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“Never trust people who don’t have something in their lives that they love beyond all reason.”

— Fredrik Backman

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this ring around my neck…

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This TINY diamond engagement ring my Dad bought my Mum to propose. They were only 20, saving for a house and he couldn't afford much. It's a one of a kind from a jewellery expo. It only fits my pinky finger but I never take it off.

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Jealousy and stuff

So…how normal is it to be jealous of a sibling?

I don’t wish him any ill will or anything but i seem to be extremely jealous of my brother…he has his life together by “normal societal standards”. He has what i feel is the perfect life. He did well at school, never really got into drugs, went to uni, got a job where he worked his way to the top, only had a few relationships before settling down, buying a house and getting married. On the honeymoon he got his wife pregnant, they now have a baby, both are full time employed and extremely happy.

I, on the other hand, finished school, did a tafe course which I’ll probably never use, had a few short jobs before getting employed by a public hospital where I’ve worked for 11 years at the sane entry level position. I’ve had several failed relationships where i allowed myself to be disrespected and verbally abused, got married and became a stepmother for a few years then ended it because my husband was too mentally unstable for me to handle. I’ve battled with addiction, I’ve lost friends, I’ve been forcefully evicted from a premises by a sheriff, moved to a dangerous neighbourhood where I’m scared to be outside at night time, been punched in the face by a guy i used to sleep with and I’ve had two people i trusted con me out of over $2000. But I’ve met the most amazing man in the world who treats me better than anyone ever has.

Still, despite my happiness i feel jealous…i want a baby, i want to have job satisfaction, i want to have that “perfect” life sometimes. Other times i think it would bore me maybe. I don’t know, it would just be kinda nice to have people be jealous of my life.

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Update... My brother now has 2 kids, I've been at my job 15 years, i don't ever want a baby, and relationships are stupid.

Just a little thing I wrote the other night. I've always felt peace in the ocean. Like I'm surrounded by so much energy and power, and yet I feel safe. The beach that you may be able to see in the lettering is a photo I took of the beach from Fletcher Park #beach #poetry #wordnerd #quote #newcastlensw #ocean #thalassophile #personification https://www.instagram.com/p/CKGxw4xAGnrT9_hjVRLXC5uaHxLmRIGWQiNxvk0/?igshid=9vj8sdpwwunh

#beach #poetry #wordnerd #quote #newcastlensw #ocean #thalassophile #personification

Haven't had a good rant in ages because I deadset can't think of anything I'm even passionate enough about to rant.

culturenlifestyle

Second Life Toys Campaign Promotes Organ Donation With the Use of Old Toys

Japan’s organization Second Life Toys is hoping to promote the awareness of organ donation with a tender and provocative message. With the use of children’s stuffed animals, they appoint new limbs to the broken toys, in order to save them and make them whole again.

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I LOVE this

Jealousy and stuff

So...how normal is it to be jealous of a sibling?

I don't wish him any ill will or anything but i seem to be extremely jealous of my brother...he has his life together by "normal societal standards". He has what i feel is the perfect life. He did well at school, never really got into drugs, went to uni, got a job where he worked his way to the top, only had a few relationships before settling down, buying a house and getting married. On the honeymoon he got his wife pregnant, they now have a baby, both are full time employed and extremely happy.

I, on the other hand, finished school, did a tafe course which I'll probably never use, had a few short jobs before getting employed by a public hospital where I've worked for 11 years at the sane entry level position. I've had several failed relationships where i allowed myself to be disrespected and verbally abused, got married and became a stepmother for a few years then ended it because my husband was too mentally unstable for me to handle. I've battled with addiction, I've lost friends, I've been forcefully evicted from a premises by a sheriff, moved to a dangerous neighbourhood where I'm scared to be outside at night time, been punched in the face by a guy i used to sleep with and I've had two people i trusted con me out of over $2000. But I've met the most amazing man in the world who treats me better than anyone ever has.

Still, despite my happiness i feel jealous...i want a baby, i want to have job satisfaction, i want to have that "perfect" life sometimes. Other times i think it would bore me maybe. I don't know, it would just be kinda nice to have people be jealous of my life.

#life #siblings #jealousy #jealousrant #sometimeshappy #sometimesunhappy #foodforthought

thoughtsoftheshower

Your brain is the most important part of your body, but it’s also the part of your body that’s telling you that.

showerthoughtsofficial

I have never once wanted to turn on Sticky Keys

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Oh my god yes! I fucking hate sticky keys

So i just finally caught up on some emails and for me that usually means I looked at some email catalogues from my favourite stores. Upon opening my email from Kmart I cast my eyes on a stunning little down syndrome girl modelling and it honestly just made me so happy i smiled at my phone. I love that Kmart regularly use people with various disabilities in their catalogues, it's absolutely fantastic to show that these people, who often don't fit into society's idea of what it is to be attractive, can be shown to be just as capable and indeed just as beautiful as non-disabled models. I like to believe this has nothing to do with the political correctness that is all too rife in our society and is more about giving everyone an equal opportunity to show off their talent and let people see that beauty and happiness comes in several forms. I know it might not seem like much to some people but to me it's a step in the right direction and I applaud it. That's all for now.

#kmart #kmartstyling #model #downsyndrome #disability #disabled #beautiful #beautycomesinmanyforms #sohappy #dontdiscriminate

This is kinda a mediocre article but I loved one part of it "When you're depressed, it's a struggle to just get out of bed," she explains over email. "It makes other things that other, healthy people do, so overwhelming. It's like trying to run a marathon when you've been in a coma for years." The amount of times that I've heard people (including myself) say "oh depressed people just need to get out more", "they just need to get a job or a hobby", "they just need to think of the positives, it could be worse", "they just need meds" etc I'm the first to admit that I probably wear my positive pants too often, it drives those closest to me insane because I constantly sound like I'm trivializing their issues when I'm really just trying to offer perspective. My point is, until you've lived with depression/anxiety or attempted to support someone with either or both of these issues you can't say they should "just" do anything. It is a daily struggle. It isn't something that people can just snap out of, it's not a conscious decision to just be miserable. People who have a negative thought pattern occurring don't have the ability to switch that part of their brain off, it's a cycle. They're aware of the impact they're having on people but constantly feel like a burden, they withdraw because they don't want to upset others by expressing how they feel every day because they know it'll ruin the mood. Depression and anxiety are fucked up. They take all the quality from a person's life and then start to try and steal the happiness from loved ones' lives. These are parasitic illnesses and the more you think about the real problems, the more the parasite seems to feed off you. I wouldn't wish the struggles of dealing with depression or anxiety on anyone, whether you're a patient, a carer, a friend, a family member, anyone. There is no discrimination in mental illness, it can choose anyone at anytime. If you know and love someone suffering with mental illness, if you have the strength, try and support them emotionally because the one thing that can help people pull through is a support network. I believe that to be true with a lot of issues, with good support systems in place humans can overcome a lot of issues in life. Don't be afraid to be persistent and don't take it personally if you're pushed away, it's usually not personal. I think I'll leave my rant at that. Please know that if you or someone you care about is suffering mental illness, you're not alone and it won't last forever. Peace. Xo

#depression #anxiety #mental health #mental illness #rant #carers #friends #family #struggle

showerthoughtsofficial

The word literally is now used figuratively more than it is used literally.

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This is so true and it literally annoys me...and I mean that literally not figuratively.

The Bulbasaur army is approaching…get yours now 👌

#pokémon #pokemon #bulbasaur #starter pokemon #plantbased #planter #3d printing #abs #pla #up plus 2 #pop culture #popcultsquad

thelastmessagereceived

“You’ve been there through everything, and I’m so sorry I’ve been such a fuck up. And I’m sorry to call you like this. But I just needed to hear a friendly voice to help me not be scared. I love you.”

Those are the last words my best friend said to me on the phone before she picked up a gun and shot herself. I was still on the phone with her when she did it. We were 14-years old. I’m 33 now, and I will never forget those words and the ear-splitting pop that followed. I hear them in my dreams.

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If this ever happened to me I don't even know how I'd cope 😭