Rabbit In The Roses

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[c0ffinbunnii]

[user1901151003041310]

[just-a-lonely-nobody]

I think about dying but I don't want to die. Not even close. In fact my problem is the complete opposite. I want to live, I want to escape. I feel trapped and bored and claustrophobic. There's so much to see and so much to do but I somehow still find myself doing nothing at all. I'm still here in this metaphorical bubble of existence and I can't quite figure out what the hell I'm doing or how to get out of it.

— Matty Healy

[mermaidinthedeepocean]

[borderlineblitz]

[double-suicidio]

me, sleeping 18 hours a day and not leaving my home at all

[literatureaesthetic]

I feel like I’m just “trying to get through the day,” every day. My entire life is slipping through my fingers.

[sa-dnesss]

[ripleysgh0st]

Walk-In Appointment

me: hi, do you take walk-in appointments?

gravedigger: it’s 4 am at the cemetery wha-

me: dig me a grave please i want off the ride

[whoisshe777]

[rabbitintheroses]

It suddenly dawned on me after so long why I’d always keep deactivating social media accounts whenever I was going through an episode. It’s because I often just wanted the earth to swallow me whole, to cease existing. And doing so was the only way I could “deactivate” a part of myself without doing it for real.

Everytime I think I’m making good and real progress, one stupid incident is enough to derail and destroy it all. It’s so incredibly frustrating and discouraging. Why am I like this. Why couldn’t I be born with some physical condition instead so people won’t cast the same judgement as they do when it comes to illnesses of the mind. With all this modern fking medicine in the world, why can’t I be okay for good? I’m so fking sick of trying.

[neckkiss]

Song to Song (2017)

[teenscoolest]

[mymentals]

[the-s4dboi]

[theinfiniteintrovert]

Hmm...

[peaskillme]