My self, my voice

I'm Bucky and this is where I post my rambly stuff that is related to autism, mental illness, et cetera.

[ramblingautistic]

i’m going to close applications for a little bit - 100 new people have applied!

[ramblingautistic]

hey so I still have this neurodiversity discord! It’s slowing down as a lot of people share other servers and there aren’t many people so I’m hoping to bring it back!

if you want to join a discord for ND people, fill out this form here

also you don't have to but if you can it'd be appreciated if you could reblog this to help get the word out!

[ramblingautistic]

hey so I still have this neurodiversity discord! It’s slowing down as a lot of people share other servers and there aren’t many people so I’m hoping to bring it back!

if you want to join a discord for ND people, fill out this form here

[young-beautiful-and-lesbian-blog]

MGG is overrated and overhyped and Reid is not nearly as attractive as y'all think ok.

[matthewgodgubler]

[ramblingautistic]

anyway almost everybody i’ve seen who Loves Reid is autistic, let us have one character

[ramblingautistic]

dont make him go to the dance? he doesnt like dances?

this is all weird

something about episode 6 feels weird

this is. ridiculous

an NT talking about autism? shut the fuck up

friends going to the dance together. y’know whats better? lesbians.

[ramblingautistic]

Till now would you say the show is good enough to watch?

so far, i’m over half way through episode 6.

I’m personally not a fan of the show - it’s clear to me that this show was made for Autism Moms, though I can understand why autistics could like it - sam is a very relatable character, so is Casey. 

It’s better than I expected. Still full of functioning labels, person first language, etc...

I’d say that it really depends. I can handle the stray r-slur in a show as long as I know it’s coming (first episode, by the way), and I can deal with other ableism left and right when I’m expecting it. But I could only do it because I knew going in that it was going to be bad.

[ramblingautistic]

joh no hes having a sensory bad!!!! sensory overload me too bby

still hate the mom

~higher functioning kiddos~ shut the fuck up

this show is clearly so much for Autism Moms

“there is no ‘getting better’ in autism”  i will write a post about this later fuck. off.

paige is also autistic because i said so

“chicken fingers” “from the box?” “from the box” *victory* samefoods!!!

k at least julia isnt a person first language person

anyway,, elsa can fuck off with her cheating and can this damn show please stop treating her cheating like it gave her ptsd

i love zahid, paige is definitely autistic

“i don’t know, it’s a rule” “well now that i know it’s a rule I won’t do it again” both autistic. obviously.

yep i like evan now what a good boy

god i really hate elsa

@ paige let him infodump

i stand by shes undiagnosed autistic but they’re conflicting types of autistic (shes a very tactile autistic and hes a my things are an extension of myself autistic, shes a too much info is overwhelming autistic while hes a info!!!! autistic

god the college guy good for him “yep im a dick” good job owning up to your behavior

god casey’s “sam takes up so much space everyone around him has to be empty” is uhhhh definitely a Moment. i still like her and that was probably more ‘undiagnosed casey feels like she cant be autistic because sam already is’

sam needs his own place yknow

god sam no you cant just come into someones french class

ok that was cute

the kiss is very awkward, big mood

elsa stop fuckin’ cheating what the fuck

[ramblingautistic]

good that sam has his own laundry soap tbh i’ve always used unscented and couldnt stand using scented laundry soap

casey: *vomit noise at pda between parents* me: big mood

comfort clothes big mood

comfy comfy comfy comfy comfy god i love his problems with clothes same my dude

god me too casey being bad @ pictures big mood

ugh elsa trying to send her son into sensory overload leave him alone

zahid! he’s here! what a pal

the mom in the store is a shit destroy her

i love the whale shirt though. good shirt.

ok @ zahid dont make this boy wear a sensory bad jacket @ sam good job just getting rid of it

i really like casey and sam, zahid is pretty cool, evan is totally autistic. everyone else can fuck off

[ramblingautistic]

so im just gonna: characters

i like sam hes very relatable as an autistic and i appreciate that he does show some blunt rude stuff while also being willing to learn and accept that those things are rude even if he doesnt understand why (though people rarely mention ‘hey thats rude’)

casey is also clearly autistic and i love her, that’s a very realistic sibling relationship so far.

dont like his mom (elsa? dont care)

like his dad so far but from what i’ve seen from others im expecting to not like him for long.

[ramblingautistic]

god same “looking nice is hard”

i still like casey.

pacing me too big circles are Good

i still hate his mom

i really hate his mom

-friend’s name is zahid

-i wish i could confidently say that they’re gonna end up together but i cant

what did doug did?

i hate the autism mom group

i hate the mom shes so bad for casey too

punch her again.

anyway kids can be fuck off

shutdown time! big mood

im liking casey more and more every second

casey also happy stims!!!! good gorl

also evan is considerably less uhhhhhhhhhhhh bad than i thought he shows lots of asd traits too

and the mom is gonna cheat what is this the i am autism video

ok episode 2 done

[ramblingautistic]

noice cancelling headphnes i love him

ok big second-hand embarrassment during that date

i still like that work friend though

good happy stimmy! i lov him

thats a surprisingly good job at not being insulting while being very blunt

i like this girl.

evan, however, i still dont like

same touch!

nevermind i hate her

casey bringing her brother comfort food (well drink but yknow)

~nobodys normal~ shut up evan

god the mom is so gross

i like his dad better. sees his son is upset and brings him to see penguins and sits in a corner with him. however ive heard bad things so im nervous for the future

sam no you cant date your therapist

this brings us to the end of episode 1

[ramblingautistic]

research is good.

his work friend is good. well, at least less bad.

damn i already forgot the sister’s name but she punched a girl for being a dick good gorl

echolalia is fun

o her name is casey cool good name 

“nothings wrong with him”

i like kinda like casey, the head-smack threw me off but unless it becomes apparent that she directly ignores sam’s aboundaries i like her

“i love our son” i can feel the “but i hate his autism” in the rest of the sentence

not a fan of her disrupting his hyperfocus but y’know cool

k im seeing where everyones saying casey is also autistic and i agree and that guy evan is a dick

[ramblingautistic]

connecting everything to his SpIn? A+

gud job w noise cancelling headphones

bird SpIn too? nice

god also not able to take a picture of himself

a gud infodump

a turtle named edision? i lov him

god i hate the emotion cards i’ll explain that in a different thing

“sam’s not like us” she says in a tone that says “i hate him”

“had a freakout in the store” leave him alone!!!!!!! “my son being autistic hurts me so much :(”

interrupts presentation because you dont like your son not needing you

stop doubting the therapist so much? i mean i dont like her either but really?

~i want my son to be alone forever because itll be hard for him~

[ramblingautistic]

ok good sign: he starts with stimming

likes penguins! and antarctica in general

very blunt and very literal

“~on the spectrum~” uh shhhhhhhh

i dont like his therapist “just put yourself out there” really? just say that to an autistic

and im up to the first intro.

so far: not a fan of his family, yes a fan of how many autistic traits are shown, not a fan of how they make him out to be rude because of autistic traits when most of us are taught early on to not do things like point out bra straps out loud and mention sex during dinner but idk its only been 4 minutes

[ramblingautistic]

hey im starting my liveblogging of atypical! i wont be putting the posts in the actuallyautistic tag (just this one so if anyone wants to see my posts they can) and they’ll all be tagged with “show: atypical” if you want to blacklist it! i’ll be posting a review at the end on @walkinredinstead

[preserveswerve]

Question to all people on the autism spectrum, when you found out that you had ASD, what were your feelings on it?

I’m asking this cause I have ASD (Aspergers) and I’m still having a hard time,, idk, accepting it?? I’m just confused tbh

[ramblingautistic]

i first found out by figuring it out myself and I was really happy. The online autistic community is super helpful in acceptance so if you’re having a hard time thats something i really recommend! when i found out that i was almost diagnosed as a kid (i wasnt because they said to “not get a diagnosis unless it gets in the way”), that was when i had a hard time, but that was because i pretty much took it as my parents saw me struggling, knew why, and never told me.

i run @autismpositive which is a purely positive autism blog, and positive stuff is usually helpful in acceptance. i also found amythest schaber’s youtube series Ask An Autistic super helpful both in understanding myself and in accepting myself - they do a great job of explaining how something works and why we act the ways we do, which really helps with acceptance too for some reason!

[ramblingautistic]

me, before i started photo editing: why are there so many black and white gifs? color is great and the video they come from are in color so???

me now: *tries to get the right color for something* wrong. wrong. wrong. wrong. wrong. wrong. right! no still wrong. wrong wrong. wrong. wrong. wrong. wrong. wrong. wro-