some angst idk yâall i like crying
â i donât want you here. just go. âÂ
â you âdidnât mean to hurt me?â yeah you did. like it or not, i know exactly who you are.  âÂ
â why wonât you even look at me? â
â iâm not angry at you. iâm angry with myself for trusting you. â
â i wish youâd stop trying to destroy yourself in some misguided effort to feel worthy. â
â i know itâs not fair to say this, but i donât have anything without you. if i donât have you i have nothing. â
â you canât love me. not the way i need to be loved. â
â iâm broken. and i donât need anyone to try to feed me white lies about it. something inside me is broken and it isnât just going to be put back like it was. âÂ
â sometimes being broken isnât about trying to put things back together like they were before. itâs about picking up what pieces are left and building something new. â
â okay, so youâre a monster. so am i. lets be monsters together. âÂ
â because of what they/you did iâm damaged. â Â
â what the hell is wrong with you? â
â what the hell is wrong with me? â
â i canât fix you. you canât expect me to know how to fix you. âÂ
â yeah, iâll be here. iâll be here when youâre ready to stop running. â
â  my world is just falling apart. itâs like everything is just crumbling around me. i donât know what to do. i just want it to stop â Â
â youâre the only thing that makes sense right now. everything else is justâ the world is so loud. and the only time it feels quiet is when youâre here. â
â i donât know how to talk about shit okay? itâs too hard. but i do care. i need you to trust me that i care. â
 â  stop punishing yourself. you wanna make up for what youâve done? get off your ass and do something about it. â
â whatever it is you think was going on between us, youâre wrong. â
â it didnât mean anything to me. âÂ
â you should move on. i did. â Â
â i feel like iâm one bad day away from becoming everything iâve fought against. âÂ
â stop pushing me away. iâm not going anywhere, asshole. and as soon as you get that through that thick skull of yours, the better. â Â
â i donât need you in my life. i donât want you in it.  â Â
â i canât trust myself. if i let myself get comfortable enough, when i try to be happy, people get hurt. â Â
â people like me donât get to have peace. â Â
â iâm not the person you want. i know you think i am. but it wonât take long for you to realize this is a mistake. â Â
â you want the truth? the truth is when i love people it burns inside me like a poison. it infects every part of me until it feels like theyâre in my goddamn soulâŠand then i fuck it up. and itâll destroy us both. â Â
â  iâll always choose you. thatâs the worst part of it all. iâd choose you over and over, even though i know you wouldnât do the same. â Â
â you never had to be perfect. you just had to stay. â
â will you please just stay for once. just. donât walk away. âÂ
â if i loved you less, i might be able to talk about it more. â Â
â just tell me something real. tell me something i can remember no matter what happens to us. â
â when you look at me, i feel seen. i feel like you see past everything iâve always surrounded myself with to try and protect my heart. no one has ever looked that deeply at me.  â Â
â how can you uncover so much about someone, make them let their guard down and lay themselves bare to you. and then just throw it all away? â
â if you walk out that door donât bother coming back. â
â why are you so afraid of trusting thisâ trusting us. whatâs making you hold back? â
â will you still be here? will you stay even after youâve seen all the ugly parts of my heart. â Â
â i donât care how willing you are to die for me. i want you to fucking live with me. live for us. âÂ
[ DISCOVER ] for one muse to find the other crying alone.Â
[ COMPANY ] for one muse to sit with the other so they donât have to be alone while theyâre upset.Â
[ EMBRACE ]Â for one muse to suddenly hug the other one for their own comfort.Â
[ OFFER ] for one muse to suddenly hug the other one to comfort them.
[ SETTLE ] for one muse to comfort the other and end up cuddling.Â
[ SHOULDER ] for one muse to rest their head on the otherâs shoulder while they comfort them.Â
[ CARRY ]Â for one muse to find the other injured and carry them to safety.
[ SECURE ] for one muse to carry the other to bed after they fell asleep.Â
[ STRUGGLE ]Â for one muse to resist being hugged but then break down and crumble against the other.Â
[ CLEAR ] for one muse to wipe the otherâs tears.Â
[ BREAKDOWN ] for one muse to ask the other if theyâre okay prompting them to finally stop bottling things up.Â
[ BRUSH ] for one muse to run their fingers through the otherâs hair while they open up or cry.Â
[ NURSE ] for one muse to tend to the other while theyâre recovering from injuries.Â
[ TRUST ] for a scenario where senderâs muse is the only one receivers muse will let close.Â
[ COAX ] for scenario where receiverâs muse knows theyâre the only one senderâs muse will let close.Â
[ CALM ] for one muse to subdue the other during an outburst.Â
[ CLARITY ] for one muse to help ground the other back in the present (i.e. after nightmare, breakdown, battle etc)
[ PREVENT ] for one muse to stop the other from going too far during a fight.Â