get subjected to my thoughts

hello!!! Sorry in advance :) he/him

[ratandeggsman]

my cat has to be SO tired of me just being in her face, but she hasn't considered the fact that she's adorable

[ratandeggsman]

guy about to have the worst panic attack of his life: what .....? What did you just do? Crack your knuckles....?? I didn't. Know girls ciuld kdo that.... ..oh my god .... Holy d fuckk dude ......oh fuck k.....

[ratandeggsman]

hmmm....not sure if this is right.....

[ratandeggsman]

every time i feel the like drive and motivation to do something i need to do its like 11 pm. C'mon man can we please do something during business hours first. all im asking.

[pukicho]

Hey anyone

[ratandeggsman]

can we reschedule, i dont have time

[ratandeggsman]

every day i get on tumblr and see at least one post telling me a curse has been lifted. i dont know who's been putting curses on me, but it seems like an uphill battle these brave tumblr users are trying to combat until i find that son of a bitch. thank you <3

[radish-breath]

[ratandeggsman]

hl2vrai is out and im SO fucking excited but I refuse to watch it until 1. the edited version is out, and 2. until I rewatch the entire series, cast commentary and the payday stream.

i'm also watching the hl alyx gnome videos because wayne getting psychologically tortured by his friends will never not be funny

[soppsop]

probably shouldve finished the mission before drawing this but i just thought it was really funny how all of roxas's comments were "there's a lot of sand here"

[ratandeggsman]

i give so much power to the people who do/read 'character x reader' or even just putting the reader into fics because I physically cannot. I see that tag and before I even read the description im like 'get me out of there. NOW. i do not want to be there'. look you could put me in the most amazing fantasy world possible but you will never see me immersed. also i do not want to be involved with these people.

I WILL watch them have a great loving relationship from my side of the glass though.

[ficauthor]

[ratandeggsman]

sometimes you make a design so fire, god has to stop you from ever doing it again.

[ratandeggsman]

been seeing an artist on my dash that has done absolutely nothing wrong but their artstyle sets off an alert deep within my soul. im scared for them. hope they're doing okay.

[ratandeggsman]

my foster mom always has young sheldon playing as like. background noise or something but at this point when I visit I can just finish a line before the actors do in some scenes. some day ill make a one man production of young sheldon.

[ratandeggsman]

why the fuck is it so hard to find poses. Why do i have to do everything myself. this place SUCKS

[ratandeggsman]

i dont know if its an ADHD thing or a trauma thing or a mix of both, but something I feel no one talks about enough is that knowledge that you're gonna forget. It makes me a bit insane some days because I'll be hanging out with a friend or my family and I'll be hit with the thought that I'm going to forget this moment. And sometimes, it doesn't happen, sometimes it stays with you and you get to treasure that memory forever. But a good amount of the time unless there's some reminder, some photo, some video to remind you that it happened, it's just gone. I was going through my phone the other day, because I had a full storage and I found a video of me and my siblings and it just kind of killed me because until then I had totally forgotten that moment. And its not just that, it's names, places, favorite songs or moments, inside jokes.

People say things like 'if you don't remember, it's probably not worth remembering' and that's just not true!! I have trouble remember years, specific days, things that are so so important to me. I had to remind myself constantly of what my favorite disney movie was because while I loved that movie so dearly and it was such an integral part of me, it just didn't come up enough to remember and I was always so sad when I forgot it. It makes me constantly go through my saved videos or photos because I want to make sure I remember those moments, even the stupid ones. It's my first instinct whenever I run out of things to do: look at stuff I've liked in the past. (I know some people find that like, not the best or bad or something but I've always found it nice- it makes me feel connected to myself.) I dunno, it might just be a me thing, but I feel like people never talk about the forgetting enough when talking about ADHD. And usually it's easy to laugh it off, but sometimes you're just reminded you forgot a part of your life and it just kinda sits with you. You're going to forget. I'm going to forget.

[m-carrick]

being a hater is so fun until you see someone who is a hater 80% of the time and then you're like christ i hope i dont sound like that person and you stay on your best behaviour for 3 days