BE THE PERSON YOU WANT TO BE.

be the person you want to be.

[sabortooths]

“ yeah, i wouldn't. ” that's probably the main reason she hasn't bothered to draw the five of them yet— because trini doesn't want to draw herself, even in armor. “ zack would make himself taller and buffer than everyone else. especially jason. ” she sounds confident for someone who's only really known him for a few weeks, but she thinks she's right. trini only glares at her in response, but it's just for show, not out of genuine annoyance.

the question makes her uncomfortable, because she's spent most of her time trying not to think about what happened with rita at all. it's not just the attack that bothers her, but the complete invasion of privacy— her room was her only escape in this house, the only place where she felt like she could breathe, but rita tainted that, too, making her feel unsafe, watched. that, and some of the things she said to her still linger in her mind, no matter how hard she tries to tell herself rita was only trying to get in her head. “ she's the one who got bitch slapped into space, not me, ” she shrugs, avoiding the actual question, trying to maintain her usual stoic composure, like nothing could touch her.

kim's suggestion catches her off guard, panic briefly flickering across her face, but it only lasts for half a second before she gets a hold of herself, jaw clenching. they're friends, she reminds herself. that's what friends do. trini just has to ignore the fluttering feeling in her chest she gets whenever kimberly is around, to shove that all down— she can't like her, not like that. “ do people even have sleepovers past middle school? ” it's half invading the suggestion, half genuine, because trini wouldn't know— she's not used to having friends.

[ptrodactyl]

kimberly smiles in amusement,  because she knows trini’s right.   “good point,”  she agrees,  though kimberly likes his excitement— it makes it easier for her to accept all of this,  too,  seeing how much pride he has in it.  

her brows furrow for a moment,  because she can tell that trini is deflecting, no matter how cool and unbothered she seems—  but maybe that’s just because kimberly knows she would be shaken if it had happened to her.  “yeah, well, that couldn’t have happened without you,”  she reminds.   “i get it.  it’s cool.  you don’t have to talk about it,  but it’s just, like, you know you can— with me.  if you want.”  it doesn’t have to be now,  it’s just important to kimberly that trini hears it and keeps it in mind.  kimberly’s had many friends before, but nothing like this.  this feels genuine, and it’s not out of convenience,  like her other friends,  who she likely never would have kept in touch with after high school, anyway.  she cares about trini —  like she cares about all of them — but she’s still different.

she rolls her eyes,  but she starts to smile anyway.  “sleepovers are’t, like— just for kids.   so, yeah,”  she says with a scoff.  “and it’s not like that or whatever, anyway.  i’m just saying.  my house is big, and it’s— i don’t know,”  she mumbles, trying to avoid the word ‘lonely.’  “everything we’ve been through is just really overwhelming.  so i’m saying— we don’t have to be alone to deal with it.”

[sabortooths]

“ i'm sure she was also the school bitch a hundred years ago, ” she mumbles under her breath, far too quiet for her mother to possibly hear, but she's tense about it nonetheless, like she's going to get called out for the insult. trini dumps her bag onto her bed, glancing over at the wall as if she'd forgotten all about it. “ had to do something about the me-shaped hole in the wall rita left. ” she has to resist the urge to touch the scars left on her neck, scowling down at her bag instead, fishing her biology book out of it. “ my brothers helped. clearly. ” she nods toward the painting of the power rangers in the corner of the wall, a small smile starting to spread across her lips now that the annoyance of being around her mother is starting to finally fade. “ at least they seem to think i'm the same height as the rest of you. ”

[ptrodactyl]

kim's amused by the insult,  a smile instantly forming over her features as she lets out a small laugh.   "probably.   she totally gives off the same fake smile,"    she mutters,  matching trini's tone—    not because she thinks her mother might hear,  but clearly,  it's what trini's most comfortable with,  and she doesn't want to cause any other anxiety for her.   she frowns at the mention of rita,  something she's been dying to ask trini about,  though  she's still trying to figure out if that's actually something she wants to discuss.   she hesitates,  instead focusing back on the drawing,   her smile growing again.   "I didn't really think of you as someone who would hype yourself up that much, anyway,"   she teases,  face scrunching up for a moment as she pretends to think it over.  "but zack, maybe,"  she teases,   features softening after a moment.   "it's cute.  even if inaccurate,"   she adds,  glancing back to trini with a smile,  showing her she's only teasing.  

her tongue clicks against the roof of her mouth as she tries to brace herself to ask,  eyes glancing around the room momentarily again before she finally  goes on.   "hey, are you okay?  I mean—  like, with all of that,"   she says,  nodding back to the wall.  "we never really talked about it,"   she says,  as if it's something they've always done,  as if this friendship isn't still new to them.   "because if sleeping in here is ever,  I don't know,  hard—    you can always stay with me,"   she offers,  words spoken quickly,  not allowing herself room to chicken out.

[sabortooths]

“ sorry about her, ” trini breathes out the moment her mother's out of earshot, ignoring how warm her face feels, avoiding looking at @ptrodactyl as if that might help at all. “ she's not used to me having people over. ” already, she's dreading what june might say the moment kimberly's gone, if she'll approve of their friendship or if this is just going to be another disappointment in her eyes— either way, it won't change what trini thinks of kim, but she's not looking forward to hearing about it anyway. “ i didn't think she was going to be home. she was supposed to be at my brothers' soccer game. ”

[ptrodactyl]

she doesn’t know much about trini’s family,  but she knows enough to know that her mother wasn’t exactly mom-of-the-year.   she tried to be polite,  answer as many question as she could— but she’s just as relieved to be alone with trini now.   “it’s cool,”   she says, shrugging her shoulders.  “she does kind of give amanda clark a run for her money, though.”  an attempted joke,  corner of her lip hinting at a smile— but it fades seconds later,  because as much as she wants to be petty,  she knows that amanda’s not wrong for hating her in the first place.   she doesn’t want to dwell,  finding it obvious enough that she’s not trini’s favorite subject anyway,  so her eyes start to wander around her room as she tries to understand who trini really is—  but they land on the wall that looks to be freshly painted.  “what… a little home improvement?”

[taiturner]

POWER RANGERS — (2017) dir Dean Israelite

[naomigscott]

naomi scott for hypebae.

[ptrodactyl]

sabertiger‌

“ i’ve been fucking things up my entire life, according to my mom. ”  her grumbled response comes almost automatically, because she doesn’t know what else to say —  but she does realize, moments after she says it, that it’s not the right thing. trini clears her throat in a wordless attempt to tell kim to ignore that, her brows knitting together as she raises her gaze to kim’s.   “ is something wrong? ”

normally she would fight it, give trini all the reasons why she hasn’t and how she’s overcome it all, but she doesn’t have the strength this time.  when she asks, she keeps her head down, a small scoff falling from her lips as her body remains perfectly still.  “i don’t know----”  she mumbles,  bringing her hand to rest on her forehead.  “i feel like i’m not doing enough.  like---  like the rest of you just get it,  i don’t.”  she pauses before she quickly shakes her head. “never mind.  i know you’re just going to tell me it’s stupid.”    

[n-haught]

BATTLE GIRLFRIENDS 

[beatrashice]

[chrishemsworht]

female awesome meme: [12/20] females in movies→ kimberly hart ↳ “Every van is that kind of van.”

[equalistmako]

it’s not Character Development™ until there’s a drastic change in hairstyle

[ptrodactyl]

sabertiger‌

she exhales sharply, taking a moment to find the right words. trini’s never enjoyed talking about her mother, because she would much rather avoid thinking about her altogether, but, unfortunately, it’s necessary if she wants to stop closing herself off from the others.  “not really.”  she admits, only offering kimberly a glance before redirecting her attention to the ceiling. “it’s not you guys. it’s her.”  they’re not the problem; in some alternate universe where her mom isn’t completely horrible, she’d have no issue with introducing her friends to her. if it were only her dad meeting them, she wouldn’t be quite as worried—  nervous, maybe, but the thought wouldn’t fill her with apprehension.

“you don’t deserve to deal with it. even zack.” trini’s sure her mother would act like a good parent, because she likes putting on a show, acting like she’s the mother of some perfect family. but there’s always moments when june slips, when her comments become passive aggressive; she’s equally as sure it’ll happen around her friends.  “she’d just spend the whole night pissing me off.”

it’s disappointing, in some way, to hear that they’re not the problem. because if they were, then at least they could do something to try to fix it. but they don’t have any control over it if this is entirely about trini’s mom, and it only makes kim even more worried about trini. 

“how?” it’s gentle, and it’s not argumentative. she’s not going to try to comfort trini by saying ‘ maybe it won’t be so bad ‘ or any other generic form of encouragement, because she knows how she would feel if she were to bring her friends to meet her parents.  she would try not to get her hopes up, but the reality would be that her parents wouldn’t pick their heads up from their phones for long enough to even see what her friends look like  ---- and that’s if they were ever home long enough to meet them. “has she met your friends before?”

[ptrodactyl]

sabertiger‌:

she bites down on her bottom lip, eyes flickering toward the window, momentarily debating leaving. trini knows she won’t be getting any sleep if she joins kimberly in her bed, but—  is that really any different than the nights she spends alone? with a defeated sigh, trini moves to the side of kim’s bed, lifting the blanket and sliding in beside her. she’s laying at the very edge of the bed, making sure not to be too close, and she can only hope it doesn’t look intentional.  

trini doesn’t say anything right away, staring up at the ceiling, lips turned into a slight frown. finally, not because she actually wants to talk about it, but because she wants to get better at opening up to her friends, she speaks. “ my mom wants to meet you guys. ”  that’s what’s bothering her, though it feels stupid to admit. on the surface, it probably sounds like a good thing, but trini knows her mother better than that. june only wants to meet them to see what’s wrong with them, not because she actually cares about meeting the people trini spends all her time with these days. and more importantly, trini doesn’t want to put any of her friends through that—  it’s hard enough for her to deal with june most days, even with years of practice.  “ she’s starting to get—   i don’t know… demanding about it. ”

kimberly hasn’t really figured out her boundaries with her new group of friends yet.  she was just too excited to have friends that were actually GOOD that she didn’t really know how to slow herself down,  even from the first day she met them as she tried so hard to stick with trini.  sometimes she can feel herself doing too much  —-  like now,  yet she doesn’t know how to stop herself,  because it means so much to her that trini came here when she couldn’t sleep.  and all kim wants to do now is prove to her that this is the safest place for her. 

as trini starts to talk,  she props herself up on her side,  staring back at her.  “you don’t want her to?”  it’s not accusatory,  she just wants to understand it.  she wants trini to feel open enough to talk about it.  “is there….  something you’re worried about?”  because if there is,  kim wants to help.  

[naomiscottthecutest]

WHAT AN ANGEL! DAMN! 

[ptrodactyl]

sabortooths‌:

trini only shrugs, because she doesn’t know. there’s a decent chance that one of her parents went to check on her, only to find her bedroom empty; but there’s an equal chance that they didn’t care enough to bother. she doesn’t care either way. the idea of staying in kimberly’s bed causes her to tense and her lungs to seize, the thought of leaving briefly crossing her mind. it wouldn’t be the first time, because she’s stayed here before. it’s because of that that she knows how it’ll make her feel, lying so close to kim—   not the way you’re supposed to feel when you’re just friends, which makes her ache with guilt.  “ i could sleep on the floor. ”  but then panic begins to set in, because what if kimberly figures out why she doesn’t want to sleep beside her?  “ you hogged the blankets last time. ”

she doesn’t understand her hesitance  ——  partly because what she’s suggesting is just normal for her and her old friends,  and partly because she’s trying so hard to force trini into some kind of normalcy with her. trini is important to her;  she’s the kind of friend kim has always needed but never found until now.  she just wants this friendship to work,  wants trini to be able to rely on kim,  wants her to have a place here  ——  both because she cares about her,  and because it feels like if she can actually be a good friend,  maybe she will stop hating herself so much.  “you don’t have to.  i don’t mind---”  she insists, eyes rolling.  “all i’m hearing is that you were trying to take them from me.”

[ptrodactyl]

sabortooths‌:

“ is it weird i don’t miss my parents?  ”   she’s careful to exclude her brothers, because them, she does miss, even if it hasn’t been two weeks. there’s a part of her that feels guilty for including her father, because there’s a part of her that does miss him, but she’d missed him even when they were beneath the same roof. her mother, on the other hand, she could do without ever seeing again.   “  at all.  ”   /   @ptrodactyl​  

she’s still learning about trini,  still trying to understand all her fears and everything that seems to make her uncomfortable -----  but how she feels towards her parents,  her mother in particular,  was something she quickly caught onto.  so her words don’t come as a surprise to her,  her head shaking slowly.  “if that’s how you feel, it’s not weird,”  she promises.  “all of this .  .  .   it’s totally different.  and honestly,  i don’t miss mine either.”  in some sense,  anyway,  because they weren’t around enough before to make this feel any different.  now,  it just feels like she’s in control of whether or not she gets to miss them,  since she’s the one who left this time,  even if there isn’t a lot of logic in it.   “but do you feel  .  .  .   better?  without them here,  how do you feel now?”  if there’s still any sort of hesitation,  kim wants to work to make that better for her.  it’s her chance to do that;  trini no longer lives with the person who has always hurt her,  she lives with kim,  and kim just wants to provide a better home for her.  

[ptrodactyl]

sabortooths‌

“  not if you’re going to be annoying about it.  ”   that’s not true, but trini’s still trying to figure out a balance between being kim’s girlfriend and continuing to make fun of her, because that’s what’s normal for them.  “  we could make them shut up. we already kick their asses every week.  ”   unfortunately, threatening them isn’t always guaranteed to work, because it seems like sometimes, they care more about annoying the two of them than their own physical health. one of the downsides of healing quickly.  “  billy would believe us, anyway. so it’s three against two. we’ll be fine.  ”

“then i guess it’s not a date,” she shoots back with a teasing smile.  she’s glad it is,  and she’s been hoping for some time to spend with trini away from everyone else.  transitioning from friends to girlfriends is weird,  only because they’re so used to doing things as a group.  she wants to explore what it’s like to be with her beyond that.  “maybe we should just start with billy.  give him a good story,  one the others can’t ignore  -----  then by the time they hear it from us,  they’re already convinced we’ve got a good excuse.”

[ptrodactyl]

sabortooths‌

“  i’m already going, so you can stop kissing my ass, you know.  ”  realistically, trini knows that’s most likely not the only reason kimberly keeps complimenting her, but she’d prefer if she stopped anyway, hating the way her stomach flutters any time she does.  “  right. for the team.  ”  the main reason she’s putting herself through all this is for kimberly and only kimberly—  had any of the others asked, she would have at least considered saying no, even if she’d ultimately give in at the end of the day. that never even seemed like an option when it was kimberly hart asking.  of course, that’s the last thing she’d admit.

trini raises a brow, almost laughing.   “  you think—   you think this is me?  ”  it’s more her than any of the dresses they’d seen, for sure, but that doesn’t mean trini feels any less stupid wearing it. she’d point that out, but she’s afraid it would only prompt yet another compliment from kimberly’s end. she’d really rather not deal with that.  “  got nothing to worry about, then, because billy won’t bail. it’s billy.  ”  that, and she can’t see why anyone wouldn’t want to when it comes to kimberly. the only reason she adamantly refuses to is because she knows it’ll only cause her chest to ache for the rest of the night.  “  we’re not staying for the whole thing, right?  ”

“i almost forgot  ——-  i’m not allowed to be too nice,”  she mocks,  playful grin on her lips as she shakes her head.  “and, hey, do it once —— i never ask again.  that’s the deal.  and if i do,  well,  you can kick my ass on training day,  because you totally don’t already.”  she grins, because that’s hardly true  ——-  trini is her favorite person to train with because it’s always a challenge.  

she scoffs,  glaring back at her.  “okay,  no,  but it’s the most you there is at a place like this —— right?”  eyes stare back at her,  almost challenging,  staying silent for a long time before she finaly lets out a small laugh.  “no!  an hour,  maybe.  can you make it that long?”