I’ll remind you
as you restlessly move in bed
feeling the clock tick away minutes off your sacred 6 hours of sleep
6 was 8′s compromise
compromises never work
I’ll remind you
when your tea grows bitter as you wait for it to cool down
to not burn a tongue
you barely even use
it never touched coherence
nor did it ever touch the inside of someone else’s mouth
I’ll remind you
when you stare into your reflection in the mirror
and when it makes you wish for different bones
when the lamp you study under starts heating up your neck
but the blood still flows in sluggish pulses
nothing vital, nothing intense
I’ll remind you when you hate how your nails don’t curve gracefully
and when you realize they’re shaped just like your dad’s
I’ll remind you at the times when you want to lose every connection
with every person you love
and at the times when you feel like making blankets out of their very skin
I’ll remind you
till your thoughts spin
and spin a little more
till you desperately try to catch them
and you fail
then you try to tame them softly
and they slip
right between your index and thumb
then you give up, you watch them silently
to find nothing but shadows
cast by the ridges of your skull
they don’t need a source of light
they don’t exist
a nothing can not spin
This is how I remind you of the vagueness of reality
and the blessing of a distraction you think you despise
and how empty it all is
emptier than the cups of coffee you hate and still gulp down
because they make you able to swallow more words at dawn
you think words are tangible, you think at least those are real
But I’ll be there to remind you
again and again
of how futile your attempts are
at making something
out of the dances of the void
















