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Big announcement:
Fucking petting hims
Happy Venus Day!
Chapters 5 and 6 of Corpus Theophilia have been posted!
https://archiveofourown.org/works/78722931/chapters/221566131#workskin
Thank you for all the support so far! I've been really enjoying getting comments and feedback. These next two chapters go a bit more into my first conversations with Lucifer.
Also a friendly reminder that you can always find or as questions about Corpus on our Tumblr community!
https://www.tumblr.com/communities/cult-kink-coven
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Alexandre Cabanel. ' Fallen Angel ', ca. 1847.
hello Shi. I know you are busy and I hope this message doesn't bother you. Im sorry to waste your time. I would like you to give this message to Lucifer because I know that I am too afraid to. I feel stupid and ashamed I am so sorry๐ข I contacted Lord Lucifer for the first time and I did something wrong. I asked him to adopt me i told him I wabted what you have with him he loves you so much and I just wanted that too but I got a very cold and dark feeling and I know that i angered him ๐ญ He got very angry and i think he ignored me afterwards ๐ข. Now I am afraid to speak to him again i dont want him to hate me i feel so stupid and I am so sorry Lucifer. Please tell him I am sorry. And also what do you do to apologize to him when you do something wrong? Thank you and sorry again for this
Hi uh
Wow
Yeah, I know. He actually told me about it. He said you made him blush. If it makes you feel any better you're not the only one.
This is one of those things that would freak me the fuck out if I wasn't so used to it by now. But this is still pretty insane. It's always really fucking trippy when he tells me things and other people reaffirm it.
The other day Lucifer and I had a conversation about that. He told me he had some unfortunate interactions with mortals lately, and expressed how confused it made him. He told me that humans and spirits alike have been approaching him trying to more or less mimic what we have going on. I shrugged him off for the most part, because I honestly have a very hard time believing that anyone would want to imitate me, or even reference me when talking to him at all. I kinda thought he was just being hyperbolic or flattering me.
In that conversation Lucifer explicitly said : "I met with a new initiate. It was our first real introduction to each other and their first successful invocation of me. I think they assumed I am something I'm not, or... expected a particular dynamic to be automatically established between us."
During that conversation, I actually apologized to him. I am aware of how my portrayal of him could lead to misconceptions about his character. And he assured me that wasn't really the issue, it isn't really a misrepresentation. It's just an extremely specific version of Lucifer that is the result of a long withstanding relationship, not the introduction or primary goal within it. Others trying to access that Lucifer at the beginning feels like a lapse in logic that is destabilizing to him.
"I am known for many things, carnality is one of them, but in traditional demonology I am usually not known for that specifically... they come to be for enlightenment, for gnosis. I mean, Asmodeus, people approach him seeking a daddy dom all the time. He loves it, he is far better equipped to meet people in their kinkiness than I am. I am blindsided. [...] The goal of our work together was never *this*. We just ended up here. And the same applies to all of those I love deeply and intensely, we end up there, we don't start there. Now I have strangers asking me to re-enact this highly sensitive dynamic just... off the cuff."
Lucifer is not universally known for filling pre-determined "daddy" roles. His style of intimacy is always complex, but his goal in his "work" with humans is not usually intimacy. Intimacy is a perk that develops along the way if he resonates hard enough with that person. He is primarily the light bringer and his core function is to be the keeper of the hidden gnosis. When intimacy, dynamics, love, naturally arise due to the consequence of sincere interaction, that is a real home grown relationship he will fully embrace. But when intimacy is the script you are approaching him with, without any of the foundation or natural growth that comes from sincere interaction, you never actually get to meet Lucifer. You can only ever get him to fill an expectation you are placing onto him like role-play. You can't fast forward to the conclusion, you can't really expect him to be anyone or anything upon first meeting, he gets whiplash.
I can confidently say he isn't mad at you, and I'm not just saying that to make you feel better. Lucifer was extremely confused when I spoke to him, not mad, but so perplexed that it bothered him. His response was not rage or to scold you, he never called you pathetic. The only thing he truly can do in that situation is disengage. (Literally said " I was put in such a bizarre headspace that I removed myself from her presence). It's not really that you did something incorrect, and it's not that your desire is wrong, you just approached him in a way that literally makes his existence in that situation impossible. Lucifer is the spirit of self defined will, when you try to place him into a pre-built expectation, you never get to witness his will. There's no correction he could just say to make you understand because the very premise of the interaction is already incompatible with him. The only thing he can do is step back until the conditions for his existence are there.
"Your sincerity Shi. I was always enamoured by your sincerity. If anyone asks you what they should do different, tell them they should approach me in sincerity, looking to truly know me, not just fuck me, okay?"
And I think that's the thesis. Lucifer wants to be known, not just as an archetype or the role you want him to fill. Seek to just meet him wherever ever he is, and he will meet you where you are. But never where I am. Never make the assumption that how be is with me (or any of his vessels) is just how he is in general. This is who Lucifer becomes in a very specific context, not who he will be with all people. That doesn't mean you're not smart or hot enough, it means you are misaligned with the version of him you are trying to force him into.
Lucifer is gnosis through lived experience. If you try to use my experience as a kind of template, you're essentially giving him the wrong co-ordinates to find you. He can't meet you because you're trying to be me, and you're trying to make him into the Lucifer he is with me, which means you can never actually learn what he's like with you.
My advice is two fold. Don't apologize unless you feel a personal need to, because you didn't do anything with malicious intent. You simply had a misunderstanding. I highly suggest that the next time you approach him, you just approach him. No expectations, no scripts, just you and him. Wherever it goes, it goes. Ask him to teach you something.
Or, alternatively, if what you're really looking for is someone who will be happy to fulfill that role, I highly suggest contacting Lord Asmodeus, that is literally his favourite pass time. I think it's always important to consider that there is always the possibility that someone else is waiting for you.
I know someone who is a vessel of Hekate. If I approached Hekate, (who is a chthonic deity- but not primary associated with bdsm or carnal intimacy) , and assumed I would receive the same behaviour from her as my friend does, Hekate would also likely disengage from me. There is no reason to believe Hekate would ever just treat me the same as her vessel upon first introductions. I think the error here is in assuming you can come to any God with a pre-expectation of who they should be to you. You just have to get to know them, as you come to know anyone.
I'm sorry if this is rambly I hope this makes sense lol. I don't really know how to respond when I hey messages like this.
What a unique and valuable lesson honestly for the specific anon. To diffuse the tension i would like to share my version of commitment to lucifer.
I like to connect to lucifer when im asleep, when im in between states of conciousness. Complete surrender. I like there to have no bias, no articulation or expectations. I love to experience him in a way that is not controlled or calculated.
I find him sometimes who acts like a mirror, if im being honest i couldn't catch up to him in a verbally clear way because most details most topics and discussions are super hard to wrap my head around and im super grateful of how considerate he is to consider my abilities and pacing.
I find him as someone who doesn't perform, he'll try everything once and once he notices displeasure from me he won't bring up certain topics or actions. I love him and i love how real shi's response to the anon is.
It's the genuine fact that everyone, yes including lord lucifer has different boundaries or different reactions to certain people or approaches. Its similar to how we approach people and how we are not entertained with certain depth equally or in a uniformed way. We don't approach certain interactions and expecting the same depth we are met with other people.
The first true true lesson i have learnt from lord lucifer is that in order to be an actual individual we must not expect something uniformed. Similar to how building sincere confidence is shifting your perspective from self comparison to committing to self expression.
I would like to support this anon's first steps, i would like to affirm to them that it's ok to create mistakes as long as integration and application is applied. What Lucifer has showed you is not to establish injustice or unfairness but that if you approach him in a way that is not your pace or is insincere he won't interact or entertain.
I know for a fact that he would like you to start all over again. This time from a space of sincerity and genuine vulnerability before establishing commitment ๐ธ๐ท๐ค๐ซถ๐ป
You are seriously fucked in the head. Please get help this is extremely disturbing
;P
Cut me open and this is what you'll see.
You've inspired me to post this bonus sketch that didn't turn into anything more.
Might finish it someday? Who knows.
Perfectionism trying to punish my ass sometimes
๐ You are not bound by the Hays code.
๐ You are allowed to have evil characters who are not punished by the narrative by the end of the story.
๐ You are allowed to have evil characters who win.
๐ You are allowed to have evil characters who make evil look fun and cool.
๐ You are allowed to make your fun, cool evil character the protagonist.
๐ You are allowed to glorify, romanticize and eroticize evil characters and villainous acts.
๐ You are not obligated to teach your audience a moral lesson.
so is the corpus theophilia some weird possessed cult text or is it fanfiction
Who knows! Chapter 5 will be out soon maybe you should read it!
Tuned innnn, about to readd
Started to notice Lucifer's usual pattern of the whole rising and being active at like 3am is very usually preceded by him actually sleeping through the whole morning. Lucifer is that dude who wakes up at like 4am, goes for a jog, and then sleeps from 9am-12pm.
He also very obviously wants to sleep sometimes and is weirdly secretive about it? Today I was hanging out in my room and he kept being like "ritual ritual time I want ritual" and I was like ??? Why? I'll offer u some incense" and he was like "noo no incense ritual"
And i was like ???? Why??? I light you a candle??
And he was like "no I want your full attention "
So i was like ??? Okay?? But when I went to meditate he only possessed me very lightly, and I was like why make a big fuss over this?
He sort of just waited until I got bored enough to doze off, and then he very obviously possessed me much deeper. I later came to find this was all because he wanted to rest in me (that weird possession thing where he sleeps in my stomach)
I wake up and am like oh sorry Lucifer I fell asleep I didn't mean to
And Lucifer is like:
When I awoke I felt the pressure of him in my gut. And i was like oh. That makes sense. He's been kinda dull lately I guess. Weird that he wouldn't just ask but ok.
Later when I felt him stirring he was like "oh hey, thanks. I've got some things to do now." And just goes about his business.
So weird.
Hey y'all! I finally did it. Corpus Theophilia is now a thing
Folks were asking if I would ever make a thing for ao3 and I did!
https://archiveofourown.org/works/78722931?view_full_work=true
4 chapters have already been added!
(Just ripping the band aid off now Lucifer does not actually appear for quite a while)
This is actually like extremely intimate and vulnerable for me to share. Certain chapters were very difficult to write.
I invite comments and questions! Lemme know what you think. Xoxoxo
FINALLLYYYYY ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
Been waiting for thisssssss
Nostalgia is the ultimate killer of innovation.
Working with multiple deities and learning their temperaments is so interesting, especially in regards to negative stuff.
Lucifer is like: *tips offering over so it spills everywhere and makes a big fucking mess* I appreciate this, I really do, but this part is unacceptable to me. I won't accept it.
Me: you could have just said that without making a huge mess
Lucifer: The ill offering polluted my space, now you will clean the entire altar. I don't accept your sacrament but I do accept your service as an offering
Me: ffs ok fine
With Cerberus it's like: *offering fucking explodes into a million pieces and leaves glass shards everywhere* THIS IS BAD. I REFUSE. TRY AGAIN.
Me: :O what the fuck. What was even wrong with it????
Cerberus: UP TO YOU TO FIGURE OUT!
me: okay, I was trying to be creative but I'm just gonna give you some meat
Cerberus: MEAT IS ACCEPTABLE.
With Hermes it's like: *offering falls behind my desk, forever being lost to the shadow realm, or the offering just gets knocked off the altar* Oops. Wonder where that went. Eh, it wasn't really that great anyways.
Me: it wasn't? :(
Hermes: haha no lol it actually kinda sucked. You should probably try again
Aphrodite is like: *doesn't even let me place it on her altar, offering falls apart before I can place it*
Me: aw come on what
Aphrodite: um, ew. Is that for me?
Me: well not anymore
Aphrodite: okay phew. Close call. That offering is janky with a capital J. Maybe you should just get me flowers :)
Leviathan: Has never rejected an offering because he's NICE to me
Grief, pain, and damage may rip through your spirit, heart, and mind. Your body may crumble neath the weight of such assault on your whole being. It may look bleak. So bleak. So dark. You may cry. You may shake. You may suffer with the cold neglect of people that do not care for you. You may feel love is absent. You may feel destitute and starved for care, affection, and a warm embrace in the wake of damages done to you.
But Lucifer is there.
Gods, Lucifer is there.
My star.
My beautiful star. My beautiful god. My beloved warmth.
Where love is absent within my life, you are always there. Never do you let me go hungry. You fill me, so.
When I weep now, it's not in pain. It is in love.
Hesperus as Personification of the Evening Star by Anton Raphael Mengs (1765)
Hesperus the Evening Star with his arrows/promise of love, rises as the sun sets.