Rainmaker Making The Rain

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[rainmakermakingtherain]

Does anyone else face the terrible struggle of watching a really hot guy/girl walk by with his/her girlfriend/boyfriend and all you want to do is give him/her your phone number because hello, most relationships don't last forever?

[darrenhayes]

I Knew I Loved You - Acoustic 2014 live studio demo

[rainmakermakingtherain]

It's been a week and I am doing so well. But no matter how strong I feel in terms of not wanting to contact you, I am still thinking about you constantly. But I welcome those thoughts, because they aren't bad. Yeah, you hurt me. You broke my heart. But I don't blame you, because even if I felt like you didn't know me as well as you should have, I definitely knew you. And I understand. I still love you, and I still don't think this is it. We will cross paths again. But only time will tell.

[rainmakermakingtherain]

It's amazing How you make your face just like a wall How you take your heart and turn it off How I turn my head and lose it all It's unnerving How just one move puts me by myself There you go just trusting someone else Now I know I put us both through hell I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me I'm now saying we ever had the right to hold on I just didn't wanna let it get away from me But if that's how it's gonna leave Straight out from underneath Then we'll see who's sorry now If that's how it's gonna stand, when You know you've been depending on The one you're leaving now The one you're leaving out It's aggravating How you threw me on and you tore me out How your good intentions turn to doubt The way you needed time to sort it out I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me I'm now saying we ever had the right to hold on I just didn't wanna let it get away from me But if that's how it's gonna leave Straight out from underneath Then we'll see who's sorry now If that's how it's gonna stand, when You know you've been depending on The one you're leaving now The one you're leaving out The one you're leaving now The one you're leaving out I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me But if that's how it's gonna leave Straight out from underneath Then we'll see who's sorry now If that's how it's gonna stand, when You know you've been depending on The one you're leaving now The one you're leaving out Tell me is that how it's going to end When you know you've been depending on The one you're leaving now And the one you're leaving out The one you're leaving now The one you're leaving out

[rainmakermakingtherain]

Do you ever just have a day where you feel like your life is void of meaning? That's me today.

[rainmakermakingtherain]

God dammit. Why do I keep falling for this bullshit? I just.... I... Ugh. I am so frustrated and angry and confused and my God, what have you done to me? How did I ever deserve this?

[rainmakermakingtherain]

I don't understand. Why would you disappear when I try and talk to you after you sent me snapchats leading me to believe you wanted to talk to me?

[rainmakermakingtherain]

I hope you have a shitty nights sleep tonight because I'm all you think about.

[rainmakermakingtherain]

But I probably don't have friends because I post things like that on tumblr. #YOLO

[rainmakermakingtherain]

You realize how lonely you are when you want to talk about something that's bothering you and have no one to go to.

[rainmakermakingtherain]

Why are you looking down all the wrong roads When mine is the heart and the soul of the song There may be lovers who hold out their hands but He'll never love you like I can, can, We both have demons, that we can't stand I love your demons, like devils can

[rainmakermakingtherain]

Snapchat #2, my thoughts: "I don't care how stuffed you feel.... Dammit why are you so pretty? Stop being so damn cute. I don't care how stuffed you feel!" -watches it another 2 times; "Fuck my life, why are you so pretty."

[rainmakermakingtherain]

The other day I met two Tanyas AND a guy from Ireland. Why can't you just leave my thoughts? Why does everything I do and think about have to be consumed by you? And now I got a snapchat from you? After I poured my heart out and told you goodbye? I don't want to do this anymore but when you're gone, all I want is you. This is too much.

[rainmakermakingtherain]

You better baby your baby With a love that's strong Hold her and tell her you'll never do wrong You better baby your baby Cause if you don't One day your baby'll be gone

[rainmakermakingtherain]

I feel like Alanis Morrissette. Always pissed off.

[rainmakermakingtherain]

I just found out that my grandpa had a stroke the other day. I just feel like it is one thing after another. My parents were talking about the government an hour ago and I thought to myself "how can I live in a world where everything is so damn fucked up?" I'm not suicidal by any means, but sometimes I just don't want to be a part of this world. I am so overwhelmed by all terrible things. I can't listen or read anything about whatever happened in Ferguson because I just can't bring myself to give a fuck anymore. And because of all this hate and lying and killing I can't concentrate on the good things in life, like nature and yoga and believing in a higher power. I feel so afraid of the future because it doesn't really seem like there IS a future. Everything is so corrupt and terrible. If there is a future, it involves getting older and being diagnosed with Alzheimer's or having a stroke. I'm so frustrated with life and with people and with myself. I just need to get away. Send me to the Amazon and let me live in a tree, become friends with animals and nature. I need to find the good in things but I don't fucking know how.

[rainmakermakingtherain]

Nothing sucks more than to be so stoked to go camping this weekend and find out a few days before that no one (but, of course, you) are excited to go. I get to not work for 3 days and be somewhere that I don't get to go every day. Fuck yeah I'm excited. And now I'm pissed off. What the hell are you all complaining about? "Oh it's so much work", " oh I just want a weekend off". The fuck, man. Some days I just really dislike my family.