It's been ages since the last time I reached out to any of you. Lately I've been diving back again into the beautiful desperate ocean our former favorite show was made of. I have a friend who willingly decided to dive into it side by side with me, I'm giving her a taste of what it felt like to be a Kabby shipper back in the good old days. She's aware of how hard it's going to be, how things will eventually unravel and simply vanish into thin air. But she's a good friend and is here with me, side by side, because that's what friends do. This made me think of all those years ago, when we were a big family. Not always satisfied and happy with what the show gave us, but always hopeful for a better outcome, for that happy ending we were waiting for since the very beginning. We never got it, I am aware. I mourned and digested it for years after what happened. It took me a really long time but eventually... I was able to come out of the darkness and see a brighter future for my fangirl life once again. I fell in love with a new show, another ship came around and helped me cope. These days though I am once again here, watching old videos, reading old works, feeling old things I thought I was never gonna feel again. Honestly, Abby and Marcus are never gonna stop affecting me, and for that I am actually grateful. This ship helped me get through so much, and I'm not saying it just for show, it's actually true and I am actually grateful for all the support the fandom I found thanks to it, gave me as well. I don't speak with anyone anymore from back then unfortunately, but I still hold onto all of those memories. I will never forget the laughs, the night talks, the days spent asking ourselves what was about to happen and how we wished some things changed. We lived the ride side by side, I had a chance to meet some of you and it's been absolutely amazing. The human connections I had thanks to this show and this couple will forever be one of the greatest gifts. Not to mention the fact that I actually met both of them in the flesh and I am still recovering from the beauty of it all. This little rambling was just to say that I still remember how it felt, how good it was and no matter the awful outcome, I still remember with a smile all those days, all those times we spent together over here and any other social. We shared so much and I discovered so many new things I could do and enjoy. I wanted to share just some good vibes with the beautiful people who were here with me back then, never forget we had it good for a while. It will never be enough, I know it was a real disappointment, I know it broke us big time... But never forget the beautiful souls you met along the way, never forget the good memories, never forget Paige tweeting with the cast and her fans, making our day. Hold onto the good things and remember that no matter what, we were in it together. Still love you all, may we meet again... I hope โฅ