if Bridget Jones was a psych student...

30. psychology student. documenting my journey from medicine to psychology. kinda.

[idrawsnoopyeveryday]

148.

[psychblurred]

i do know that the IT guy has a girlfriend but he is either just being nice to me in general or idk what’s happening… stop talking to me dude or idk

send help

[psychblurred]

maybe it’s Stockholm syndrome? or the mere exposure effect? cause i find another colleague attractive as well.

am i losing my mind in this place? finally after two years? i mean these are the only two guys i found attractive from the start but nevermind

nobody is single here anyway!

maybe if i could bump into actor guy. and by bump i mean fully body smash into him so he would finally fucking see me 🫠🫠🫠

send help or a xanax

[psychblurred]

also IT guy is nice but like i do not want anything even if he is single so yeah bye

[psychblurred]

uhm. did he break up with his gf for real? or what the hell 🫠 the gestures are quite interesting

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and by the way i’m so fucking lost and so unwell.

i guess you either finish med school or die rather than dropping out in the last year. cause i cannot move on at all.

i’m not good at anything else. i do not find beauty in being a fucking IT office rat. i also do not find beauty in psychology currently.

i’ve lost my entire identity

[psychblurred]

i do know that the IT guy has a girlfriend but he is either just being nice to me in general or idk what’s happening… stop talking to me dude or idk

send help

[psychblurred]

maybe it’s Stockholm syndrome? or the mere exposure effect? cause i find another colleague attractive as well.

am i losing my mind in this place? finally after two years? i mean these are the only two guys i found attractive from the start but nevermind

nobody is single here anyway!

maybe if i could bump into actor guy. and by bump i mean fully body smash into him so he would finally fucking see me 🫠🫠🫠

send help or a xanax

[psychblurred]

also IT guy is nice but like i do not want anything even if he is single so yeah bye

[psychblurred]

i do know that the IT guy has a girlfriend but he is either just being nice to me in general or idk what’s happening… stop talking to me dude or idk

send help

[psychblurred]

maybe it’s Stockholm syndrome? or the mere exposure effect? cause i find another colleague attractive as well.

am i losing my mind in this place? finally after two years? i mean these are the only two guys i found attractive from the start but nevermind

nobody is single here anyway!

maybe if i could bump into actor guy. and by bump i mean fully body smash into him so he would finally fucking see me 🫠🫠🫠

send help or a xanax

[psychblurred]

i do know that the IT guy has a girlfriend but he is either just being nice to me in general or idk what’s happening… stop talking to me dude or idk

send help

[skelotan]

Dedicated to my cat, who is very vocal about my bed time.

PATREON

[laceandlavendersworld]

Fully booked srry

[psychblurred]

i’m already so happy about the smaller implants.

the incisions hurt like hell but i feel like i’m finally back to myself

[psychblurred]

i just got my pre-op drug and man i’ve never been this calm. this is certainly not xanax. or maybe it is in a higher dose. i’m struggling to stay awake lol

[psychblurred]

yay i’m alive again

[psychblurred]

i just got my pre-op drug and man i’ve never been this calm. this is certainly not xanax. or maybe it is in a higher dose. i’m struggling to stay awake lol

[psychblurred]

i decided that i’m not going to upload any thesis this semester because it’s been a lot. also the deadline is today, and today is my operation as well which was also moved to an earlier appointment so you know, i need to rest. 

and then i decided yesterday evening that i’m gonna hate myself even more if i do not upload any of the medium papers. so i finished it. i was up until two am. it’s uploaded. fuck it. 

i need to arrive at the hospital at 9:30. i’m so damn nervous, it’s definitely worse now than the first time which is weird. i just don’t wanna die during anaesthesia 🫠 especially not for a stupid plastic surgery. 

i just want this to be over. 

[goth-queen]

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i’m scared of the operation on Friday. i feel like i got lucky once but i cannot pull it off twice. i’m scared. and all for aesthetics… i kinda hate myself.

[psychblurred]

in a week i will be out of the hospital. i’ve survived this surgery and anaesthesia once. but i’m nervous again.

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a colleague of mine had about 30 days of sick leave and 7 days PTO so far. it’s May. 🙃

no he is not sick. but it’s great to know that this is accepted and it’s okay that we carry his workload. i took two days off for the operation. but yeah it’s fine.

[anxietyproblem]