a love for the lonely

and I am just another soul, stuck in the confines of this physical world, and yearning for a place I cannot see

[ramblesofateenagesoul]

GUYS HELLO YOU CAN STOP FOLLOWING THIS BLOG I'M SORRY I WON't BE POSTING HERE ANYMORE YUP THAT'S IT THANKS FOR THE FAITHFUL FOLLOWING YA'LL HAVE BEEN DOING FOR HOWEVER LONG I'VE HAD THIS BLOG YES THANKS BYE.

[octopussoir-]

[whothefuckareyoutojudge]

[ramblesofateenagesoul]

yeah, I wish when I say that I am sick of life and people, the person I tell that to wouldn't give me this look and say, "you're just sad" or "antisocial much?"

I just.

I don't even want to share what I feel anymore with anyone else because they don't understand or they treat it like it doesn't matter and I'm so sick of caring for people when welp, do you actually care for me? and please don't tell me that you do really do like really. save your words because I probably wouldn't believe you anyway.

I'm done with people giving me weird looks when I say something that the general population doesn't believe in like, "girls want a guy that's experienced in kissing" uhm no wow I could start a debate about that but I'm not going to.

basically done with everything and why can't I be more Christlike

[ramblesofateenagesoul]

Hello! I need your help. I want to help those people struggling from depression, self-harm, etc. And to do that, i need kind hearts to join me in this. Please take a moment to visit steptowardschange,tumblr,com :) i also hope you'll be able to spread the message, thanks!

[ramblesofateenagesoul]

You make me feel so bad because you're always so nice to me, and I'm always so brutally honest.

[vacants]

untitled by natalya lobanova on Flickr.

[infiniteneverafter]

[ramblesofateenagesoul]

I can't tell if this is just PMS or? I mean, gods, I really hate everything right now. Everything. And I especially hate myself and my thoughts and how I feel and how I am and my body, and my personality, and everything, and wow, I am an unworthy, ungrateful brat that honestly deserves to go rot in hell so why am I not there yet.

And I haven't talked to God in a month or so, and it sucks, but a part of me feels like I don't want to pick up my prayer life and my Christian walk again, and gods, what is wrong with me? Maybe that's why everything sucks so much at the moment.

What is life. Like, seriously, what is life, what is it good for me anymore.

oh my gods i am such a whining bitch

and since when did I start to cuss?

yeah I hate this and myself

and I want to repent but I feel like I can't anymore

God, help.

[ramblesofateenagesoul]

Once upon a time, my life was filled with drama.

Now it's filled with people telling me about their drama.

[ramblesofateenagesoul]

Daniel S: When are we ever going to use logarithms? I mean, it's not like I'm going to measure a shark or anything...

Mr. S: Oh, well, you could measure sharks when you get into the marine biology department in college or something.

Daniel S: No, I mean, when am I ever going to use logs and natural bases in McDonalds?

[moonlight-path]

[dignitea]

[ramblesofateenagesoul]

Ha, okay, here's the thing.

I wish you all would respect my decisions, and especially you who gets mad at me for not living up to your expectations, for doing something you wouldn't do, or for not "satisfying" you. Honestly, getting mad at me just because I'm not watching or staying for the soccer game is kind of really stupid, isn't it?

Very.

And if people, but especially you, are going to treat me like this for me wanting some time alone, and do not respect the fact that I am stepping out of my comfort zone, but now I need some space for one day, than I think I will just stop trying.

[1naniloquent-blog]

Is it ever not my fault anyway

[ramblesofateenagesoul]

I think I understand those people who have enough evidence of who God is, and what Jesus can do, but still deny Him because of their own pride, because I'm feeling it at the moment. It's like this big door of opportunity, like this big patch of light in darkness, but it feels so awkward to go there, you know? Because we're scared that if we do go there, things won't be as great as we think it would be, and we're going to be mocked and ridiculed.

And we're scared of bruising our pride to run with arms wide open to Someone who can save us, and I'll admit, I'm feeling this at the moment, and it's really hard to just run to Jesus, because I feel so dirty and unworthy and a scoundrel.

It's just. Good is a hard choice and a hard path, and it's even harder to humble myself at the foot of the cross, to acknowledge that I have done nothing to earn salvation, but it just feels so humiliating in a way to me, and I don't even know how to explain it.

[yanilavigne]