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[pterygoidwalk]

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hello i'm chance and i like to draw for fun. this blog is both stuff i made and stuff i like. currently really into disco elysium but also generally into animals, creature design, spec bio etc.

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OC tag

-Oak Burl Estate, an OC project of mine about a clown butler working in a creepy inn

-furry tag, bc i like drawing furries

Disco Elysium tag (for my fanart)

-Kimjean tag (this is my OTP rn and probably how u found me)

that's all 👋

[star-mom-selkie]

happy pride month

[star-angel-selkie]

this one kinda hurts when i see it every pride month. im glad to see an art piece of mine still circulating, and with nearly 100,000 notes too! it just hurts that im separated from it. everyone in the notes thinks im gone. im still here, but my potential community and connection is lost because im forgotten in place of the art. yeah, my deactivated profile does add to the profoundness of what i was saying, but i am still removed.

[zszsze]

can i come to your house and make you know some information

[valtsv]

being a scavenger animal must be so fucking great. imagine if every time someone died a new restaurant opened up downtown.

[valtsv]

[radetzkymarch]

[angealainn]

love how you dont even need to make new letters theyre all there already

[ruporas]

parting words (id in alt)

under read more for last 5 pages

[charseraph]

[lil-peebo]

Okay here's my obligatory post about Tumblr users and their ignorance of rap, as a (white) fan of rap:

Saying "Not all rap music is about violence, here are alternatives" is not helpful, because the violent music ALSO has meaning.

When Biggie Smalls postures about his gang connections and packing heat, he isn't doing it because wow violence is so edgy, it's a powerful statement. Youth in urban areas where gang activity is heavy are often treated as lesser than by default, especially compared to black people the same age from a wealthy background. There's a reason that the "wholesome and respectable" black-lead entertainment of that era was stuff like the Cosby Show, with doctor-lawyer parents, or Family Matters, with a cop dad. There's a reason why the big joke of Fresh Prince is someone with a more unstable upbringing moving in with one of these model black sitcom families.

Standing up and saying yeah, I came from the mean streets, I was molded by this violence and yes, I did what I had to do to survive in a world that refuses to acknowledge my existence as meaningful or worthy of protection. I protected myself, I made my own way, and fuck anybody who tries to stand in the way of that.

Refusing to demonize that environment and wearing it like armor in a way that protects from the authority that wants you to see them as sub humans incapable of only violence and hatred, and saying HEY. I'm here, I lived this, and there is love and there is pain and there is ART in this.

That is powerful. That is the essence of gangster rap.

It isn't about hurting people for fun, it's about holding a mirror up to a society that does the hurting and then calls you a monster for what it's made you. Its about validating the experiences of the disenfranchised and biting back at authority. It's about turning a pain that the world say you deserve being one of those people from those places into POETRY. Into ART.

And thats why it matters.

And thats why you need to shut the yell up and stop dismissing it as violence without substance when you all sat on your ass listening to songs about Hatsune Miku eating people in middle school.

[queen-mihai]

This right here.

I'm sick and entirely tired of having to defend my entire young life to people who want to do nothing but insult the music that helped make me ME.

I get around a lot of people who look at me and see a role model. They see something they aspire to be. They see a life they want.

And so they approach me and talk to me and I am excited to share my culture with them. All the way until, for the 784th time in a row, someone tells me "I don't listen to rap"

Or

"I only listen to music with real instruments"

Or

"I have to be in the right mood to listen to that, which almost never happens"

And they don't see how insulting that is. To walk up to me, tell me you like me, that you want to be like me, but then ignore one of the things that makes me me.

You don't want to be like me. You want to fucking cosplay as me. You don't want to watch the movies I watch, listen to the music I like, enjoy a meal or a coffee with me, or interact with anything that I create. So tell me again just exactly what it is you like about me?

What my clothes and the color of my hair? You're missing the whole fucking point of why I keep color in my hair. I never wanted to stand out. I just stood out anyway because people would fucking pick me out. People singled me out. Teachers, preachers, family, strangers, cops, leaders, and outcasts alike all looked at me no matter how boring I dressed and decided that I am meant to stand out. So I decided to stop hiding and stand out on my fucking own

It's the same thing with rap music.

These people did what they had to do to survive, and you don't get to tell them their music isn't valuable because it's not the same as the soft rock that has been playing around the world on repeat for the past 50 years.

You're not breaking new ground. Listen to somebody who doesn't look like you for once

[queen-mihai]

Oh I was on fire this day

And this is still the damn truth. Every word

[queen-mihai]

I'm just as red hot about this as the day I wrote it.

Every fucking time I bring up a black artist I like somebody tells me they haven't heard of them and then brings up some black artist wrapped up in controversy to try to pretend THAT'S why they can't listen to black music.

"Oh she's too sexual"

OK listen to the music I listen to. It's not sexual. And even if it was, it would still be fucking valid.

"Oh he's too violent"

OK listen to the music I listen to. It's not violent. And even if it was, it would still be fucking valid.

And by the end of the conversation, they've been introduced to 7 new wholesome amazing artists that they've never heard of and will never listen to again

Because they're FUCKING RACIST

Fuck you and fuck your attitude about black music. Listen to black music

And if you come at me with those same dumb ass excuses, you are racist piece of dogshit and you can go fuck yourself.

[kane-turu]

Saw this on Twitter and I obligatory need to share it

[crazy-pages]

So she actually said that she does not see the appeal in Senshi at all and that the panty shots weren't intended to be horny - she just has a neighbor who looks kind of like him and does laundry in his underwear. Which she finds kind of weird and offputting, and put into his character to be funny.

But that's the thing. She doesn't exaggerate or grotesqueify or alter people's bodies to fit some standard. (Except insofar as she draws different species differently, and those are exquisitely practiced to ensure they have the same diversity of appearances that humans do.) She just presents people exactly as they are, complexities and oddities and all.

It just so happens that when you present people exactly as they are, what you present will be beautiful and alluring to many. Even the things you yourself might find weird and offputting. Honestly I think it's a touching example of how you don't have to see the beauty in everyone for the beauty to be there, simple honesty is enough to let the wonder of people's humanity shine through.

[saxifraga-x-urbium]

#i think we should put this post next to the interview where she said she doesn't want to eat the food in the series cuz she's a picky eater#and file them both under 'you don't know an artist from their work'#and maybe you don't need to!#maybe all you need to know is that ryoko kui is Good At What She Does#idk I don't like the implication that artists (and women especially?) can only create from personal life and feelings#some people have imagination and craft#kind of a tangent but. there you go.

no but you're very correct

[grumfy]

Theseus and The Minotaur

[juunipupu]

Knights in Love

[pterygoidwalk]

showing him a cool dragon she saw in her travels

[oodlesodoodles]

i would like to know why the magic is that way in witch hat. Like why is there a symbol for a bird? How does magic know what bird is? If someone assigned that symbol to bird, how? And if someone didnt, why is that the universal bird symbol?

Would someone in a different language interperet the symbols for delicate operations differently because of speech?

Is there a symbol for "human"? Like if you want to make yourself fly, you write the symbol for fly on your body. If you wrote the symbol for human on you.... would you double? What would happen?

[pterygoidwalk]

^ sigil that makes your magic shaped like qifrey

[mindllessdreaming]

and the winner of superwholock is officially??? no one. we all lost. congrats team

[buggyhuman-blog]

[roycohn]

gay men brought back 70s mustaches, lesbians brought back 80s mullets, and now straight dudes are just walking around with both thinking they stumbled onto this styling choice by accident. say the line meryl (cerulean sweater monologue but specifically about how gay culture creates taste)

[untitledgoosegay]

-- The Faggots & Their Friends Between Revolutions

[why-animals-do-the-thing]

Folk, I’m gonna vaguepost for a sec here, but it’s an important one.

If you are in the United States and not employed by a zoo or sanctuary or a veterinarian working with a facility, if anyone for any reason offers to allow you to touch a big cat, please do not do it.

No matter how much you want to, no matter how much it is a dream, understand that it is a violation of federal law that could get the facility the cat lives at in very serious trouble. It does not matter if it is through the fence, or in the context of a trained behavior, or if the cat is on a leash. Even if it feels “safe” or they swear the facility condones it.

It’s starting to appear that lots of zookeepers have not been informed appropriately about the scope of the law - or in cases where they do know it’s inappropriate, they are sometimes being overridden by their management and forced to allow encounters. (Even at accredited facilities!)

We do not know exactly what the penalties could be for that happening within an accredited zoo (yay badly implemented laws) but it typically comes down to being risk to a) the cat’s welfare b) the facility’s ability to have any big cats at all and c) someone, either the facility owner or the person offering, could go to jail or pay serious fines. There are two instances of this happening at AZA zoos that were leaked recently and we may now find out how bad it’s going to get for them.

Lots of facilities will have big cat pelts as educational biofacts that they will allow you to touch. You do not ever need to take the risk associated with touching a live big cat - generally anywhere, and especially in the US.

And for some reason, if you ever are in that situation and unethical enough to actually touch the cat? Don’t post it on social media and definitely don’t make that post public. 🙄

[why-animals-do-the-thing]

I literally got to touch three different big cat pelts today in one zoo visit (didn’t take a photo of the lion one). You! Don’t! Need! To! Touch! Live! Cats!

The volunteer did not know where these pieces of pelt came from - they often don’t. Generally in the US they are either sourced from US Fish and Wildlife confiscations (as part of a collab for educational programs) or they’re actually from previous collection animals. The latter is much rarer because it’s pretty emotionally hard for staff, but it means you can touch them without worrying it’s an animal you might have loved.

[oceanflowerrs]

GENUINELY INSANE

[thesitharts]

Once you start noticing the erasure and exclusion of trans mascs in everything from media to academics you can never stop noticing it

[burning-gray-mon]

Back when I was in university we were asked to do a brief research exercise on a health condition impacting a community. Can't remember what I wanted to look at now, but it was something to do with the trans community.

Whatever it was, to put it this way, if there were 10 studies on the trans community as a whole, there were 3 on trans women and trans fems and 0 on trans men and trans mascs, and 0 on nonbinary people. All of the mixed studies were also pretty much useless for my purposes as well because they were all so lopsided.

I think I swapped to a bunch of different things - addiction rates, smoking, depression, mental health in general - nothing that was even roughly equal in looking at all of us. Trans men, trans mascs and nonbinary people are so under researched as to be nonexistent.

To keep this brief since I've rambled a bunch - this is a major issue health wise since we have not a lot of literature on what testosterone does to certain bodies. This can lead to major health complications, not because of the testosterone itself, but because there might be an interaction thats missed or a complication that's not noticed (which is the same for any medication that's under researched on certain bodies. This is not me scaring people off of hrt, this is me pointing out its a medication like any other.)

[genderkoolaid]

#the therapist who wrote my permission slip for hrt was a trans man#and during that appointment we talked about the erasure of trans men from basically everything#and i talked about an article i had read a week or so earlier about trans people and hiv#it very in depth about risks prevention treatment etc#except that it exclusively referenced trans women with a single sentence at the end basically saying 'oh trans men are at risk too'#less than a year later i saw that same therapist speaking at an hiv organization fundraising event#he talked about how he had just recently been diagnosed with hiv#and had to sit there while this doctor told him all about how the treatment options had never been tested on trans men#none of them#they knew that the treatment would work#but not how effective it would be in comparison to its effectiveness in other demographics#no idea what kind of side effects he might experience#how it would interact with his body and his hormones#what the long term effects would be#nothing#he had to sit there while his doctor told him he would have to be a guinea pig but its not like he has a choice#the only alternative is dying from aids#that whole thing was kind of a wake up call for me#and i started paying more attention getting tested regularly myself and all that sruff you're supposed to do#and over time i befriended the person who did most of my testing#they were also trans masc and we would talk about this kind of stuff#and i told them i wanted to get on prep but every doctor i asked had a wildly different answer on if i even could take it#which verison i could take etc#and they said that only one form of prep has been approved fot trans men but its never actually been tested on trans men#and that one version isnt good for long term use because it has some pretty serious side effects long term#and they said that they regularly go to conferences and meet with representatives from all these drug companies#and they ask 'wheres the data on trans men' 'when are you doing clinical studies on trans men'#and the answer#every single time is: we have not done any studies on trans men and we have no intention to ever do studies on trans men#this is not some passive result of trans masc invisibility it is an active act of erasure that needs to be recognized as an act of violence

[jewish-microwave-laser]

just so everybody knows, yeztugo has been tested and proven safe for cisgender men who have sex with men, transgender men and women, nonbinary people, and adolescent girls. it is a twice-yearly injection with a couple daily tablets at the beginning to get you to a therapeutic dose quicker (my insurance didnt cover it so we just continued my truvada for the first month after the injections). this can be a difficult medication to get one's hands on because many providers will only order the medication once it's been confirmed that the person will for sure be getting it, because it's a super expensive thing to let expire. check and see if there's a plan to cover the cost of your dose. i had like a huge medical bill charge for a month which i was told to ignore, and then it was completely taken care of with no negative effects on my finances

before switching to yeztugo i was on truvada, a once-daily tablet that's quite big but can be chopped. it's been approved for transmasc (et al) usage for a few years now and ik it's anecdotal but i had no complaints it was great

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studies have shown that overall, prep takes much longer to reach therapeutic levels in vaginal tissue than rectal tissue, and this is something that needs to be taken into consideration when deciding if one wants to risk exposure. this also means if taking something like a daily pill, you need to be on that shit, do whatever you can not to miss a dose

some useful papers on being ftm, transmasc, a trans man, and/or a person with a vagina on prep are the following:

if you click no other links on this post, click this one!!!!! https://www.transcarebc.ca/sites/default/files/2024-03/HIV_PrEP_Considerations.pdf

Close, but not quite: One in twenty trans & gender diverse individuals assigned female at birth are being prescribed the wrong

Concerns regarding potential drug−drug interactions (DDIs) between hormone therapy and pre‐exposure prophylaxis (PrEP) may hinder PrEP use a

doxy-pep has not been recommended by the cdc for trans men (et al), cisgender women, and others (unsure if this includes straight men or those in a wlw relationship where one has a penis and the other a vagina) because its efficacy has been understudied

i was not able to find transmasc (et al) specific information on pep for hiv-prevention