Rain For Two Years

It doesn't stop

[rainfor2years]

Swimming

The rain is falling on the swimming pool. I take a deep breath and dive in. I let myself float on the cold water. I close my eyes and dream away. "Raine, why are you wearing swimming trunks?" I look up at my cousin. He is 6 years old, so I can't blame him. I wear a swim trunk because i feel really uncomfortable in a bikini or a swimsuit. My cousin wants to go down the slide. I look at the people in the line for the big yellow slide. They where all touching each other. I don't want to stand there. So i yelled that i was going to find the bathroom. Now my uncle is about my swim trunk. I am out to my family but i think my unkle doesn't understands me. "Because I'm not a girl," I explain. He nods and goes way. I think he gets it now.

[rainfor2years]

SH

I did it again. I was at the stables today and just doing stuff with Storm. But every think went wrong. Storm was wild and I almost died because he was kicking at me. I tried to calm down. I tried to stop hating myself for this. He was the one he did this. But it did't work. When I came home, I cut myself.

I always do it on my hands. I know most depressed teens do it on there arm, and then big cuts. I do it on my hands because I don't want people to notice and my hands are really ugly. My nails are so short and my fingers are to long.

You are probably thinking: "Why are they sharing this?" Because I can tell my story and I don't have to hold it for myself. Not because I want to flex with it, I hate that I do this. I want to warn you for this. Please look out for stuff like this. Please don't think of yourself like this. I am trying to stop, but it isn't easy. Just hold on! Please.

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Shuttleruns

I hear the rain falling on the gymnasium. I hear the sound of the test beeps. I hear teens panting and I hear them running. I can't see much. I feel my heart pounding. I feel my hot, sweaty shirt on my skin. I smell swatting teens.

I don't like the Shuttleruns. It is so pointless. Why do teachers want to judge our fitness? Do they want teens to pass out? I don't like that everyone can watch me run and see me turn into a red tomato, it makes me uncomfortable. Gym in general is stupid. It makes me hate myself even more.

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The Owl House

I've been walking for so long, but i finaly found a shelter. I take my phone out for my pocket. I click "Moviesjoy" and search "The Owl House". I click on "Season 3" and see that i can watch "Waching and dreaming". I sit on a wall and start the episode.

I love the finals so *** much!!! I love the good ending with all the new looks. I'm cried when all the characters saying "Byeee". All the couples are so lovely! Like Darius and Alador; the best eyecontact ever! I also love the kiss of Luz and Amity. It is so cute! And of course Eda and Raine! I love them together! The story of the Collector is beautuful to. That they are a weirdo and wanted to fit in. I love the fact that Luz, Eda and King are so lovely to them. I'm very sad that The Owl House is over now. I'am maybe gonna make some fanart, but I'm not that good. I want to thank @danaterrace for making this show!

[rainfor2years]

"It is raining for 2 whole years"