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why love myself when i could fall harder for you instead? | tw ed

[puppyseokie]

Guess who’s back again with her shit? Haha, it’s me! Not sure I’ll be staying long enough to actually do some real damage, but I’m feeling a bit self distructive tonight.

On another note, where are all the people I’d see daily on my feed? I’ve seen 2 blogs, and that’s about it. I wanna see the same post reblogged from 10 different accounts.

[pawcakes]

other social media platforms are so glossy and fake .. like on tumblr the girls are suffering right out in the open

[puppyseokie]

Not me casually contemplating going back to restricting calories and working out on top of that so I can finally get rid of my muffin top

Like, why is starving the first thing to cross my mind when thinking about losing weight? Lmao

[boywithbpd]

i got 99 problems and about 95 of them would be solved if i was rich

[puppyseokie]

Do I go back to skipping meals so I lose more weight before she visits or do I just cut out sweets or do I not change my diet at all or do I “forget” to eat all day until it’s too late to eat or do I only eat a certain amount of calories a day or do I

[folk1or3-deactivated20210712]

being a woman is thinking ur the ugliest person ever and then coming across a photo of u as a kid when u had already started to hate ur appearance and realizing u were so cute and then u do this every so often for the rest of ur life and u never learn

[turntoturnover-deactivated20250]

i’ve spent a good 1/3rd of my life alone in my bedroom

[captain-lovelace-deactivated202]

[puppyseokie]

I might not grow taller, but at least I can become so skinny that I still achieve the lanky look. And once gyms open again and I have an income, I will work hard for beautiful lean muscles such as J*min’s or H*seok’s.

[puppyseokie]

I’ll have the flat for myself for a week, you know what that means

skipping meals without having to worry about my mum! :D

[puppyseokie]

Why is starving so hard all of a sudden? I was so good at it, and now I can't do it anymore?? Fucking bullshit

[puppyseokie]

If anything, her saying that petite bodies are her kink is pretty big motivation : ))) Gonna definitely try to get to 47kg now instead of stopping at ~53-55kg

[puppyseokie]

Watching Sowoozoo really is the best motivation to get fit, lmao

[puppyseokie]

Bitches will disappear for a week and overeat and not once weigh themselves

It's me, I'm bitches

[daitya27]

do not comment on what I’m eating

do not comment how much I’m eating

do not comment how little I’m eating

do not comment on how healthy it is

do not comment on how unhealthy it is

do

not

comment

on

what

I’m

eating

[whoreally-caresatall]

just DON’T !!

[tearsofphoenixes]

Leave me THE FUCK alone.

[puppyseokie]

I was so proud for not eating for over 24h every day but I got really nauseous at the store today, and had to go outside and drink a little. And then we got pretzels and some snacks. I think it's kinda sad that I already can't finish a pretzel :/ but yk. We then had ramen and it was kinda yum, kinda bland but with the skating on Tuesday, and walking 5,5km yesterday, I think I'm still pretty safe

[puppyseokie]

I'm surprised I've gotten away with not eating as much as I have so far. Social anxiety also helps bc I'm so afraid of seeing her mum in the kitchen even though I have to in the next 30min or so, or I'll get in trouble, oof

Like, I ate 4 small cheese croissants and had a hibiskus black tea with a little sugar on Monday, and yesterday only medium fries from McDonald's. The only thing bothering me is not drinking as much water as I did the past month or so, so I hope my body isn't thinking we're in trouble or anything. We also skated along a small river yesterday, so I'm pretty sure I burnt at least some calories

If it keeps going like this, I'll lose weight here as well instead of gaining it back like I had feared but I'd accept the weight gain if we did more couple-y things instead of hanging out like friends😭 I wanna hold her hand so badly but I fear it's gonna be completely random to just... grab and hold onto it?? How to date/romance your crush, I need help

[puppyseokie]

I only had a cheesecake-chocolate muffin yesterday. I'm surprisingly good at avoiding food, lmao

On the other hand, I don't know if that makes me very likable :)))