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Hi my name is Sarah el I like to write my thoughts so my head doesn’t get to crammed. Love/Life quotes, poems and more. If you relate.

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“I promise when you meet your new girl, you will look for me in her. You will search for traits of me. Whenever she plugs her phone into your aux cord and its not my music or when she doesn’t call you at night to see if your okay. She won’t grab your shirt the same way when you kiss, and maybe you won’t catch her staring at you when you drive. You’ll wonder why she doesn’t sigh like me when she’s stressed or text you at 4 in the morning when she’s having a nightmare. And when you mess up again, like you always do. I know that will hit you the hardest that she’s not me, because maybe she won’t try to stick around. Maybe she won’t try to understand you. Maybe she will be able to hate you like I couldn’t. No matter what she is, she’s not going to be me.”

— Sarah el

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“I still wanted the goodnight texts, I still wanted the surprise dates and the flowers and the simple thoughtful gifts. I still wanted the confessions of feelings and the nervous glances. I still wanted to feel like someone that is loved.. by someone who was supposed to love me.”

Sarah el

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“Once you got me you forgot about trying to keep me”

Sarah el

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“Truth is I am so tired. I’m tired of loving you enough for the both of us. I’m tired of making all the efforts and all the plans. Im tired of feeling like I’m trying to dig for your true feelings and sincere thoughts. I loved you, but exhausted me.”

Sarah el

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“I wanted you to really fight for me. I wanted you come to my door telling me that you love me after I ran away, truth is I wanted you to never let me run away in the first place.”

Sarah el

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I think I am falling in love with him.

Sarah el

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When I asked him why he could never look straight at me for longer than a few seconds he said “it’s hard staring into the sun” I didn’t know what he meant then. But I realized now that for me looking at him was like looking into the moon. It was easier only because it was a releflection of what I really wanted. (When I knew I didn’t love him back) -Sarah el

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You think you just need to find a good one and you’re set. That will be it. Once you find a decently good human you’ll be soulmates. The one that treats you right and then it’s game over.

Yet sometimes, as unfair as it is. You meet the one with all the gold stars... and chemistry or that click or that little something that no one knows really what to call... just still isn’t there. So yeah there’s frustration in loving someone who isn’t good for you. But there’s equal frustration when you don’t love someone who is.

Sarah el

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“There are strangers on the streets I walk. Strangers in my house. Strangers in my phone.

But the worst of all these is the strangers in my head.”

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“There are these moments in life where rather than hitting a bump in the road, it’s more like a black ice skid. Because you aren’t just working through difficulties trudging the same course. But rather everything changes, you are flipped to a new view. It’s really hard to figure out who I suppose to be on this new road, I barely knew who I was on the other.”

Sarah el

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“You helped me to see that not only should I love myself around you, but I should believe so deeply that I could be more and better. So thank you, thank you for not only letting me be myself but helping me be my best self.”

Sarah el

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Birds are free but they still have to build nests

Sarah el

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I've realized that sometimes people don't feel the way you always thought they did. Sometimes you think you mean more than you actually do, and even sometimes you think you mean nothing when in fact you mean everything. But there's really no way of knowing. And when reality shows its face, it can feel so harsh. When you see the truth, and it's not what you expected. When the truth it fact, Almost changes everything you know. And then I wonder, how can I be upset? When the only one who sold myself a lie.. Was me?

Sarah el

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No one gives you a countdown to emotional endings. And even if you have the inclination that the storm is coming, you never can understand how it will feel until it does. And then when it does come, you wish you could do anything but feel. And stop thinking. Thinking over details that don’t matter anymore. Thinking what you could have changed, trying to figure out the moment it all changed. But it all seems now like it was there one minute. And then it's gone.

Sarah el

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You know that moment when you look at someone, and you kind of just know.. Without them saying a word, that they see you differently than they had before? It's like something lights up in flames, and you can't really do anything about it, you just watch. You feel helpless, because you know their mind is made up. You know that any effort to get them to see you the way you once thought they did, would be making the situation worse, maybe even pushing them away more. And you look one last time. At someone who used to look at you with excitement. And you wonder, and you beat yourself up for not realizing how amazing it was to have them look at you in such a way that you see only how unique it was once it's gone. And you try to live in the moment again. But you can't. Cause reality is staring you in the face, but reality looks different this time.

Sarah el

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Everything can change so quickly, it's terrifying. It's one of the scariest things in the world. You try to appreciate what you have in the moment. But yet you can't stop thinking about how tomorrow it could all disappear. So you end up not appreciating much of anything at all, and it doesn't become the fear that it will end that consumes you, but just waiting for it.

Sarah el

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I just want to hear the words "I love you" I want to say it back. But everyone says that word is to big to say to just anyone. But I think people feel it more often than they say. Than they'd like to admit. And what really would happen if we said it more often.. Would the world crash and burn? No. What's the fear then? Rejection if they don't say it back? Or regret when we do say it and it doesn't work out? But what does that matter anyway. That's all just boiling down to fear of the unknown.

Sarah el