tumblr as a website is actively hostile to people like us - Queer non-white Transgenders, Nonbinary people, Therians, Otherkin, adults who refuse to be tracked and punished for being adults, - but every other website sucks complete ass too, so. Support, uplift and love the Black creatives around you, they do not fucking hear it enough. Go support an absolute faggot freak today. support trans women in your life, support trans men in your life, in your online spaces.
I still don't like tumblr that much any more so you can still Follow me somewhere else, but bluesky fucking hates us too. so.
'rebel' by taking up space.
i mean like, it's better to go outside and be an activist.
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This blog is an assorted grab-bag of my interests & internet presence; my art, games, my personality, & the occasional shitpost.
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My biggest project yet, an hour and a half retrospective on the freddy five bear series just went live on youtube, very excited about it finally being done :)
i think we should be ridiculing them more for this. you don't get to try and go all "queer website" when your staff likes to go on nuking sprees targeting the trans fem users
would be remiss not to mention that the rainbow notably straight up just removed the trans flag colors from it. like they’re gone. it’s the progress flag minus the trans flag colors.
you'll feel like a total dipshit train wreck and no matter what some girl is gonna see you and think "role model". you can't kill yourself you have to go be clocky in the gas station so a 14 year old can have the trajectory of her life altered forever
as annoying as it is to work fast food, at my previous job one time a kid recognized the theta delta pin on my hat and was so fucking excited because i was the first other therian they had ever encountered offline.
"hey....are you a therian?" "yeah!" "what kind of animal?" "eh, some kinda dog" "😲😀 im like a wolf coyote hybrid" "that's fuckin awesome"
what really drives me nuts is that like. this happens an average of x times per year as a visibly weird person, but we only get made aware of it a small fraction of the time. you can't kill yourself you have to be clocky in the gas station.
Being clocky when i was working as a barista was one of my big joys. Being clocky when i was teaching high schoolers how to play the marimba was my reason for being for half a decade. It sucks how scared I am to leave the house I live in now. But I still need to try and be clocky at the grocery store. I wish i had a job to be clocky at. Being visibly me is one of the most radical acts I'm capable of, and I hope that one day we live in a world where it isn't radical at all.
makes me sad that most YouTube art videos are about "how to make your ocs interesting", "how to grow your account in social media", "how to not make mary sues" like what happened to just drawing for fun and sharing it- oh wait I forgot this is the result of lolcowing people for their technical art skills and or clout related things.
we are in an era where people openly and harshly judge people's creative output because of the normalization of having a "freak" of the week. it makes me sad cuz as artists we should be having fun, not treating social media like an art competition or forcing our art to be "perfect" and digestible.
another thing is the constant need to market yourself and assimilate into a squeaky clean brand via treating social media like full time job rather than hobby you put your art on and occasionally get paid for. it's not a moral failing but I swear it's another form of art being controlled and governed by capitalism.
its been over a decade and still "nonbinary" doesn't fit like Otherkin does. I love nonbinary as a label, i love the flag, it's my favorite, but i can never find the fitting microlabel or flag for myself.
who was gonna tell me that one of the Otherkin flags fucks this hard
Hi, mutual aid request for a Black trans woman. She needs her past due phone bill paid so it doesn't get cut off, as she needs it for communication with potential jobs, and also family and housing office. Pic for traction.
I really wish there was a single fucking social media website with a spine, run by adults who understand the internet is a public square, and sites are, a bar. a park. a cafe. it's up to the website and it's users, to decide what the space is for, so if more of them could stop fucking throwing us - Faggots, Black users, Black Queer adults, Pornstars and Porn artists, anyone who isn't "normal" - under the fucking bus, that would be amazing.
I want to go outside, I want to go be an activist but I literally can't yet. How many other Disabled Queers and marginalized users have no viable space but the internet, who's interests are "adult content"?
this is so fucking stupid i hope bluesky, discord, fuck it- roblox with that fucking ID VERIFICATION TO PLAY A CHILDRENS GAME get dragged through the fucking mud. such fucking BATSHIT invaisons of OUR PRIVACY, for two more fucking pennies.
It's really starting to piss me off how casually people just.. act like trans men don't exist.
I don't want to have to be the downer all the time commenting on the "if men could get pregnant" meme like "yes I can" . I don't want to be that friend who has to tell my friends to please stop putting ppl on my dash who are very open about hating men and wanting me detransitioned or dead. To please stop acting like men can't be focused on shipping yaoi and liking the men characters in fandom because It's Bad To Like Men™. To please stop calling testosterone a poison and calling it why murderers kill people.
I'm just so tired of having to be the bad guy. (Insert how bad can I be onceler song) I want people to just consider that I might exist. That I do and I can see what they're saying about us.
I was a really soft-hearted little kid who cried a lot and liked to play games about making big families and nurturing things, which, since I was a boy, meant I got the shit kicked out of me a lot by other boys for being girly. Boys were supposed to be tough and fight and compete and try to be the best, you see, that's how our imagination games were supposed to go. And that's what media aimed at boys when I was a kid focused on - heroes who beat the shit out of people and are tough and don't cry et cetera et cetera.
And I learned to like that and see the appeal in that, sure. There are lots of stories that were made for an audience of little boys that I ended up liking. But I always wanted something that told me boys like me, who didn't want to be violent or competitive, who liked nurturing things and making friends, who avoided fights whenever allowed, were valid.
So I was really happy when Steven Universe came around and was exactly that - the kind of show a sensitive little boy like I used to be would have killed to see. And very shortly after that I was crushed when the growing criticism of the show repeated the refrain that it was bad mainly because Steven was a pacifist who cried and didn't want to be violent and liked nurturing things and making friends instead of killing people. I wasn't surprised, no, it made perfect sense people would hate it for being that, but I was crushed all the same.
Our society only accepts a very narrow definition of masculinity, and kindness isn't allowed to play a very big role in it. That's one of the reasons I quit it.
Anyway, I'm a daycare teacher now, and one of the kids in my class is a really sensitive little boy with big feelings and a bigger heart, who acts very nurturing to his little 3-D printed dragons, and gets very upset at how mean and rude the other little boys can be when they're trying to prove they're mature and tough. Recently he's been talking to me about a show he found and has fallen in love with called Steven Universe, and I've been delighted to hear him regale me about how much he loves it. I bet it's doing him some real good to see that it's ok for a little boy like him to have a big heart and to want to make friends instead of fight all the time. He's making up his own crystal gem OC too, isn't that nice?
No surprise that the majority of my favs are from Avatar Belial, full Dom mode. He's mean, he's threatening, he's going to kill me, what's not to lust for.
