alatena. ( tatara totsuka )
the pictures are something VERY PRECIOUS to tatara. though he had taken a multiplies of photos in the past years, he sometimes doesn’t feel like he’s taken enough. like he hasn’t gotten all the memories to look back onto one day. for all he knows, in a few years time something could happen that would make having these photo’s all the more important. it didn’t matter to him that he was only in a few, since he’s always taking the pictures, but these photos are his link to the memories. despite NEVER planning on letting anything happen to homra, he was glad he started taking pictures.
the other’s question caused tatara to pause in his look back, fingers pausing on a page as he tilted his head slightly to look at the younger male. still smiling, but expression not really giving away any other emotion as he contemplated the question. it was an interesting thought. there are a lot of memories he has that he would like to go back and redo, or to just relive again. a few of them in this photo book alone. “ hmm. i think it’s a neat idea to have. ” he started, looking back on the album, fingers lightly grazing across the group photo on the page. “ there are a handful of BENEFITS that might come from being able to do that. the ability to go back and just remember why you have a reason to be happy, or keep living. "
” but i also think there could be some faults in that. some memories could be harmful to a person, especially should someone lose an important person to them. they might go back and be engulfed in grief, instead of healing. “
for the moment , he doesn’t drop his eyes from the ceiling , but he is listening. he might enjoy it , being able to pull up all the things from the past that he treasured. it was a little sad to think of a picture or a video like an open door to a memory and not be able to cross the threshold ; only watch through the doorway from a distance. like trying to grasp at water only for it to slip through your fingers back into the river of time. he wanted MORE than that , but he also knew that was impossible. a gentle sigh slips through his lips , and he glances at the other from the corner of his eye.
a hum of thought escapes him. it made sense ---- at least a little. but wasn’t that better than to just forget entirely ? healing didn’t have to mean leaving behind the past altogether. though he supposes there was always the potential to become trapped by it all. it wasn’t far off a reoccurring nightmare in that sense. there’s a brief hesitation from him as he takes it all on board before huffing ; simultaneously sitting up and reaching out to take the photo album from where it rests in the other’s lap. he moves it in front of himself , so he can get a better look at the pictures.
‘ i guess you’re right. ‘ warm eyes gaze over the photo that the album was open upon , though the small frown remains fixated on his expression. ‘ it’s just... what about all those memories you don’t have photos of ? what if we just forgot them all... ? ‘