Veins of Lightning

Life isn't going to be sunshine for a girl with lightning in her veins.

[calan-belcourt-blog]

  Calan smiled softly and nodded. As he said, the pain had mostly subsided and in its wake a simply bruise. The infirmary had been sure to help keep the swelling down and he was instructed to ice it every so often.

"I told you, Rai, it looks worse. It’ll be fine. I promise. Powers go array sometimes, but we heal,” he tried to keep the preaching from his tone. He hadn’t meant for this to be some lesson to her; though she wasn’t the only one who struggled. He did want her to know that.

[raipetrova-blog]

Rai took a deep breath smiling as she heard he was alright. Hugging him lightly and quickly she took a step away from him almost immediately after the small hug. She had been drinking quite a bit that day and her powers hadn't gone off much so she was sure that a small hug wouldn't hurt him. "I'm glad you're ok Calan." She gave him another small smile. "Are you busy?"

[leofairchild]

  Do not be worried about hurting any of us. Our nurses are more then capable of healing us. I can heal myself as well. 

[raipetrova-blog]

What if I hurt him beyond the help of the nurses? What if I killed him? I ouldn't live with myself. Dead is dead. There's no coming back from that Leo.

[calan-belcourt-blog]

"It’s worse than it looks," he assured the familiar figure that came in his room, stopping slightly. Had they heard about his afternoon? An antsy student with a nasty burst of power in his class. Luckily it had only left him with a headache and blackening eye.

[raipetrova-blog]

Rai looked at Calan and gasped when she saw his face. Hurrying over to him she reached up touching his cheek before quickly withdrawing her hand from him remembering it wasn't safe. "Calan are you okay? It looks like it hurts."

[raipetrova-blog]

Sorry I..I didn't know anyone was in here.

[msabigailbennett-deactivated201]

  Abi shrugged her slender shoulders as she ran a hand over the cat’s back, she was sleek yet old. Her lips brushed against her head before she smiled, backing away slowly as she shrugged. “You think my power is mild because it could be dangerous? Or Clayton’s.. what about Etta? I know a man that can… look at someone and compel them to do things against their will….. your ability is no more dangerous than theirs.”

Her eyes were far away for a moment, as she gathered the makings for her tea. The kettle, the tea cups and the leaves. Her fingers were deft, it was something she did for Calan daily so they could talk when he was home. She loved the man as if he were her elder brother. “My power draws written word to life, I can draw master tacticians into reality, war lords, tornado, killer animals… anything may chance my own mind could come  up with I could bring to life. But do I? No. Power such as that is too much…”

[raipetrova-blog]

Rai looked down as she was chastised by Abi. Rai looked up to and admired the woman adn hated being chastised by her but she knew they wouldn't come to an agreement on this subject. Rai knew that what Abi said was true but she couldn't help how she felt. Instead of continuing an argument that would go nowhere Rai looked back up pasting a small smile to her face as she nodded. "You're right of course Abi."

[leofairchild]

  Would you be afraid of hurting me? 

[raipetrova-blog]

I do not wish to hurt anyone Leo though in truth I would rather hurt you than him.

[claytonbeauchamp]

  "All of us feel like that in times when we lost control. I have and I know I thought that exact same thing, especially with powers capable of hurting someone. But control isn’t elusive, you’ll get it." He actually gave a serious answer, a smile on his face.

[raipetrova-blog]

"Perhaps someday I will." Rai gave him an unconvincing answer but told him what she knew he probably wanted to hear as they would never come to an agreement on the subject.

[claytonbeauchamp]

  His smile faltered for the briefest moment before he had it right back in place. “Nonsense. Did someone tell you that? Tell me who, I’d like to have a word with them. You’ll get control over your powers. And that little shock? It barely stung, no one needs to avoid you.”

[raipetrova-blog]

Rai couldn't help but be grateful for his comments even though she believed none of them. "No one needs to tell me that. I know what I've done. What I'm capoable of. Control is so elusive I feel as if I will never grasp it. I do appreciate your kind words though."

[msabigailbennett-deactivated201]

  "Rai be brave." she knew Calan well, to be honst the man was much like a brother to her and she loved him dearly. As they approached her home she walked inside, letting the woman’s arm go quickly as she shooed the dog away from the door.

"You’re not going to hurt anyone. I believe part of your problem is the belief that you will hurt someone. Acceptance, and understanding is part of it… Lola please.. don’t sleep on my shawl.." sighing she moved the aging cat off of the shawl that was tossed over a winged back chair. "Have a seat, I’ll make some tea and feed the animals."

[raipetrova-blog]

Rai gave Abi a small smile as she took a seat. "I know that's probably true that my own disbelief in my abilities to control my power doesn't help anything but I'm so scared Abi. I look at all the things I've done and all I see is bad. I wish I didn't have this power. It's too dangerous to even exist." Rai looked down at her lap nodding for a moment. "Tea sounds nice. Thank you."

[leofairchild]

  Don’t be afraid to hurt him, we is here to help you. 

[raipetrova-blog]

There's no way for me to not be afraid of hurting him. I simply refuse to put him in danger because I'm a weak person.

[leofairchild]

  That’s the problem, are you getting training from people?

[raipetrova-blog]

So would it not be a problem if I had meant to? Calan is trying to help me but I'm afraid of hurting him.

[msabigailbennett-deactivated201]

  "From what I can gather it’s one o the things that makes him the happiest.  He’d keep them both in his room in the dorms if he could, but as he can’t they live with me." she gave Rai a small smile. "You don’t have to worry so much… you’re working with Calan correct?"

[raipetrova-blog]

Rai looked up at Abi giving her a small nod and smile. "I am but it scares me to work with him because I don't wantt o hurt him. I don't want to hurt anyone but especially not him. I think it would be better for people if I just stayed away from everyone."

[rosaliekings]

  Rosalie frowns at Rai when she notices her eyes look watery. “Don’t feel bad.”

[raipetrova-blog]

"I can't help it. I'm so sorry if I hurt you. I have no control over my power and I really am a dangerous person. You should probably stay away from me."

[claytonbeauchamp]

  "You, the menace to society? Are you trying to take my role from me Rai? I will defend my title, you’re not even close." Seeing the sad smile on her face he tried another joke to let her know she hadn’t done anything wrong. 

[raipetrova-blog]

Rai gave him an attempt at a real smile but she knew that it didn't look real. Letting out a sad laugh she rolled her eyes at him. "I truly am a menace though Clay. I'm like a walking death trap and people should all just avoid me."

[calan-belcourt-blog]

  "I suppose I’d admit it if you dragged it out of me. Though if you told Leo that, I dare say our friendship would be over,” he teased slightly. While he and the other man were friends, they wouldn’t admit it under pain of death it seemed.

His face dropped at her admission. He knew the look in her eyes, the helplessness, the fear. He’d felt it himself so many years ago: the black sheep of his mundane family. “You can control them, Rai. You will. I know its difficult but giving up now means, you’ll only have yourself to blame for your fear…”

[raipetrova-blog]

Rai allowed a small pout to form on her lips as she gave Calan a sad look. "Would our friendship truly be over Calan? That would break my heart." She looked down at her hands as she fidgeted with her fingers. "As for my powers I am sure that not having control of them is my fault. I wish there was a way to just get rid of them. Would you help me try to learn control though Calan?" She didn't truly want to ask him for his help in fear of hurting him but she didn't trust anyone else.

[msabigailbennett-deactivated201]

  "When you are responsible for them, Rai, that means something else." Avi sighed though she said nothing. For her part she attempted to give the girl as much normalcy as she could manage. She knew that she was afraid she’d hurt her, and she had the utmost faith in the girl. "My brother speaks to them, they’ve always been more Lucas’s than mine."

[raipetrova-blog]

Rai nodded knowing full well that Abi was right about the responsibility. She would probably just end up hurting an animal anyway. "Does he? That's so cool! Does he like his power?"

[claytonbeauchamp]

  "It’s fine!" Instead of continuing to tease her about the shock he back tracked, knowing how awful losing control of your powers could be. That was one of the few things he wasn’t known to make jokes about. "Honestly, I’ve had worse. Trust me. Are you alright?"

[raipetrova-blog]

Rai gave him a sad smile grateful for his kindness. "I'm fine I'm just sad that I hurt you. I'm a menace to society."