𝐁𝐄 𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐃 / 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐘 𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓 @rakane - Tumblr Blog

𝚆𝙴𝙻𝙲𝙾𝙼𝙴 𝚃𝙾 𝚁𝙰𝙺𝙰𝙽𝙴. independent selective 𝚁𝙰𝙺𝙰𝙽 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙼𝙴𝚁 of riot games' 𝙻𝙴𝙰𝙶𝚄𝙴 𝙾𝙵 𝙻𝙴𝙶𝙴𝙽𝙳𝚂. penned by gaunter ( he / him, 18+ )

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consider: arcane verse rakan as a young teen being captured and taken to zaun after the lhotlan exile him

#i have so much brainrot for this and I’m about to make it everyone else’s problem #💕 𝐆𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐄𝐍 𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃𝐒 𝐁𝐎𝐘!! ― ooc.

honestly i almost feel like the star guardian voice lines give more credence to rakan as a character than his default ones

#like yes hes an evil little shit who calls everyone nerds and dweebs but also #some of them hit very close to home #him talking about not wanting to be alone... the insistence that he has to die first bc he cant watch it happen to xayah...#everybody laughing at star guardian bc its just the silly sailor moon verse vs me reading into it way more than im probably meant to KJDSCNK #💕 𝐆𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐄𝐍 𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃𝐒 𝐁𝐎𝐘!! ― ooc.

i know rakan is supposed to be slender and relatively thin because hes an agile dancer but also ... i implore you to consider rakan with just a little extra beef as seen here and here

#hes just a lil thicc #ALSO THE LONG HAIR #rakan has the star guardian hair cut in canon too bc i said so #and also he is soft and has some tittie bc he enjoys snacks very much #especially chocolate #give him some chocolate and he'll love you forever #💕 𝐆𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐄𝐍 𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃𝐒 𝐁𝐎𝐘!! ― ooc.

ok guys I need you to understand that when I say I can ship pretty much anything, I’m not kidding ……. ksusha and I are plotting things between jesse mccree and jaina proudmoore all bc we joked about rye cookie from cookie run looking like their love child

#I AM MENTALLY ILL!!!!#COME TO ME WITH YOUR SHIP IDEAS I WILL ALMOST CERTAINLY LOVE THEM ALL WITH BARELY ANY EFFORT ON YOUR PART #unless it’s freak shit obviously in which case Leave #BUT I JUST. SCREAMS #💕 𝐆𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐄𝐍 𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃𝐒 𝐁𝐎𝐘!! ― ooc.

@xayahe asked : ❛ i can’t do this without you . ❜ nothing but vulnerable : accepting.

𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄 𝐈𝐓 is, in all of its breathlessness. the admittance cracks his heart in his ribcage with a SNAP so loud he wonders how she does not hear it; oh, xayah. her shoulders hang heavy with the weight of the world, and his with all the skeletons in her closet. he is not so naive to think that either of them could win their forest back alone. he is not sure how he could EXIST without her. not anymore.

and this is when the fear comes ― what will become of her when you are gone ?? she already strips herself to the bone for the cause each night and bleaches her insides in the light of the moon, and his warmth can barely keep her afloat. how will she fare when the MIST comes, and it takes and takes and takes ?? she has nothing left to give. the circles under her eyes are as dark as her feathers, these days, and she is wasting away before rakan’s very eyes ― all for the sake of a duty that should never have been hers.

another thought rises like a snake, poised to strike: what if i am not enough ??

❝ xayah … ❞ her name is but a whisper on the breeze as he pulls the raven into his arms, flush against his chest. clawed fingers settle protectively against her cheek and he struggles to find the right words: i’m worried about you. i don’t want to lose you. i’m afraid of what’s coming. what he chooses is far easier for her to digest. ❝ hey, it’s okay, i’m NEVER gonna leave you. we’re in this together ― i promise, baby, it’s all gonna be okay. ❞

( ... but will you be ?? )

#// I SAW YOU SEND THIS AND I WAS FUCKING POSSESSED OKAY #// P O S S E S S E D #// anyways :) pre ruined rakan? :)))#💕 𝐖𝐀𝐑 𝐈𝐒 𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 ― ic.#💕 𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄 𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐔𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐀𝐈𝐍'𝐓 𝐂𝐑𝐀𝐙𝐘 ― answered.#xayahe

really thinking about ruined rakan tonight and his feelings about viego and realizing how similar he and viego rlly are, granted not nearly to the same extent

#the willingness to kill and destroy for the women they love …….. hm #💕 𝐆𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐄𝐍 𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃𝐒 𝐁𝐎𝐘!! ― ooc.

ohisms

𝑵𝑶𝑻𝑯𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑩𝑼𝑻 𝑽𝑼𝑳𝑵𝑬𝑹𝑨𝑩𝑳𝑬 . ( soft angst starters. )

❛ i can’t do this without you . ❜ ❛ it’s not safe for people to see us together . ❜ ❛ please don’t leave me alone . ❜ ❛ i don’t want to know . ❜ ❛ just go . get out of here , go . ❜ ❛ i can’t even trust myself , anymore . ❜ ❛ there’s nothing left for me here . ❜ ❛ i still need you . ❜ ❛ i only wanted to help . ❜ ❛ why are you doing this ? ❜ ❛ tell me it’s not true . please . ❜ ❛ i have to do this alone . ❜ ❛ how did you get this scar ? ❜ ❛ you don’t have to tell me . ❜ ❛ don’t yell at me . ❜ ❛ i never meant to hurt you . ❜ ❛ things are getting bad again . ❜ ❛ you should go . ❜ ❛ you’ve said enough . ❜ ❛ how dare you ? ❜ ❛ why are you still here ? ❜ ❛ you deserve better . ❜ ❛ i don’t want to talk about it . ❜ ❛ how can i fix this ? ❜ ❛ why do you hate me ? ❜ ❛ i just want to feel something . ❜ ❛ don’t lie to me . ❜ ❛ did you ever care about me ? ❜ ❛ i don’t regret any of it . not a single thing . ❜ ❛ how could you say that ? ❜ ❛ i never asked for this . ❜ ❛ this isn’t you . ❜ ❛ i need to go . i can’t be here . ❜ ❛ what’s that supposed to mean ? ❜ ❛ i’m not sober enough to talk about this . ❜ ❛ thank you for being gentle with me . ❜ ❛ how can i possibly trust you ? after all you’ve done ? ❜ ❛ don’t run away from this . ❜ ❛ you don’t understand . ❜ ❛ please , i can’t do this right now . ❜ ❛ can you forgive me ? ❜

#gently sets this here #💕 𝐖𝐇𝐘 𝐈𝐒 𝐈𝐓 𝐓𝐀𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐎 𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐎 𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐓𝐎 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍?? ― memes.

rakan’s head is just elevator music playing at all times

#rakan vc if im already good why do i have to think?#💕 𝐆𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐄𝐍 𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃𝐒 𝐁𝐎𝐘!! ― ooc.

hey babe spell icup