"oh my g— okay, wait, go back. we’re not an item. definitely not an item, that’s been very heavily implied by th— actually, go back further. you slept with katy perry? i knew i could smell cherry chapstick.” the realization that he’d outed his midnight texter notwithstanding, it occurs to him that magnus might just be the only one who’d genuinely claim no judgment here. it makes him feel marginally better about the verbal nip slip. still not so certain about the situation overall.
and yet, he’s texting back again. the phone’s tossed next to him on the couch. then he sinks down further, pushing his hands through his hair until it sticks up and out in ridiculous directions, a momentarily glazed look on his face.
“i think he just invited himself over. i’m — i’m not gonna — i’m not gonna run you out of your own home, that would make me like the worst houseguest ever. my bubbie helen would be ashamed. you know he was the first person to say ‘happy birthday’? jace, that is. not my grandmother. he even said it before clary did, and she’s my best friend. i feel like i’m in a twilight zone episode, man. i feel like rod serling is narrating my life.” he puts on a booming, dramatic impersonation. “‘it is man’s prerogative to create their own particular and private hell.’ so why am i not even mad about it?”
it’s a lot. a lot of pent up thoughts and what if’s and things simon won’t bring up because what does it mean if he does. it all reeks of teenage crushes and recklessly running right in to open and impending doom, but magnus listens. genuinely. leg still crossed, the one atop moves up and down as his taps his knee.
“et was written about me, too, which i took offense to. have you seen that little alien? we’re not in the same league. anyway, you’re not mad about any of this, lewis, because you like it. you like him,” simon rests back, both arms at the chair’s armrests. lounging, lazy, almost feline. “whatever you have going on with him is new and exciting and when was the last time something in your mundane life actually held any genuine excitement? it’s heightened now, yes. a new, deeper kind of feeling you’re likely unable to navigate fully, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t quite real. perhaps even reciprocated.”
a grin, then: “he reminds me of a young hercules. you know the myth, i assume. only, it isn’t myth. outwardly more brawns than brain, but maybe you’re just his megara,” a beat. “lets hope he isn’t like zeus. regardless, this is all to say, if it feels right, plunge in and see what happens. life is short... objectively, of course. you and i don’t have the issue anymore. the moments in life are fleeting, i’d suggest catching as many as you can.”