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I've been dealing with anxiety since covid19 started spreading in my country. I didn't have any trouble breathing before when I overthink but ever since this pandemic started, my breathing started getting worse. 😞 I can't help but overthink, we can't really guarantee everyone's safety until a vaccine is made. I hope this ends, I want everything to be normal again..

#personal #2020

Indie songs make everything feel alright. <3

Pinto Art Museum 🤠

We've been planning to visit this place since 2016 but we were completely broke and couldn't plan ahead because of acads. Fast forward to December 2019, we finally decided to go and I must tell, this place is really worth the money. The things that ruined our day were the traffic and the time constraint because we didn't want to go home late.

Would definitely visit again because the museum is still planning to open more galleries inside. 🥰

#personal #photos #2019

Merry Christmas!

#2019

I love youu so much, my babi bear 😘🐻

#personal #photos #babi #2019

Hello, Baguio! I think this is our first out of town (Manila), aside from our own hometown, together.

We rode a zipline in Camp John Hay even though he has fear of heights, he set it aside because it was my birthday and he couldn’t say no to my puppy face 🤗

We casually just roamed around the city and tried different restaurant. It may not be obvious in the pictures, pero taeng tae na talaga kami buong araw HAHAHAHA boycott Don Henrico’s sa session road! Sobrang tigas nung food, kaya pala matigas kasi naka ilang reheat na at ayaw masayang kahit panis.

Wala kaming picture together sa dslr ko kaya hindi ko malagay dito sa post, pero sobrang nag enjoy kami. We’ll go back here again!

#personal #photos #babi #2019

Summer in Tokyo 🎌

Most people know that my childhood dream is to visit Japan, and I am glad to say that I finally got to cross it off my bucket list! *happy violin* The trip lasted for 5 days and 4 nights, we only roamed around Tokyo. I actually thought we will go to Osaka and Kyoto but there was a typhoon there during our visit so my Aunt said we will try again next time.

On our first day, we went to Shibuya crossing. The most busiest and crowded crossing in Tokyo.

We also got to take a picture of Hachiko's statue. If you haven't watched the movie yet, you're missing half of your life.

My favorite part is riding the train, most of the passengers are in suits/corporate attire. I enjoy noticing small details during our trip. First is, Japanese people really value their time. You will see that they have this fast pace when walking, they all seem in a hurry. Second, if ever there is a delay on the train, it will only take 5 minutes for another train to arrive. Third, the commute is complex but efficient! Plus, they offer a beep card for the entire Tokyo train so you won't need to purchase every time you drop off and ride again for your next destination.

If only there is no corruption in my country, I know very well that it can be as great as Japan too.

One thing I regret during our trip was we didn't get to take a lot of pictures of Japan at night time. Our routine was taking off early in the morning - a lot of walking the entire day - head straight to hotel around 6 to 8pm. I swear, I love walking but not the extent that my feet become sore???

Second day ♡

We visited Tokyo Disneyland, the happiest place on Earth! I enjoyed this day the most because of rides and the aesthetic view in every corner of the place. I am honestly in awe because you can actually notice how developed the technology is. It was also my first time to see a robot in real life i'm-

Third day, we visited Meiji Shrine. I see this place a lot and I'm amazed to finally see it up close! This place is filled with trees and torii. They really value the trees in this place, you can search it up that many people in late era planted the trees as a tribute to the Emperor.

We also visited Tokyo Skytree on our third day. I am grateful that I have no fear in heights. LOL

350th floor! I feel like I'm on top of the world! We could have visited the 400th floor but my sister couldn't handle it anymore haha sighs

Fourth Day, Ginza and Yanaka the old town Tokyo. I can't add pics anymore in this post because it's only limited to 10 photos uwu

Ginza is a shopping district in Tokyo. All the rich people are there and everything is so expensive. Meanwhile, Yanaka represents the old town in Tokyo. There's a huge difference in both places and I'm glad I witnessed it.

We also ate a beef in Ginza??? And it was the best thing that ever happened in my life HAHAHAHA

Fifth day, before heading to the airport, me and my sister visited Akihabara. What's the sense of visiting Japan if you don't unleash the weeab in you right?

We actually went to a lot of place that I didn't include in this post. I only mentioned the most memorable part for me. :-)

I hope I get to visit Japan again soon! I will improve my photography skills by then haha

#personal #japan #tokyo #tokyo japan #trip to japan #photos #tokyo disneyland #ginza #shibuya crossing #shibuya #hachiko #tokyo skytree

2018 ♡

Before this year ends, I want to share my experiences and how memorable it is.

On the first half of 2018, I already knew that I won't be able to graduate on time. I fell one semester behind because of failed subjects. Yes, I failed several times and I learned from my mistakes. It was too stressful for me to handle my mental, emotional and physical health all at once. I told myself that I can overcome this, so I did. Luckily, my boyfriend supports me and stays by my side so I won't break down. He never left my side when things were rough, he always tells me to stay positive and shows me affection whenever possible.

July, our Tita took us for a 5 day trip in Japan. During our stay there I found out that I didn't qualify for 5th year for BSA in FEU. It was okay for me though, because I already knew it myself that the exam was hard and my review wasn't enough.

August came, I roamed around Makati and Ortigas to look for an audit firm for my on-the-job training. I really want to be hired on the big four because I want to leave a good impression when I become a professional. The luck is on my side again, I was hired in PricewaterhouseCoopers - BSP. At first we didn't have much to do because it was slack season- the best experience came when we were assigned for fieldwork and this time I can say that I learned a lot. We were assigned to talk to clients in person, I became more comfortable talking to people professionally and engaging with them be it about work or personal life. My OJT ended around November, I reallyyyy made sure to lessen my absences so I can finish my internship before our case study.

This December, I found out that I am now a graduate of BSBA Major in Internal Auditing. I transfered to another school to continue Accountancy because I didn't pass the qualifying exam on FEU lol. Semester has already started in LaCo so I'm 2 weeks behind.

This 2018 is full of ups and downs, I faced a lot of problems and struggles. To be honest, I couldn't remember anymore what were my emotions throughout the year, but writing it down made me happy because I survived it all. :-)

Goodbye 2018, hello 2019!

#personal #my 2018

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Don’t compare your chapter 1 to someone else chapter 20. You’re doing great right where you are :)

Losing you.

You never really know the pain of losing someone until you get to experience it yourself. Imagine being next to a person throughout the years, you knew for sure that this person will be by your side until the end. You plan your future together, how you two will be like when you get old.

Until the break up comes.

And every memory remains just as it is, with no more continuation.

You will feel like the world is collapsing, not knowing when or how to move on with the next chapter of your life without him. All the regrets come surging in, you realize that you could have been a better person for him but you didn't do anything when you had the chance.

You see, the regret is the most painful part. You lost a person and you can't do anything anymore to bring him back. The love, hug, kisses and warmth- everything will remain as a good memory to you.

You lost a person and a best friend, and you need to accept it.

#break up #thoughts #heartbreak #heart broken #spilled writing #spilled words #spilledthoughts #spilled ink #spilled thoughts

I feel thousands of emotions every time we meet. We always talk about our day, laugh at each other's jokes even though yours are lame. We end up meeting our thoughts and feelings right in the middle and I think that is the best part. We have a lot of similarities that I began to think that you really are my soulmate.

You really taught me a lot, I never would have thought that being in a relationship like this will help me become a mature and goal oriented person. You keep bringing out the best in me and helping me push me to my limits until I reach my goal. I hope you realize how much I love you. You deserve all the best, CBK. ♡

#photos #qtpie

Let’s stay like this forever.

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I always make sure my mind is not caged, but I am not certain if I have the freedom to express it. I prefer silence than the noise Yet still struggle to find the right words to say. I keep my mouth shut most of the time, because I would rather not be known than be found. My thoughts are spilling deep inside me. Do I conceal the truth or embrace the lies? Should I keep going or just give up? I am making decisions even though I have no options. This is how I live my life.

Life at 20; LDCM

#poetry #poems #tumblr poem #spilled ink #spilledthoughts #poem #poets on tumblr

It's been almost 8 years since I created this tumblr account, and now I'm having thoughts of deleting it! Why? Because social media has been really toxic lately. People are more inclined to depression/anxiety because they think that they're not alone- alone in a way that they think they're not the only one depressed in this world because people share it almost everywhere. It feels like they're spreading this idea that having depression is okay when in fact it's not. Social media should be your outlet of emotions but nowadays they only post to gain likes/shares/reblog which is really irritating. People think you're seeking attention for sharing your thoughts. I miss the old days. Bring me back to 2010.

#depression #thoughts #personal #anxiety