Did you know that young people adjust to time changes in schedule more quickly than those in their mid-50s? That in Editing, as long as work is done when the boss/client needs it & you show up for meetings, you don't necessarily always HAVE to work 9-5? That SOMEBODY has to work night shifts in places? That it's more important to have a good sleep schedule during daytime (though not ideal) than any insomniac one? That I've been criticized for not being on the same sleep schedule as my family, even though they don't need me for anything when they're up? That if they plan me to do something or get me while I'm sleeping, I do get up without hassle? That I just spent the last 2 weeks being ready to babysit at 9am, went to bed at 3AM because of insomnia, was exhausted, and still did fine? So I can in fact get up early, and I do make it to daytime plans on schedule. So if I'm not needed, is it necessary to be diurnal? Did you know that maybe, I already realize this somehow bugs people & I'm trying to fix it? Did you know that maybe I DO think about things and thought I would use this BREAK to RESPONSIBLY catch up on sleep before school resumed? That I sacrificed my own gradual but effective plan for physical recuperation so I wouldn't lie to my parents about my obvious degenerated physical health, thus hurting their feelings? That I've still been lying anyway so I can get psychological/emotional counseling because I don't want to hurt them with the truth that I don't think my mental problems can be "cured" and that school is a big stress, but not actually my main stress? That I'm not allowed to argue, that screaming into a pillow to vent will lead to an "argument", and that leaving the house so I can avoid creating an "argument" situation will in fact be its own cause of an argument situation? That my mom thinks my mental issues are her fault, caused by raising me wrong, yet also thinks whenever I mention either that I'm feeling depressed, or getting help for them, that in moments of admission I'm just faking it and using issues as an excuse/to guilt her? Did you know that's I already deleted this rant from Twitter because if help leaves evidence or my family or IRL friends see this, it'll get worse than it already is if I don't just take it?
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