Ok i know this is stupid, but i miss my brother so fucking much, he died a few years ago of cancer. He also had a blow issue, and so did i for a while, but i fucking beat it! He would have been so proud that i beat it. And last week, for the first time in over a year, there was this perfect storm of using again without relapsing. And i felt so close to him, without fear of losing myself. He was such a beautiful soul, and maybe the only person to ever feel the same as i do in this world. I’m happy he’s a part of me forever, but so very sad he didn’t get to live to his potential. I fucking will! For me! For him!













