Just finished the trials of Apollo and I NEED TO TALK ABOUT IT
These books were so different to me because they directly revolved around a topic Rick clearly wanted to touch - abuse. Specifically, familial abuse. Personally I think heād done it gracefully in a way that really sinks in for me now, but Iām not a victim of abuse and donāt pretend to understand the subject.
Regardless, I think the way Rick wrote Apollo, Lester, was absolute perfection. Thereās an art to writing a literal god in first person perspective, and have him be one of the most human characters in the entire franchise.
Lester STRUGGLES. And heās not perfect at all, he doesnāt even begin to understand everything at the start - not the world, not consequences, not the stakes and not the people around him. But fuck he learns, he learns the hard way, the only way, by doing. And itās not a linear journey either - between book 1 and his more or less lucid identity in book 5, he goes back and forth between learning, and relapsing to his old ways, and learning again, and trusting and understand and rising victorious in all the confusion. He doesnāt shy away from his emotions - he cries a lot, and gets frustrated, and laughs. He learns to feel for other people. But he also learns to heal himself. And he does it by helping others heal, too.
To me, this red thread tying the books together by a common serious subject, made the reading somehow more whole. I canāt explain it, but Apollo slowly verbalising (well, thinking), realising there are similarities between his relationship with Zeus to Megās relationship with Nero, was so satisfying. Although I feel like āsatisfyingā might be a bit of a harsh word. Mostly I felt proud of him. I /felt/ for him, so very much, for so long. Heās likeable because heās so human, and that includes both his silly and tragic sides, because these coexist within all of us. And I think he as a character encompassed that beautifully.
Reading that last book, expecting a showdown of sorts between Apollo and his father, and receiving a short conversation, an understanding, instead, was amazing. Because thatās Rickās way of showing us whatās important. No use trying to fix what we canāt, what isnāt our responsibility to fix, what makes us miserable. Humans have this natural ability to rise from their own disasters and forge out of them their own paths in life. And Apollo did just that. It took him time, but thatās how it goes for all of us. And instead of fighting Zeus, he chose happiness. He chose focusing on whatās important, his old hobbies, his friends.
In a way, Iām bittersweet- I wish he didnāt have to stay at Olympus. I wish he could spend as much time as heād like on earth. But the thing is, a god is what he /is/. But now, he understands for the first time that he gets to pick what kind of god he should be.
And he chose the human kind.