I'm starting to feel mentally sick. I wake up in the morning and it is literally painful to get out of bed. My head feels heavy and dizzy, like it's spinning. There seems to be a fog in my brain. I don't feel motivated to do anything that requires any amount of energy. I constantly sit and question the reality I find myself in, and the things that are expected of me. I can't seem to concentrate on anything for very long, unless it consists of rapidly moving blinking lights on a screen of some sort. I don't have a very strong desire for social interaction, which ends up with me sitting around my house alone all day, getting irritated very easily when any family member bothers me. I can't remember even the most simply things. Today I got up to get a glass of water, sat down with it and put it next to me. Moments later I realized I was thirsty so I got up to get another glass of water without remembering the last one. when I walked back to sit down I saw the other glass of water and felt confused. This is all very troubling to me. I feel strange sensations that I am not sure how to put into words but they feel very similar to feelings I get when I'm on drugs, but I get them even when I'm sober. I am easily startled and I get paranoid at night. Typing all this out has made me feel slightly better, slightly less stressed out. Today I went on a run and did some meditation and yoga. All those things seemed to make me feel slightly better. I'm going to try to abstain from psychedelic drugs for at least a month, and see if there is a difference. I'm also going to try to smoke less pot, and drink less coffee. I'd like to quit cigarettes entirely but i don't really have the confidence to try. Im just gonna try to smoke them less. One a day at the most. I'm also gonna start taking 5-HTP before bed. Writing this felt good, so I'll probably do an update later when I feel a difference or lack thereof
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