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John Waters and David Lynch at Bob’s Big Boy, Los Angeles, CA, 1979 💔

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Fremont St, 1975. Photo by Ernst Haas

I'm back just to lament. rant. whatever it is.

i wish i was brave enough to confess this love I've been harboring inside me.

it's just hard for me to believe that a n y o n e would care that i feel this way for them. i feel so pathetic.

i NEED people to tell me, to spell out, what they feel for me. it's so hard to decipher and believe that anyone would want anything to do with me romantically.

please tell me you love me. or that you don't. so i can move on and struggle to feel loved somewhere else.

#this limbo of love is starting to become unbearable #i really thought i could keep it at bay for forever #but i unfortunately can't move on unless i know that you do or don't love me #wellp #there we go

been a while...

#had an incredible outing tonight and just needed to pick apart and intellectualize the experience as i do #went to dinner and a movie with a guy friend #love this guy and i don't really want anything more BUT it really got me to thinking why i cut myself off romantically with men #i firmly believe that i could be perfect for a dude emotionally and intellectually and romantically #like i could demonstrate as much (and he for me) on a date but it will always come down to how i look #again i dont like this guy friend romantically BUT if i were skinny this whole outing would be our rom com moment #maybe im full of myself #but i would just like to see this all play out exactly the same but with a skinny version of myself #and tell me my hand wouldn't have been held in that theater #that i wouldn't have been kissed at my doorstep #idk it's weird to use this specific as a case study bc he's a great guy friend #it does make me wonder if i close myself off from him romantically BECAUSE i know he would never be attracted to me physically #idk #i think every friendly relationship with a man comes into question when you look like me (fat)#i am either a cow or a sex object #they're either repulsed or horny #maybe I'm generalizing #idk i simply don't feel this way with women though in sure they can exhibit the same feelings #i hate to be so binary about this but this is just my experience #I'm simply not built to be the object of genuine romantic affection #idk man #this outing just made me realize how comfortable i long to feel with a romantic partner #and instead of driving away at the end they follow me inside

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dykeofmisfortune

love older movies where the main character has a boy best friend and a female love interest and they’re all polyamorous

quicksilver-daydreams

hey y'all, I'm currently transitioning out of my position at work and that's put me in a bit of a bind financially. If you're in a position to lend a few bucks, I would greatly appreciate the assistance. Anything helps 🙏🏼

venmo: marithemusical

cashapp: $marithemusical

quicksilver-daydreams

hi! bringing this around again bc I'm still struggling. Anything helps!

#i feel so embarrassed doing this but i have no one to turn to for this #and again only if you can i thankfully have a roof over my head and food that is secure

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embraceofday

bro,,, to be seen as poetry???? to have someone look at you and see art?????? bro.

#i can only dream #like i crave this so bad y'all don't even know #i wish i was a moment's muse to someone

eulesposting

Sometimes the small pleasures hit different. A clean house, a hot drink, making something from scratch, sitting on the porch with a loved one. Little soul-feeding activities.

I'm just kind of in a constant state of heartbreak these days

i miss the friends i just let slip away bc of how sad I've been and now im so alone

I'm in the process of turning a new leaf but i need to mourn all the what-if's right now

#i want more friends #more people i can support and they can support me #i wanna love and be loved #hopefully i can start letting more light in

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hustlerose

"men always lie" yeah, lie on their back and hold their legs up and moan

slavicafire

in this new year I want you to be alright. I hope you move out. I hope you have enough money to feel safe. I hope you abandon shame and forgive yourself. I hope you get enough sleep and some good news. I hope you laugh a lot and the heaviness of the world eases a bit. I wish you to be alright.

#thank you

girl-debord

onion and garlic are a handsome older couple and ginger is their sexy little 3rd.

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