A boyish notion;; @pseudostarlings - Tumblr Blog

oh whoops i magically did not check this blog for a very long time my bad

ugh god this blog is like... an especially depressing graveyard.

like more depressing than your average graveyard.

#this is like.................. stupidly sad lmfao oh my god #since it's really just me here like... i guess it's good to just talk #reading back on my old posts... like. i read EVERY page. EVERY PAGE of this blog.#it sucks reading back on it. it's why i stopped keeping journals for years.#'cause like... only seeing the spiral in hindsight really fucking sucks #this was a horrifically bad time in my life #bpd was getting worse and my drug use was out of control. i was drunk more often than i'll admit.#episodes of paranoia and despair and anxiety over how people viewed me...#idk i left this blog during such a vulnerable time in my life and looking back on it is like...#fuck i was really... like this. i was really that bad and i didn't realize until it was too late.#i'm just glad i'm ok now #so in a way maybe it's good that this blog still exists #and that i felt like i should read every page #i have a lot of regrets surrounding this blog and the people i knew but...#idk maybe it isn't so bad. maybe. idk. my feelings are complicated idk how i feel #i'm just sad about it i guess

anyway, i still rp and i’m still on tumblr. all of my rp blogs are still like... being worked on but it’s annoying to work on them because two of them are multimuses and those are HELL to put together lmfao anyway

if ANYONE is still around and sees this post (unlikely but! who cares), this is where i’m at these days:

personal blog, multimuse 1, multimuse 2, standalone character (sorta inactive)

#i'm gonna change the email on this blog so i can find it more easily again #i'm gonna wanna log in and grab some old shit eventually bc i'm a nostalgic little baby lmao #but yeah for now i guess treat this as a farewell of sorts

absolutely what the fuck is this page though

thank you, past me, for that absolutely RIVETING commentary

#crack? is that what i smoked?#no it was weed. it was definitely weed. nothing else i did was... smoke-able.

FUCK y’all oh my god i’m looking at that ‘goodbye’ message and like

wow what an edgy little shit i was lmfao ya boi was watching sh0eonhead and thinking he knew jack shit oof

i’m so fucking excited oh my god i never thought i’d get into this old piece of shit blog again in a BILLION years but HERE we ARE

my dash is in shambles lmfao holy fuck guys

woah what the fuck i actually still had the login for this blog oh my god holy fuck

HOLY FUCK

#I AM THE MASTER COMMANDER #FUCK YEAHHHH FUCK YEAH WHO'S A GUY WHO KNOWS SHIT? IT'S MEEEEEEEEEEE #nah jk i just happened to find a really REALLY old spreadsheet from years ago that had this shit #i was literally looking through posts of those tumblr data breaches #i was looking for my email address in those and didn't find any #but it turns out. it was just. all on a flash drive. on my desk.#oh my god i can't believe i got in i gOT IN??? I GOT IN

-- {as you have probably noticed, i have been posting next to nothing on this blog. that said, i'm just going to take a hiatus until i have all of my replies actually written up and drafted. i'm not doing anything on this blog until i can get those 10+ replies squared away. so yeah. mini hiatus. or long hiatus. idk.} I'm not coming back. Too many followers, too many threads, too many people, too many expectations, too many chances for failure, too much pressure, too much stress, too much, too much, too much-- you get the idea. I'll be around, but not here. Not on this blog. I am editing this post and leaving this message a month after I initially made this post. People are only going to see this if they happen to glance at my blog after I save the changes I've made to this post. It's better this way. Thanks for putting up with my inability to do, well, anything in a timely manner, but your patience is wasted on me.

#Mun Warblings.

vicerys

#Roman Bragin.#blood tw #bruises cw #CONFUSED CHIRPING #WORRIED CONFUSED CHIRPING #CHIRPS LOUDLY AND IN A WORRIED AND CONFUSED MANNER #CHIRPS SO FUCKING LOUD THE SOUND BARRIER FUCKING SHATTERS

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"Seriously, do I ever give a fuck if you kiss me?"

pseudostarlings

"Not a fuck, not a shit, not a damn-- at least, not that you've mentioned anyway." [ he nuzzles his nose against patrick's for a moment, silently debating whether or not to steal another kiss. his movement falters, then he pulls back slightly, a small smile tugging at his lips as he tilts his head inquisitively. ] "You busy tonight? 'M bored and you're fun."

#rp #mxtamorph #replies to this new small thing instead of tackling any of my 10+ drafts that i've owed for about a month

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Send me a url and I'll answer the following;;

Opinion on;

Character in general: How they play them: The Mun:

Do I:

RP with them: Want to RP with them:

What is my;

Overall Opinion:

**Note: Mun’s answer are all to be completely honest. Don’t send url if you don’t want brutal honesty

#rbg #im only half here. i'm... sick. so uh yeah

-- {ok im retconning that last tag. i don't have 201 followers. i have 202. how do i manage this oh my god hello new people. thank you for following me.}

#Mun Warblings.#i sEE THERE'S A CAPA ON BOARD

-- {oh hey wow i gained four followers tonight and i don't even have all of the info (or really any) up on my blog. wow. hi guys thanks for putting up with my really slow renovation of this blog. i'm gonna finish it tonight or tomorrow i swear.}

#Mun Warblings.#really tho 201 followers wow

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"Don’t lie."

pseudostarlings

"Alright. Not sorry, then."

#rp #mxtamorph

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PSA;

Hey everyone just a good ol’ friendly blogger here to tell you that this —-

is horribly annoying, and to beg every single one of you to trim your posts. Here is a good tutorial that will show you how, and here is how you can do it on mobile!

Please - for the sanity of other mobile rp’ers, and also out of kindness for those on the dash — do this?

#mun misc #i literally unfollow people who do not ever cut their posts #like really i do not want to have to scroll for five million years just to get past one post