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[pyxel-spree]

i’m sorry, the old taylor can’t come to the phone right now. why? oh, cuz she’s dead moved over to @illusion-studies . 

in case you’re wondering:

-i will not be closing this blog. there’s some good stuff on here, and like, nostalgia, yanno.

-don’t expect to get replies to asks or messages though. or any new content.

-i still follow everyone i followed on this blog. yes, follow vultures, you need not despair. 

-”but pyx, h-how could you close this blog? i thought you loved it??” i did. however, it was getting a little cluttered and i recently got into the studyblr community. i didn’t want to go through and delete all my cringey old posts. so, new year, new blog!

-the new blog: studyblr/studyspo, with a dash of aesthetic, sj, fandoms. it will be a little more personal than pyxel was. 

if you really really hate the studyblr community for some weird reason, no one’s making you follow me. but if you liked my content AT ALL on pyxel-spree, i’d appreciate it if you’d join me and follow illusion-studies. 

[dsu2014]

stop invalidating poc bc theyre not as in touch w their culture as some!!

some people of color dont have ~ethnic~ names. some poc have white last names. some poc are white passing. some poc have white parents or a white family. some poc never got an opportunity to learn the language that belongs to their culture or never had a desire to. some of us dont know all of our cultural dishes or traditions, some of us have never been to our home/family’s/ancestors’ country. some of us dont know who our ancestors are. some of us were forced to assimilate or were robbed of the opportunity to be engaged in a culture(s) we cant quite call our own.

moral of the story please keep that in mind when u automatically assume that all of x ethnicity will look x ethnicity or speak x language etc bc it really can make us assimilated people of color feel kinda shitty and even more disconnected imo so

[scaronhiatus]

I survived an abusive relationship. At this point I have talked to and worked with hundreds of people in abusive relationships.

Guess what? telling us to leave never works.

ever.

I could write a post about ways to help people leave.

I’ll probably do that one day.

but don’t be that person in the mean time.

[scaronhiatus]

This is real quick off the cuff but:

AN ABBREVIATED GUIDE TO ‘holy shit my friend is in an abusive relationshit what do I do’

1. Don’t start shit with the abuser. Your friend? Will pay for it.

I once had a friend slap my abuser.

I am not going to tell you the price I paid b/c I’ve already puked once today and I would like to not do it again.

I once threatened a friend’s abuser.

I almost lost that friend over it.

Don’t do the thing.

2.  Understand that the abuser is going to be isolating them.

They may be telling your friend how terrible you are. Any slight- no matter how small will be played up into a big thing. and even if the friend doesn’t hold it against you- it will probably effect how much they reach out to you.

Abusers like to tell their marks things like ‘Oh? A missed your call. Its because they hate you and think you complain too much’

The best way I can tell you to combat that- is just… don’t hold it against them. If they withdraw, don’t be that person like ‘well if you really cared about me you’d have fought for me’ 

The people who helped the most were those that I felt like.. I could go weeks without talking to and then they’d still listen if I got the courage to come back around. 

If you can- work with them to try and schedule things so that they can have support without their abuser getting suspicious. School projects, open places. shit like that.

3. Don’t argue with them that shit is abusive.

Don’t be that person. It will make them feel unsafe with you.

The friends who argued were friends I lost. They were the ones it was easiest for him to make go. Cause here’s the thing… people view isolating as an abuser saying ‘you can’t talk to them!’ and a lot of times its not that.. its an abuser sitting down and saying in a real quiet voice ‘you two argue a lot, and they aren’t respecting you. But I’ll always be here for you okay?’  

The most you can do is say “hey.. you know you deserve better than that right?” and if they argue go “I’m not going to argue with you. I don’t want to upset you. 

4. If they ask for resources, help them get them.

Don’t offer them unless asked or it will turn into a fight and see above.

5. If they say they’re out of options- help them brain storm ones.

here’s an easy opening to ask if it’s okay to help them find resources.

don’t shove.

6. Be nice to them. consistently.

Too many people were too busy trying to convince me that he was a bad guy- that spending time with them just hurt…

and at least when I was with him it only hurt some of the time.

I got out because I had 4-5 good friends who I had good times with and I finally…. there was the light of ‘oh god this is what healthy relationships feel like. ‘

7. Don’t shove. Don’t pressure.

You can say “I’ll be here for you when you’re ready to leave”

You can remind them of this occasionally.

But don’t be a coercive dick.

Don’t be gross.

Don’t hurt people being abused.

That should not be that hard of a lesson.

Don’t say victim blaming shit to convince them to leave.,

Don’t threaten to leave them if they don’t leave.

Don’t be gross.

[bloomflowersbloom]

[pyxel-spree]

ap psych notes and cool 🍊 orange 🍊vibes supplies used: staedtler triplus fineliner in orange, mildliner in peach, and 0.5 mm muji in black + this really cheap carolinapad notebook i got forever ago 🎧 this is not an apology // bea miller

[batmanrogues-deactivated2020021]

honestly putting aside all the DC discourse about movies (because it literally leads nowhere, everybody has an opinion and everybody thinks they’re right, it’s exhausting) DC seriously has been doing the most for diversity lately and i think that reflects the universe they’ve built over the years, and fans are lapping it up

everyone claims DC is playing catch up to Marvel when it comes to diversity which no!!! okay. just because Marvel decided to introduce a handful of diverse characters that have ascended the comics doesn’t mean that DC is behind the curb. in fact, both sides are guilty of fucking up greatly both past and present when it comes to diversity and representation but i’m not going to go into that. what i really need you to know is, you all need to start supporting DC if you want to see a diversification of comic book media. you’ve been screaming for diverse superheroes/anti-heroes/super-villains, ect. from the beginning but the second it’s DC giving this to you, you sleep on it. 

so let me just repeat: 

Suicide Squad has six characters of color, four leading women - two of whom are women of color - in a Hollywood movie!!! which is pretty unheard of tbh!!!! of these characters/actors, there are two black men, a Latinx man, a Japanese woman and a Native-American man. so yeah, this is a big deal, because this kind of diversity is almost never seen on screen. behind the screen, Cara Delevingne cast as Enchantress is openly bisexual. this doesn’t erase the ableist elements the movie may have. i have struggled with schizophrenia my entire life, so i am aware of the importance of having to criticize the movie for ableism. the thing is, if this movie fails it isn’t going to be blamed on the ableism. it’s going to be blamed on the PoC and women of this movie, which means going back to all-white, all-male superheroes and villains, with one or two token minorities thrown in for good measure. plus the fact, ableism is already rampant in Hollywood anyway. the MCU has been ableist against their interpretation of Wanda Maximoff. condemning a single movie for ableism isn’t going to fix the problem in Hollywood, especially not condemning a movie that so many PoC and female fans are riding on.

Wonder Woman will be the first female-led movie from DC and the first major female superhero movie since Tank-Girl (correct me if i’m wrong, i’m sure there have been others, but they haven’t had the same impact.) obviously the major thing here is, a female-led superhero movie. and yet i have seen very little excitement surrounding this movie from those outside the dc fandom? despite the outcry for a black widow and captain marvel movie? in fairness, we don’t know much about wonder woman yet, but taking a glance at the IMDB page shows female actresses playing named roles in this movie, including Florence Kasumba, a black woman from Captain America: Civil War, playing Senator Acantha, Mayling Ng playing Orana as well as Morrocan man Said Taghmaoui playing a major role, presumably as a WW1 soldier aligned with Steve Trevor. 

Justice League sees two actresses playing major female characters, Wonder Woman and Mera both of whom are hugely important to the DC comics mythos. it also sees Aquaman, played by a pacific islander compared to his white counterpart in the comics. a black man is playing Cyborg, who is one of the kindest, most optimistic heroes in comics. someone kids can really look up to, and he’s not mayo-man for once!!! also, you have an openly queer actor playing the Flash. Lois Lane, another strong female character, is expected to have a large-to-significant role in the JL movie. if we compare this to the first Avengers movie where the main superheroes (excluding Nick Fury) were all white and almost all male, we begin to see the glaring changes DC is making to create something fresh, unique and most importantly, diverse.

While in pre-production, Dwayne Johnson has been cast as Black Adam in the Shazam movie, an immensely powerful super-villain in comics universe. 

Speculation:

We can also speculate on what we might expect in future DC movies. you have The Batman movie coming up, which could introduce heroes like Cassandra Cain (the best martial artist in the DCU) who is an asian woman, Dick Grayson who is Romani, Damian Wayne who is of Arab descent. alternatively, even batman’s rogues gallery - while being problematic if they are the only on-screen diversity in the movie - give us queer characters such as Poison Ivy, Harley Quinn and Catwoman. there is also Ra’s al Ghul, who is Arab or of Arab descent and Bane who is Latinx. aquaman may see villain Black Manta, who is a black man (Atlantean?) and aquaman’s villainous brother Ocean Master is expected to be PoC, in line with the race-switch of Arthur Curry. The Green Lantern Corps could take a slew of diverse characters, as the green lanterns in the comics have had a black man, Latinx woman, Muslim man, a man of Mexican descent and a gay man in their corps. The Flash movie could see (the nu52) Wally West, the flash’s nephew, who is black in the comics or a female speedster such as Jesse Quick. also, DC have proven very open to switching characters up for their movies and multimedia, which means more possible race-switches in the future!!

this shows a wealth of representation already, even with the speculation aside!!! please support DC movies!!!!! even if you go see one movie, it could make a drastic change to how superhero media begins to change for the better. 

[morethanthatfic]

regarding the Athlead storyline and people calling Pam “selfish”

So imagine you are married and have two very young children. You own a house (that you got a great deal on), you have family nearby (built-in babysitting!), and you both have steady if boring jobs. A job opportunity comes up for you partner. It’s a start-up (i.e. not a sure thing) and it’s two hours away. You discuss it and come to decision that it’s not the right timing for the family. Your partner on a whim decides to take the job anyway.

You don’t love it but you go along with it. You even agree to investing a good chunk of money into the start-up. Then, again on a whim, your partner invests twice as much as you discussed, most of your savings in fact.

You’re really not happy about this but now you’re in it so you’re still going along with it. And your partner is going to telecommute so maybe it’ll work out. But telecommuting turns into them being gone half the week. It’s definitely a challenge but you’re trying your best so your partner has a good chance. (Even if they are baching it up while you’re alone with your two young kids)

You visit the start-up, it’s much bigger than your partner led you to believe and everyone around you is talking about how they can’t wait until you move closer. This is news to you and something that your partner hasn’t really talked about with you.

Your daughter has their first recital and your partner misses it because of this job, you mess up the video and this leads to a big fight that obviously has nothing to do with the video, it’s about this lack of communication that is dogging your relationship. And you’re upset because you never wanted this, you’re feeling left out of all the decision-making for your family, you’re feeling inadequate that this is harder than you ever thought it was going to be. And now this job that your partner took without consulting you, that was suppose to be a small investment of time and money, wants you to move from your family & friends and community you know, wants you to sell your house for something sure to be far more expensive, wants to send your partner on the road for three months.

But you’re the selfish one for wanting some say in yours and your family’s future.

[morethanthatfic]

Addressing a couple things in the “reply” section:

“But Jim was totally supportive of Pam going to Pratt!” Apples and oranges, they didn’t have kids yet, they weren’t married, if we go by Pam’s comment in Chair Model, they didn’t even live together at that point. Additionally Pratt from the start was a set, temporary thing. And the second it looked like it was going to be longer than the 3 months it was suppose to be, what did Pam do? Did she go ahead enroll for another session, or decide right then she was dropping out? No, she called Jim and asked for his input and how he felt about it.

“Pam struggled with communication and making her feelings clear in all her relationships” Yes, she absolutely did, and the lack of communication in S9 was definitely on both sides. I’ve seen many fans criticize the Athlead storyline for being manufactured drama between Jim and Pam but I feel it was pretty consistence with their characters (Pam’s always struggled with her self-confidence and has a tough time voice her feelings, Jim’s always been impulsive and isn’t all that great at voicing his feelings either) a problem like Athlead which at it’s root was about a lack of communication was bound to happen to them.

[justablueumbrella]

A writer for the new york times interviewed a series of people who had survived jumping off the golden gate bridge. Every person she interviewed admitted that about two thirds of the way down, they realized that every seemingly meaningless problem that caused them to jump was fixable.

Every single one.

THIS IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT

[opidiod]

READ THIS

[sarcasick]

REBLOG THIS AND NEVER EVER FORGET IT

[inkskinned]

ive been on tumblr a long time and i remember when everyone said “oh don’t romanticize mental illness” and it was agreed that doing that was gross and a good way to kill people indirectly

but somehow we’ve come full circle and there are people who legit defend their right to be anti-recovery there are people who don’t want to get better and spread the idea that you can’t get better as if it’s gospel and it’s fucking frightening to me bc nobody seems to want to say “hey? this is toxic and untrue and is your disease speaking, and it’s not something you should accept.”

and i feel like every recovery post gets about 500 of these people saying “this isn’t something that will work” “cool karen i’m depressed” “maybe it worked for you but it won’t work for other people” and that’s… just… im so sorry if you’re 15. i’m sorry if you’re in high school and watching grown adults tell you it doesn’t get better. that nobody says that with time and help and patience the world stops being so heavy, that accepting your illness as a fact is one thing but accepting it as the only way to be is just wrong, that you can learn to live with it and still find some degree of “happy”…. if i had seen this shit back when i was … oh god starting at 12 when i was already self-harming …. i think i’d have actually honest-to-god killed myself. not a joke, not a funny tumblr punchline, i would have actually just killed myself. 

i’m saying this right here and right now to the adults on this site. if you for any reason shoot down positivity that’s causing no harm - you might have indirectly worsened someone else’s condition, and you should try and do better in the future. if you find it necessary to tell people “recovery is a lie”, you need to do better. i know everyone has different circumstances, but i also know that mental illness behaves in such a way that everyone thinks they can’t recover.  if you feel like you should be spreading the Word Of Relapse, you are causing toxic language to be normalized and you need to do better. 

im team “cool karen ive got depression and that means i’m going to try this because i’ve got to try something” i’m team “romanticize recovery” i’m team “it isn’t working now but it might in the future and it’s worth staying to find out” im team “hey this didn’t work for me but it might help somebody else out”

fuck guys it shouldn’t be an unpopular opinion to say “i don’t want any of you to die”.

[pyxel-spree]

the amount of excuses the people on this website will make for racist and/or abusive characters played by hot white male actors is...terrifying.

[cyberscully]

as a procrastinating overachiever i feel like i don’t necessarily “half-ass” things, it’s more like a “3/4 ass”. like overall did i do pretty well? yeah. did i reach my maximum potential though? i think the fuck Not.

[a-trex]

reblog this and i’ll ask you the first question that comes to mind when i go to your blog :D

[a-trex]

still doing this, and have done it for everyone so far!

[a-trex]

it’s November 2017, I originally made this in May 2013. I sent over 15,000 asks with this post. Many blogs were deactivated, didn’t have asks enabled, didn’t understand an ask limit exists, were confused when I finally got to them months later, or would reply upset at me.

REGARDLESS, I have decided to continue on with this. I don’t know if it’s a good decision but… I’ll give it a shot. So go for it. I’ll send some more asks.

[konguloarkonan-deactivated20171]

here’s a thing that i don’t think american kids are told often enough:

STAY AWAY FROM FOR-PROFIT COLLEGES.

ITT tech, virginia colleges, bryant and stratton, the art institutes, university of phoenix, everest, devry, etc - do NOT attend these places. do not give them your money - and it will be a lot of money. They are all, to a one, scams.

For-profit colleges prey on minority, low-income, military, nontraditional, and chronically underemployed students by promising them a quick path to a career. They are lying. They often do not allow the transfer of credits to and from, and many are either unaccredited or accredited by suspect accreditors. They rely on their students to take out massive federal student loan debt. They line their pockets with money from the government and then burden their graduates with tens of thousands of dollars of debt for inadequate education and degrees that aren’t worth the paper they’re printed on.

If you’re a non-traditional student looking for a degree, don’t go to a for-profit. Find a community college in your area instead. most ccs have more flexible class times for especially vocational/technical certifications and quite a few offer online-only or hybrid degrees. Hell, if you’re a non-trad student and you have a GED and some spare cash, try studying for a few months and then taking the SATs/ACT and trying for a four-year straight out (that’s what I did). Or get an AA and then do a four-year. Or look for a technical/adult education program sponsored by a local community college or school district. Just please, please, please, don’t go to a for-profit college. They will ruin your credit rating, your finances, and your job prospects.

[beesmygod]

this post was probably inspired by it but itt tech is almost certainly going into bankruptcy and closing probably asap which heralds the death knell of other for-profit colleges  since the us government is finally cutting off their financial assistance for students

[lechugaaaaadeldiablitoooo]

I never trusted those places

[rnahal]

i work as an advisor for transfer students on my campus and y’all don’t know how many students try to transfer into a public school after YEARS in a for profit school only to find out almost none of their credits transfer over and they have to start all over again

[the-girlygeek]

I had a few requests this week for some new marble and rose gold wallpapers, and I got way too carried away with them and ended up making about fifteen or so. I’m about to hit 20k (wtf?!!?) here on tumblr and I thought I’d do a little bit of a wallpaper ‘dump’ for you guys as a token of appreciation. I’m so, so, so pleased with how these turned out and I’m incredibly proud of them so I hope you like them! Enjoy!!! ✨ 

Download: 

All the Water in the Sea //  Stronger Than You Think // Do Good Work // Shattered Marble // Stripes // Lacey // Work for it // Marble Slide

Or view the entire folder here.

Disclaimer: These wallpapers are for personal use only. Please do not share, alter or redistribute them without giving proper credit. The fonts used are not included in these downloads and I do not take any credit for them.

If you end up using them I’d love to see a picture! Feel free to share a picture on tumblr with my @, or #thegirlygeek, or on instagram (@the_girlygeek), I’d love to see them! 💗

Hours of work goes into making these wallpapers, so if you’d like to support me in my studies and keep these downloads free you can do so by buying me a coffee here. 

[studytherin]

ʚ 20th oct 2017 ɞ

last week’s spread is here!! (i know i’m late, sorry ;^;) i’ve just started working on my calculus since the second semester is about to start within 2 weeks. and guess what, i’m not ready for it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

studygram

[pyxel-spree]

i may be an insecure needy ass bitch

but at least i’m confident in my appearance. hot damn, future me. hot damn.

[popsonnet]