Well since weāre being open here.
The very first girl Iāve ever fell in love with had depression. She had horrible experiences with men. Letās just leave it at that. At the time I was very naive to what depression was.
We were the best thing to ever happen to each other in the beginning. We talked on the phone all day. Fell asleep on the phone every night. Weād always uplift each other and tell how much we loved each other. Everything was great.
A few months into the relationship, things changed. She became very sad and angery. I tried my very best to help, but nothing worked. She started to lash out on me, belittle me, call me names. She even told me she hated me. Whenever Iād try to defend myself, sheād flip the script and made me look like I was in the wrong. From that point the relationship got very emotionally abusive later on down the line. I literally cried my eyes out every night. The abuse hurt, but what hurt me even more was that I couldnāt save the girl I was in love with from her suffering.
Eventually I worked up the courage to leave her, which was probably one of the hardest decisions of my life. A few days past after us breaking. I never heard from her until 4 to 5 days later. She begged me to get back with her, told me she needed me. Despite how toxic the relationship was already, I ended up getting back with her out of guilt and I didnāt want her to hurt herself. Of course it didnāt last. The relationship felt so forced at this point. Eventually she left me, claiming she didnāt love me anymore, even tho afterwards she still didnāt want me to find someone else.
Her quote: āI donāt want you to love any girl like you loved meā
So here I am, in present day. 2 in a half years later actually telling this story to the public for the first time lol. Iāve grown alot since then. I donāt have any regrets. I did what I could. We donāt talk anymore, but I hope shes doing good and found her happiness.
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