"When will you stop fangirling?"
I had this serious talk with my mom(and thats amazing coz i never knew i could handle serious shits) and she asked me a question that left me dumbfounded.. she said “When will you stop fangirling? You’re already old enough. Its time to go out and live a life.”
so yes my Birthday would be in three days.. happy bday to me i guess?? the feck i feel old!! but yeah at first i was like “yeah mom i already have a wonderful life i have a good job, lots of friends(in the internet), i can do what i want(in the internet), im having a great time(watching dramas on internet)” but then i dont know maybe just hormones/PMS/faulty brain cells/ defective egg cell that triggered me to ponder on what my mom told me.. i knew my mom never stopped supporting and understanding my fangirling since the beginning coz she bought all my albums and tickets to concerts when I’m still studying but then i guess mothers are always right huh?? coz i just realized that all along I’m actually living a double life(wow deep!!).. My fangirl life is a secret i’m keeping from my present real life companions and coz since i’m an engineer in a respected government agency i always have to act all professional .. If only i can escape from this even just a day and turn back my college days wherein all my classmates and my family knows my fangirl nature but then i still ask myself till when will i really be doing this? but well i guess this cant be helped coz i knew in my heart i’ll probably bring this shit to my death bed. sorry mom. ahahaha!!! excuse my drama moments in life (。→ˇ艸←)
And 7 years later....
I DID STOP.
I didnt even know when.
I just did.
I use to say I never will; it was hard to even imagine it before. But I guess when maturity strikes you.. you'll just learn to get over it without even forcing yourself.
Reading this is nostalgic yet cringey at the same time. A lot has happened over the course of 7 years, I guess life just hit me hard. But there are things that did not change.. my collegues still dont know about this, I'm still couped up with work and I still havent gotten married or let alone give my mother a grandchild 🤣





















