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The devotion of a Lan and why Lan Xichen will never marry

(unless that person is Jin Guangyao)

From the likes of Lan An down to Lan Wangji, the Lan, at times tragic, were deeply romantic and always faithful. It’s hard to consider love at first sight to be a genetic trait, but the evidence doesn’t lie. Not a single Lan married a person they did not love. Not a single Lan moved on after the loss of their soulmate.

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theladyvalkyrieskyeart

My sister and I saw you across the bar and we really dig your spite for dying. Can we offer you some immortality?

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Kim Namjoon made a mistake . . . Kim Seokjin heard Namjoon found somebody else . . . They couldn't be more in love And now they'll have to figure their hearts out

_________ A series inspired by songs from the band, The 1975

Thoughts: Kinda proud of the smut in this, I have improved I guess?

#kim namjoon #kim seokjin #Namjin #au #romance #bts #bangtan sonyeondan #ao3fic #Smut #m/m fanfic

I seriously think mojito should dial down the rape in the story coz wtf??

#ennead #seth ennead #mojito

How am i suppose to masturbate if the ppl below my house keeps on fcking hammering the wall??!!! For the love of god i need to concentrate!!!

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Summary:

Kim Seokjin walks to the aisle, silent and graceful as he always has, perfect and unwavering as he took her hand and faced God to promise the rest of his lifetime. Then came the vows, he turned to her, smiles, and lifts the paper in his hand, words spilling from his mouth, pouring as if they were held in for so long,

Then a deafening silence . . . .

The slap that came after was the only sound that filled the entire church

Thoughts: finish it kinda in a rush but still wort a read I hope

#bts #kim namjoon #kim seokjin #Namjin #ao3fic #angst #wedding #bangtan sonyeondan #au #oc

LITERALLY FUCK MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!

Like im so sick and tired of this shit like what the hell????(@(@*@(@ i cant do anything right??? Like god damn it, it was ONE.SMALL.THING a fucking instruction so easy even 5 yrs old would understand i couldnt coz i dont know????? Im so fucking done making excuses, maybe its anxiety? Maybe u have other things on ur mind? MAYBE I WAS JUST DUMB?????? MAYBE INSTEAD OF PRETENDING I USE TO BE THE SMART EXCELLING STUDENT THAT I WAS BEFORE I WAS JUST A FUCKING TRAINWRECK OBSESSED ON ASKING FOR VALIDATION FROM MY PARENTS COZ THATS THE ONLY WAY I COULD LIVE WITH MYSELF?!@*@(@) like fuck it all!!! Im not good in sports, i can save a conversation for the life of me, i get so scared when someone raises their voice, i dont know how to socialize, IM A FUCKING CLOSETED BISEXUAL??)!*@(@)@ A FUCKING LOSER!!!! seriously one more second with myself and i just cant. I was happy, i use to be happy, i could laugh like nothing ever mattered but then life bites my ass back and reminds me i cant be, i cant because i dont deserve shit, not even an ounce of oxygen or space like fuck me seriously, why am i even here, NO ONE FUCKING ASKED ME IF I WANTED TO LIVE COZ I DONT!!!!! ITS UNFAIR LIVING THIS GODDAMN LIFE, CAN THE EARTH SWALLOW ME WHOLE???? CAN I JUST DROP DEAD!!! like i couldnt even attempt suicide without shaking, i cant drown myself in pills coz im so goddamn scared to wake up and realize its a failed attempt and everyone knows i have a problem and everyone would look at me different and i would have to get worse and worse. I just want to drop dead!!!! JUST SOMEONE KILL ME NOW!!!!! ALL U FUCKING ASSHOLES WHO WANT VIOLENCE COME GET ME Y'ALL SICK FUCKS!! I DONT CARE WHAT U DO TO MY BODY AFTERWARDS, SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD AND GO!!!!! i fucking do not care anymore!!!!!

please, im begging u, i dont want this anymore

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Summary:

Namjoon's journal was his heart, an extension of himself, the one place where his emotions and words poured without any hesitation when he needed them to be sorted out or make any amount of sense. To have it revealed to the world means to be stripped away from his last and only armor which he kept between himself and others. He was about to be left vulnerable in front of everyone, open for scrutiny and rejection.

And that is what exactly happened when an anonymous spread his journal entries to the world.

Thoughts: First Beta read work so kinda proud of this one.

Credits to the owner of the picture above.

#bts #bangtan sonyeondan #namjin #kim namjoon #kim seokjin #min yoongi #jung hoseok #park jimin #kim taehyung #jeon jungkook #angst #fanfic #archive of our own

Gods of tumblr give me inspiration to write thank you

quotemadness

I know exactly how that is. To love somebody who doesn’t deserve it. Because they are all you have. Because any attention is better than no attention.

Augusten Burroughs (via quotemadness)

poems-and-word

Poems & Words

Taking a step back

When I was young, I pledged myself to a ninja.

He said, “I’m going to be hokage someday!” and with his enthusiasm I took his hand and walked with him to his journey.

When my mind matured, I realized I didn’t pledge to the ninja but to the idea,

To the idea that someday I could tell myself “I’ll never give up!” and carry the same eagerness he had with life.

But when he reached his goal and he had nothing to offer me, I let go and searched for a new anchor . . .

I was finishing through college when I promise myself to two British dorks.

It was the first time I understood what depression was, what it means to be an introvert and to see the world through your own innocence.

I laughed and I cried, I cringed and joined fanwars.

But when I outgrew the sarcasms and wholesome content, and grew tired of my reality, I thought maybe, magic is what I need . . .

I stumbled upon a boy with glasses and a scar, the whole world watch him grow, so I decided maybe I could too

So I read the books and watched the movies, plunged myself in the magic I believed could save me.

Sorted myself to houses, learned the lessons by heart.

But when the author and the book seem to have different principles in my eyes, I knew it’s time to walk out . . .

When I was comfortable being bisexual, I knew I’d ever love only one woman.

From a broodmare to a queen, from eggs to dragons, she made the color of fire and blood an art

There was no happy ending on sight but it was justice that I wanted for her,

Whether it be a throne or a lover, whatever it was that suited her.

But when her end was defined by betrayal of her character, with rage in my heart I left . . .

Now, I commit myself to seven Korean men who promised me they can save me with their music,

So I started building my world around them, hoping they would fulfill their vow like everyone before them

And so with that I moved onto another obsession, one after the other, further away from myself

When I was lost and had no anchor, empty and alone, I take a step towards anything I can anchor myself upon

Aphrodite might be looking down on me, she knew what passion could do but this might not be what she wanted for me,

Maybe someday she’ll come back, with her warm eyes and brave hands, “Darling, maybe it was love that you need”

Maybe just like her, I wished, that this time when the music isn’t loud enough to drown the emptiness and the words they say doesn’t reach me anymore,

Maybe by then I could take a step back, no matter how tiny it would be, and take the road back towards me

#poetry #serotonin level is at zero #naruto #dan and phil #Harry Potter #game of thrones #bts

Thanks for the tag, @icanheareternity hope we could truly know each other this time.

rules: bold everything that applies to you & tag 10 people you’d like to get to know better.

appearance

I’m over 5′5”. I wear glasses/contacts. I have blonde hair. I prefer loose clothing to tight clothing. I have one or more piercings. I have at least one tattoo. I have blue/green eyes. I have dyed or highlighted my hair. I have gotten plastic surgery. I have or had braces. I sunburn easily. I have freckles. I paint my nails. I typically wear makeup. I don’t often smile. I am pleased with how I look. I prefer Nike to Adidas. I wear baseball hats backwards.

hobbies and talents

I play a sport. I can play an instrument. I am artistic. I know more than one language. I have won a trophy in some sort of competition. I can cook or bake without a recipe. I know how to swim. I enjoy writing. I can do origami. I prefer movies to tv shows. I can execute a perfect somersault. I enjoy singing. I could survive in the wild on my own. I have read a new book series this year. I enjoy spending time with friends. I travel during school or work breaks. I can do a handstand.

relationships

I am in a relationship. I have been single for over a year. I have a crush. I have a best friend I have known for ten years. My parents are together. I have dated my best friend. I am adopted. My crush has confessed to me. I have a long distance relationship. I am an only child. I give advice to my friends. I have made an online friend. I met up with someone I have met online.

aesthetic

I have heard the ocean in a conch shell. I have watched the sunrise. I enjoy rainy days. I have slept under the stars. I meditate outside. The sound of chirping calms me. I enjoy the smell of the beach. I know what snow tastes like. I listen to music to fall asleep. I enjoy thunderstorms. I enjoy cloud watching. I have attended a bonfire. I pay close attention to colors. I find mystery in the ocean. I enjoy hiking on nature paths. Autumn is my favorite season.

miscellaneous

I can fall asleep in a moving vehicle. I am the mom friend. I live by a certain quote. I like the smell of sharpies. I am involved in extracurricular activities. I enjoy Mexican food. I can drive a stick-shift. I believe in true love. I make up scenarios to fall asleep. I sing in the shower. I wish I lived in a video game. I have a canopy above my bed. I am multiracial. I am a redhead. I own at least three dogs.

For tagging: @meet-the-girl-who-can, @ fandomplethora. @ask-the-olympians @imaginaryairika @death-before-disco-495 @archangelsecrets @braveincafleet @love-a-lots @insomniac-stargazer

I’m so fucking pissed!! I never do anything right. NOT.ONE.BIT!! I thought this was it! This will be my job but like fuck man, it’s been a month and I still do shit that isn’t right. I don’t know if I’m overreacting, is it the anxiety kicking up?? Am I too hard on myself?? For fuck sake, I’m so done with myself. I fucking hate it.