the heat of the s-s-sun. Or the w-warmth of an embrace. ☆ It seems neither s-space nor society need me. ☆

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˚　　　　✦　　　.　　. 🪐　 ˚　.　　　　 　　.　　　　　　 ✦　　　.　　˚　🌒　　　　. ✦ 　🌍 <- you are here 　　.  　 　　　˚　　　　　*　　 　　✦　　　.　　.　　　✦　　˚ 　　　 　　˚　.　*　　. 　˚　　.

[ ✚ ] i'll break your bones with all the love i carry [ ✚ ]

➠ call me proxy on here. he/it. i am the boy anachronism and m3dic t.f.2's canon husband. somewhat former jirai boy?? still kinda am. i am a minor

➠ idk i change my personality pretty frequently. or my mood. it just changes okay

➠ i post vents and thoughts i dont wanna post on main. i'm trying to be better (unlike how i used to be... don't talk about my past, i was a different man). scared of fame but also don't like isolation so i'm here. don't get too attached please!

➠ my DNI is any type of 'dead dove do not eat', proship/comship/darkship, radqueers, doubles of m3dic and people who interact with doubles of him, people that ship m3dic with other characters, tcc community, ableists, paraphiles, nonsharer haters, anti-endos, blackwashers and whitewashers, misandrists and misogynists, and mdni blogs.

[ ✚ ] keep you close and one day, we'll get married [ ✚ ]

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if i ever tell anyone that i think i have race ocd or intrusive thoughts about race its not me . i cant let anyone know but i guess i am by posting this anyway. im desperate for help but it wont come !

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im forgetting all my sexual trauma in the bad way because now i cant remember if it happened or not or im just overreacting or what happened in the first place

[softytothecore]

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i need him to hold me while i literally fucking sob

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will i get hung in the street for saying this or is it okay to say this is relatable

[fibro-memes]

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sounds bad but i wish my f/os wiuld just abuse me sometimes. i wouldnt like it but at least my worries are justified that they do hate me.

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eczema acting up and im lonely . awful combo

[sailermoon]

having unwashed hair will have you believing shit like i can’t be saved

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im useless

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i feel like panic attack is happening

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im so fucking evil for being white istg and everyone hates me for saying this adn being upset about it i should just be baet up by everyone better than me (not white people)

[just-a-s1lly-s3lfsh1pp3r]

When I’m randomly scrolling on social media and I see a double in the wild

PROSHIP AND DOUBLES DNI!! (Please)

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i cant stop myself from doing it even though its bad

[just-a-s1lly-s3lfsh1pp3r]

I HATE SEEING MY F/O(S) SHIPPED WITH THE OTHER CHARACTERS!! THEY WOULDN’T LIKE EACH OTHERRR! OH MY GODD

PROSHIP AND DOUBLES DNI!! (Please)

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i keep seeing ppl put m.e.dic with other characters and making him a necrophile which is like.. disgusting and he would not fucking do that, but it just made me remember somethin. i had a nightmare once where i was cleaning up crimes for shady people aand some kids got me to go out there and they said they raped m.e.d.ic then dismembered him and put the body parts in trash bags and they wanted me to clean it up and dispose of it and expected me to go along with it and be normal. mind you i'm a selfshipper of him and stuff. and me in the dream just asked one thing and it was if i could hug the trash bags with his body parts in them before i had to bbury it because i was so upset. i dont remember the boys response but i remember taking them out to the woods, digging a hole, then just sitting there on the ground in shock and holding onto the bags and then i woke up like wtf. i hate my brain