Nessa ^. .^

Blog dedicated to everything I love!

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Swallows

I envy the swallows they are free to wander.

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Dizzy

I love the feeling of being dizzy it’s like my soul transcends out of my body and for a moment I’m out of the world I’m free - No responsibilities. 

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Rainy day thought

I'm always looking down when it rains... I don't want to step on any snail...🐌

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Thought 7

Today I had this idea while I was on the bus, that what if I clicked the stop button and everything would stop, everything around me just paused, everyone stopped moving and I could just breathe and take a break from reality.

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Thought 6

All my life I've been trying to be silent. Do not make a noise, don't express your opinion, don't call attention to yourself. Be invisible. I would ask myself, why is it that I'm so afraid of showing who I am? Of letting someone in. Maybe because I don't know who I am? or I don't like parts of myself so why would other people like it? It's a long journey, the self-love one. To find who I am, to appreciate who I am, to accept and love me. I found that I can only let myself love someone once I learn to love myself.

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Thought 5

Is it bad that I don’t feel compassion towards my grandad’s disease?

My grandad was diagnosed with cancer, he is doing treatment but it’s just a way to ease the pain, he might only have a few months to live.

He never was a good person, all his life he put daughter against brother cousin against cousin, never was satisfied, and was always mean to everybody. I think he liked to see how much chaos and destruction he could cause while all the while he was watching all unfold.

So I feel guilty that I can’t feel sadness or compassion towards his situation, but maybe it’s also a coping mechanism.

Does it make me a bad person?

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Thoughts 4

I learned today that is a part of our biology, a thing that makes us part animal, our animal instinct, to when confronted with a danger to have 3 types of action, either:

1 - you attack back if you think your attacker is weaker than you;

2 - you run away from the danger;

3 - you freeze and pretend you are dead;

I’m ashamed to say that I am the 3rd kind of “animal” in a lot of situations.

All those years of human evolution for our own body to betray us and still think that those are the only options we have!

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Why are you so afraid that you hide from everyone? #illustration #illustrateyourworld #illustragram #illustrationoftheday #drawing #instadraw #drawingoftheday #instadrawing #handdrawn #drawsomething #illustratorsoninstagram #watercolor #redhair #afraid #scared #curlyhair #hair #pencil

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"Now I understand why I always think about what the other person thinks, why I judge my actions and words before speaking them, too afraid that they will hurt someone.

It’s because I don’t want them to go through what I went through.

Because words are heavy, words hurt, words are like roses they can be utterly beautiful but they also can have spikes that sting you and make you bleed."

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Thoughts 3

"I have the desire to go forward because you can’t go back. Why do I feel that sometimes my feet are stuck and it’s hard to move ahead, it feels like I am pulling a hard heavy rock. Like those old photos of prisoners who had to have a ball and chain so they couldn’t escape.

I’m a prisoner of my own mind, my fear is not letting me move forward."

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Thoughts 2

"I love being on a train, but I don’t like to have a destination. A train to nowhere, just entering, watching the picturesque views from the window seat, seeing myself going further and further away from the place that gives me anxiety. I realize now that it was my desire to escape, to run from my problems because it’s easier to run than to confront them."

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Thoughts 1

"I looked at the window and I saw myself falling and falling, I knew that the end meant death, but I wasn’t picturing myself dying, I just wanted freedom.

Being free of my thoughts of the pressures of life."

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A collection of drawings... 🎨📌❤️#drawingoftheday #drawings #instadraw #ilustracao #ilustração #illustagram #illustration #illustrationart #illustrateyourworld #draw #illustrationoftheday #color #colorful #collage #pencil #watercolor #crayon #board #artboards #artboard

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My other baby Chiara ❤️😍❤️#dogsofinstagram #dog #petsofinstagram #pet #cute #cutepets #cutedog #cuteness #winter #lovepuppies #lovepet #lovedogs

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My baby Mari super comfortable in the winter. 😍💕 #dogsofinstagram #dog #petsofinstagram #pet #cute #cutepets #cutedog #cuteness #winter #lovepuppies #lovepet #lovedogs

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Sleeping beauty ballet performance!❤️❤️❤️#ballet #oldtheater #theater #chandelier #lights #balletperformance #sleepingbeauty

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A collection of drawings... 🎨📌❤️#drawingoftheday #drawings #instadraw #ilustracao #ilustração #illustagram #illustration #illustrationart #illustrateyourworld #draw #illustrationoftheday #color #colorful #collage #pencil #watercolor #crayon #board #artboards #artboard