Rainpeacetea

AFTG/Jerejean/Andreil Profile pic is Gracie Abrams

[star-megu29x]

i’m rereading tsc and tgr (for a third time but we don’t talk about that) and all i can think about is how despite all of the pain and abuse jean moreau has suffered through, his heart is still full of so much love and he still has so much love to give and that makes my heart ache so badly

[cowpants147]

I'm actually really glad AFTG hasn't been adapted cause I dont think I'd survive the tiktok edits to Noah Kahan

[rainpeacetea]

Jeremy smile at his friends and laughs at a joke Derrick makes. Then they all say bye and Jeremy flashes them a big smile as the last one leaves the room, then he turns his back to the door, his smile dropping. He takes two steps into Jean’s direction and Jean meets him halfway, and when they meet Jeremy rest his head against Jean’s chest. “How convincing was that?” Jeremy asks. “Only an idiot would buy that smile, mon amour.” Jean replies. Jeremy sighs, then looks up at Jean. Jean looks back at hi and says, “your true smile shines brighter than the sun itself, and that, was not your true smile Jeremy.” Jeremy huffs a laugh at that, and takes a deep breath. “You ready to go back to the group?” Jean asks. Jeremy pauses, then nods, and they head back to the group together.

[viiiiiliiiii]

we all remember that Neil picked his university courses assuming he’d only need them for a short while before he died. imagine him years later, finally free and happy with his peaceful life, staring at his schedule and thinking, “What the actual fuck was I thinking when I signed up for these?”

[zombiecowboy65]

Thinking about the first shopping trip jerejean catlaila go on when they all have money from their pro teams, and the lil fashion shows they give each other in the dressing rooms, and Jean insisting on carrying everyone’s bags until he runs out of room. Swapping the bags to one arm and one side so he can hold Jeremy’s hand at the same time .

[galaxywarp]

once you realize you don’t actually need to sleep, you can really (stops talking abruptly and stares straight ahead for 4 minutes)

[tswizzlesfan]

jeremy knox what are you doing here

[schnuspi]

I think it’s interesting that we have Neil describing Jean‘s grey eye colour at the banquet (when Neil is famously not big on giving us physical descriptions of people other then Andrew) and then telling us that his favourite colour is grey just a couple pages later

[kirenbka]

Jean...my boy...i wanna cry

[viiiiiliiiii]

🕯️ Jeremy with a scar running across his lips after the crash in tbc. one of his hookups is so put off by it that they avoid kissing him afterward, avoid looking at his face too much during sex, and somehow manage to make him feel even more like a object than a person taking part in the moment. until Jean becomes the first person to kiss the scar on purpose. his fingertips trace the pale line before he presses a kiss against it, and for the first time making it clear to Jeremy that no scar, no mark, no visible “flaw” could ever lessen his worth. 🕯️Amen.

[viiiiiliiiii]

“My Foxes chose to fight back.” I can come to terms with a lot of things, but not with the fact that Jean heard that sentence. not with the fact that Jean, who spent five years enduring horrific psychological and physical abuse, who only didn’t kill himself because he had given someone his word, heard that he had never really fought for his life at all. that all those years, he was simply accepting it. that somehow it was easier for him to stay in a place where his existence was valued so little that he could be left behind like forgotten trash in an old box for days. because he didn’t “fight back.” so what does that make him? guilty because he chose to endure instead of die? responsible for what was done to him because he chose to stay? does being trapped mean it's an excuse for abuse?

[rainpeacetea]

“Know I wanna beat it, wanna beat it bad Oh, everyone looks happy in a photograph, I crossed the county line, I cannot go back, I'm always on my own” but it’s Jeremy Knox last time seeing his house before getting kicked out then falling into a depression episode and never letting anyone see his smile drop.

[rainpeacetea]

The next time the Trojans go to an away game, Jeremy sleeps the whole time. At first his head is just hanging down, but Jean worries that it’s going to hurt his neck if he’s in that position too long so he puts his hand on the side of Jeremy’s head and slowly tilts his head to the side so his head is resting on Jean’s shoulder. When Jeremy wakes up at some point during a rest stop, he’s still against Jean’s shoulder and he worries he put himself there at some point during his nap and he made Jean uncomfortable. He stammers out an apology but Jean shrugs it off and tells Jeremy “if you were comfortable, stay. I put you there.” Jeremy just stares at him at first but then he slowly rest his head back down onto Jean’s shoulder and falls asleep again. Dare I say it was the best sleep Jeremy’s had in a while.

[softkostyk]

but what if we get a parallel to andreil’s “I’m not interested in anyone but you” but it’s jean telling jeremy “I don’t want anyone else” when jeremy inevitably says something like “you could have anyone in the world” 🚬🚬🚬

[zombiecowboy65]

And when Jean buys a queen/king sized bed because it’s cheaper than buying two twins and he and jeremy start sharing a room again…

[dismemberedlemon]

"A drag path, etched in the surface as evidence i left there on purpose"

But it's Neil leaving his bag, racquet and phone behind when he was taken by Lola so Andrew knew he didn't leave him willingly

[rainpeacetea]

Neil and Kevin: playing full games non-stop running as fast as they can and being perfectly fine.

Me after running up a flight of stairs:

[rainpeacetea]

Ok so,

We know that Jean held Élodie at night when their parents were yelling, or she was crying.

So think one day Jeremy comes to the apartment after his mom or brother just yelled at him. He puts on a smile during the day but at night Jean notices how Jeremy curls into himself, similar to how Élodie did.

Jean goes over to Jeremy’s bed and holds him through the night as he cries. He makes sure to stay awake so he’ll know if a threat comes in the room. Old habit.

Maybe he even sings Jeremy an old French lullaby that he used to sing to his little sister.

I don’t know, maybe I’m crazy, but this would be both so sad and so cute.