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Hey you okay? I was wondering
Thankyou for asking!
I'm doing so much better tbh. I was a year in therapy and 8 months on antidepressants. It quite literally saved my life. I learned a lot in therapy and was finally able to talk about things. I quit 3 months ago! :)
I've been s3lf h@rm free for over two months and I'm no longer su1c1dal!
Ofc, I still have bad days, but more good ones. I feel like I can finally say that I'm getting better, I'm healing and I'm getting my life back! I enjoy living.
It all really does gets better!
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
I can't kms rn so I'm just cutting myself lol
No but like *vent*
I feel like I don't deserve the help I'm getting. I don't want to get better. I mean, a part of me want to, but I'm just so comfortable in my mental illness. Like writing suicide notes, making a plan and thinking about committing suicide literally gives me comfort.
And I know that I'm loved by a lot of people and that's just so fucked up, cus that makes it way harder to leave this world.
I feel rlly stressed rn bcs of upcoming exams. I didn't do anything yet and I start tomorrow lol. I was gonna work last weekend, but I literally couldn't concentrate. Even tho I wanted to study, I had no motivation and I felt exhausted. I hate it.
And idk, I have a friend group, but literally everyone (except one person, S) is irritating me. Like they are not even doing annoying things, I'm just so fucked up. It feels like when I'm with them, my social battery gets so low. I don't want social contact anymore with them, cus it makes me feel exhausted. I think it's bcs their interests are different from mine, so I have to listen and pretent I like it. (Not that one friend tho)
Also, I gained weight, and I'm terrified of gaining weight. But on the other hand, I can't stop eating when I'm home. Like I ate cookies and candy when I came home. But like a lot.
Also!! Like in October I tried to kms, but it obviously didn't work. I also didn't had to go to the hospital or something. Buttt since today I have a plan again so it won't be long anymore till I'm gone (hopefully it'll work this time)
take care of your cuts step by step♡
identify their depth
epidermis: very thin, like a line. didn't bleed or bled a little immediately after making it. gets bloody red, then blood droplets start forming inside it. overall looks like your usual, average accidental cut.
dermis: can be thin or wide. you can see a white layer inside them, and then they start bleeding. slowly start to get filled with blood, and then it starts pouring (takes a couple seconds).
hipodermis: wide. you can either see fat, muscle or bone. if you see a white layer surrounded by fat, that's fascia, not dermis. fat may look like beans. starts bleeding after a couple seconds like dermis.
take proper care according to depth
epidermis: softly wipe with a towel and cover with a bandage of choice (bandaids recommended for only one cut, gauzes recommended for multiple cuts in one spot). if you have anything to avoid infection, like an antibiotic that you can apply to it, pour a little in the towel and repeat the first step. do not use alcohol as a disinfectant.
dermis: grab a towel and wrap it around the damaged area. press hard (if it hurts too much, apply less pressure) against the wound for around 5-10 minutes, depending on how wide the wound is. apply disinfectant carefully with the same towel (not the bloody part), avoid putting it inside the cut. use bandage of choice (gauzes and clean cloth recommended). seek medical attendance if deemed necessary.
hipodermis: grab a towel and wrap it around the damaged area. press hard (if it hurts too much, apply less pressure) against the wound for around 8-10 minutes. cover the wound with bandage of choice (clean cloth/regular bandages recommended). seek medical attendance, cuts of this depth cannot be taken care of without a professional. do not try to disinfect it at home, wait for a doctor's opinion.
meet psychological needs
you will be alright, i assure you.
please talk to someone, a close friend or beloved family member, a partner, a teacher, etc. vent to them if you feel safe doing so, take your time.
write it down in a notebook, or the notes app. read it as if it was someone else's vent. try to imagine how you would respond to make them feel better.
this isn't over. you can keep going, i believe in you and i'm here for you if you want to talk.
listen to your favorite songs, cuddle with a pet, take a nap, doodle, have a snack, etc.
don't worry, you got this!
this can be scary for you and i get it, but i promise that you will heal from this, okay?
if you're panicking, take very deep breaths.
cry if you need to.
hug a plushie.
pour cold water in your hands.
drink water and have some food if you haven't had it in a while.
identify the issue once you feel ready emotionally.
deal with the problem by either solving it (don't be scared to ask for help!) or learning to cope with it.
take your time to heal.
healing isn't linear.
ilysm.
some time after cutting...
epidermis: after a day, you can remove the bandage. you don't need to cover it again, but if it's more comfortable for you then go ahead.
dermis: if it bleeds through, change the bandage. if it doesn't bleed through, change the bandage after a day. repeat until it gets better. avoid physical activity that hurts the damaged area.
hipodermis: time for the ER, baby! you will probably get stitches. do not, by any chance, attempt to remove them. follow medical advice given to you.
signs of infection
pus or cloudy fluid is draining from the wound.
a pimple or yellow crust has formed on the wound.
soft scab, the scab has increased in size.
increasing redness occurs around the wound.
a red streak is spreading from the wound toward the heart.
more pain, the wound has become very tender.
pain or swelling is increasing 48 hours after the wound occurred.
swollen node. the lymph node draining that area of skin may become large and tender.
a fever occurs.
the wound hasn't healed within 10 days after the injury.
if any of the above signs appear, seek medical help as soon as possible.
I have absolutely no idea how to clean my styro cut
Hit my first styro yesterday!!
Just sliced myself open and now I need to shower 😻😻😻
literally in the worst place of my life right now, thanks for asking.
I really want to die. I want everything to stop.
Saw these and found them really helpful, take care of yourself💜
I miss self harming so bad. (50 days clean)
I wish I was dead
TW (talking about weigh)
So I went on vacation (9-18 August) and I know that I gained a lot of weigh. But I'm afraid to weigh myself because I know I'm going to over-exercise again and eat less
But I'm gonna weigh myself before Thursday. Cus school starts then and it's easier to eat less when I'm at school
Update: I weighed myself and I didn't gain weigh!!
I can't even explain in words how badly I miss him.
It's like a part of me just died the last time I saw him. And yes, I'm gonna see him again, but it just won't be the same. I will never have that connection again. I will never be able to talk to him again. And not just a fast 'oh how r u?' conversation, but the 30 minutes conversation about my feelings. I will never have that again. I will never hear his motivational words again. I will never hear "until the next lesson" again. He will never teach me again. I will never be his student again.
Even tho he said he will always smile at me and say hello, I'm scared he forgot me. It's only 2 months summer break, but what if he doesn't remember me? And the thing I said..? I mean he cried when I told him so he won't forget it, or me,.. right?
What am I supposed to do without him next school year? In May and June '22, he was the only reason I woke up every day. He is the reason I'm still alive. I know I can't do the next schoolyear without him. He is the reason I chose for recovery last month. But when 'long sleeve season' starts, I just know my recovery stops, because I don't have him by my side. And hell yeah, I'm gonna disappoint him. :/
I wonder if he already thought about me this summer break. I literally think about him daily. Imagine if we ever thought about each other at the same time! What if he like thought about sending me a message, but thinking that he would bother me. Okay nah nvm lmao, that's just me about him. He told me that I need to send him a message when I'm not doing so good. But rn I'm actually happy, so I can't send him. But I wouldn't do it anyway. Too scared. "He's 15 years older. He's a teacher. Why would he be happy to receive a message from one of his students during summer break? So don't send one."~ my thoughts when I want to send him something.
I think I would better go to sleep rn before I overthink even more.
Goodnight. ✨️
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