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Whoever reads this I hope you make your dreams come true 😍. You are strong 💪. You are loved 💕. Never give up! 💛

Just wanted to share, probably, my last message in here.

Remember that everything is going to be fine. Even if now it's difficult remember that it's just a phase and things will get better 🥰.

Miracles are possible!!!! 💛✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨

I never desired hugs.

But today I really need a hug. 😣

Sitting

The chair

Crying

Tasting my own tears

Without faith or hope

Just numb

Lost opportunities

Bad decisions

The blame kills me

Dark room

Only one lamp gives a light

4th floor

Can I do it?

Will it happen?

I don't want to continue

Maybe I am not even real

I am a meaningless creature

So insignificant

Continue to sit

Just staring

So nostalgic

I wonder if that's my end

I am very sorry

Forgive me please

Everything is good

It's going to be great

I will find peace in another world

So scared

But it's going to be fine

Hazy mind

Looking at the sky

Rain

Closed eyes

Touching the leafs

Maybe it's the wrong way

Fantasy

Escape reality

I miss you

I was happy only with you

Stars everywhere

Tears

Looking at the past

Wasted time

I wanted to escape

Now I want to live it again

I miss the old days

But it's too late

My desires

Illusions

Anxiety

Desperation

Avoidant personality disorder

Suicidal thoughts

Social anxiety disorder

Suicidal attempt

Depression

WHAT Else God What else will you give me What other disorder 😞🥺😣😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠

Why I have to experience these things

Why don't you listen to my prayers

Dear God

Dear spirit guides

Dear whoever cares and supports me

I beg you to help me

I am going through extremely difficult times

I feel like I am in prison

I have mental problems

I am very depressed.

I am pretty sure I have avoidant personality disorder.

Please 🥺🙏 I beg with all my heart

Guide me to the best possible path for me

Guide me the road of relaxation, happiness and peace

Guide me to meet true friends and soulmates

Guide me, just please 🙏

I beg you 😭

I am so extremely mentally exhausted

Please 🙏🙏🙏

Dad, please help me

Dad, if you ever cared for me please help me

Please 🙏🥺

Avoidant personality disorder.

I am having one of the worst days of my life 😭. It's very painful. I am very scared.

This f*cking social anxiety disorder kills me every day.

A goodbye

(but not really a goodbye. I just don't like the phrase "death note")

TO MY FAMILY

In general I didn't want to write a death note. Or whatever it's called. I never knew what to say.

I guess just don't be sad. It's fine.

I love you.

You know... it's hard to describe. I don't even want to describe how I felt or what happened.

I was born and now I am dead. Basically what happens to everyone.

I know I sound unemotional. I just didn't know what to write.

Just know that I won't be alone.

Love is everything. Keep loving. Keep living. Remember everything continues. Life continues even without me.

It's okay. Don't worry!

Goodbye!

I pray to the Universe

Please, let me fall asleep

Don't let me wake up

I will fall asleep and die

But that's not my end

I think I will finally live

In another magical world

Walking without a direction

Metaphorically

Maybe in reality too

Scared of everything

Anxiety kills me every day

Found a cliff

Windy

Jumping

Water

I can't swim

Pure water

Disaster

But in peace

Dead

Can I feel love?

Can I feel the desire?

Everything is clear now

I found the direction

But now it's too late

I am gone

A tree

Soil

Words

Tears

I am here

Illusion

I lost myself in other world

It scares me so much

I completely lost my identity

These crazy obsessions

The fake scenarios in my head

Ohhh it truly hurts me

Ending

The moment when you are ready

Calm mind when I think about it

And without feeling pressured

Muscles relaxed , feeling empty

But at the same time so confused

I may finally feel freedom

HIM

Somewhere

I can't find you

Are you even here?

Maybe it's an illusion

I want to feel your touch

I need you so much right now

Wish I could see you in this second

I want to kiss your hand and just feel peace

Born

The best generation

But mental illnesses

Regret

Not my fault

Embarrassment

Guilt

Forever

Can't express

Enough

But I can't stop

Overthinking

Labyrinth

No way out

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